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just go away

I'm in so much pain

every fucking day

don't u get it?

I can't take this shit

I'm blind

do u mind

should I say

what happened 2 me 2day

should I tell you

what I've been through

do u want 2 know

what haunts me so

why do you care?

this pain I can no longer bare

u strike me down

just by that frown

u tell me I'm worth nothing

but I can't do it anymore

this pain that I indoor

just give me a minute

let me think of why I have u so

this hatred starts 2 grow

the blood flows faster down my arm

I've done so much harm

ok I understand

I'm not even a human

why do u tell me this

why do u dis

y can't u see

I just wanna be me

I just wanna cut

I just want 2 bleed

y can't you see

I love the pain

it's all I have

I can't give any1 any love

I don't have it in me

can't u see?

I run away

as I start 2 pray

all I can give is heart ace and disappointment

leave me be

as I reast in peace

I took my life away

so I could no longer run from the pain

they call me a killer

and they call me a sinner

and they call me a whore

god forbid u'de ever have 2 walk in my shoes

cus then u might know whats it's like 2 know what they say

every single fuckin' day

they call me a lier

just a fuckin' cryer

u don't understand

I have nothing but pain in the palm of my hand

the sticks u hot me with

and the stones u glady throw

there's nothing left 2 hold

I have no love in my life

so I handle my problems with my knife

my love 2 every1 is like a razorblade kiss

cutting deep inside their lips

u try 2 say I love u

and good bye

u don't know what I go through

here without u

heaven blazes in my eyes

silent scream, crys, as I slowly die

laying in my own blood

u see what happens when they call me a killer

when they call me a sinner

when they call me a whore

have u ever been lost inside

so unloved within

that u almost died

have u ever stepped out of the light and realized that u almost died

I've cried

so many tears

stay back

this is what u lack

love and hatred

is so sacred

crushed between hurt and pain

I try 2 restrain

blood drips off my hand

god isn't it grand

son't u wanna understand

that a life like mine

just wants 2 shine

locked in darkness

heartace and moitionless

cry and then die

my troubles have come but not yet passed

don't dare ask

leave me be

leave me 2 be me

the cryer

and the dier

the sacrificer

the suicide victim

the one that wants 2 take my own life

with my stainless steal knife

I'm suicidal

don't ask me to deny it

I'm suicidal now read of my pain

and scream in vain

ignore me like u always have

u don't care

just leave me alone

I am dis owned

and unloved

with a samll twist

I slit my wrist

blood comes out

as I stroll about

listen 2 my cry

listen 2 me die

you loved me

then was afraid of what I can be

you see a demond

yet u have no idea that I can be free

free 2 live the life 4 me

my hands are filled with blood

as I lay in the mud

wasteing away

praying 4 the day

that life will end

these scars refuse 2 mend

a lonly cry

aone I die

stay away

as I wait 4 that beautiful day

when I take my life

with my own knife

one at a time

one in the same

one is the time

that remains

snip back the weak befor they give away

I'm twisted in knots from hard work and strain

I've been waiting so long 4 this time

I'm terrified

blind in ways I never realized

and I don't mind

all at a time

all in the same

califormula

I've become prey

strolling down

in my face

these tears I'm not crying

this wil not kill me

u promised u would never hurt me

why can't u see

what should I do

2 get u 2 see what I'm going through

what have u done

u grabed a gun

u promised u would never hurt me

why can't u see

that u made me cry

made me want 2 die

I got so weak

come take a peak

every day u loved me less

it's hey I love u more

why don't u see

u promised u would never hurt me

the life I stole

the life unknown

I cut my wrist

small little slits

the screams

of my dreams

the suicide

my world calides

the life I slote

so very unknown

don't cry 4 me

don't die 4 me

I'm so happy

I'm a stolen life

by my own knife

can't u see

the life I stole

the life I would hold

the life unknown

blood of my own

I cry alone

with a twist of my wrist

I make the slit

I can't stand my life

I grab my knife

I'm so scared

this isn't fair

what should I do

I have no1 2 run 2

blood of my own

yet again I cry alone

Why?

Why are you still with me?

You know you could do much better!

I dont deserve you.



You know i'm psycho

You know im an idiot

Stupid, f*cked up, going knowhere in life

But yet your still with me.

We both say "I LOVE YOU"

We both say "WE ARE GREAT"

but yet inside,

Im rotten, dead, black, and crying.

I hide my sadness

With a fake smile

I cant take this sh*t anylonger

Thats smile...ITS FAKE!!

I cry everynight

Wishing i was happy

Wishing that someday that smile could be real

But inside has roptten me away

Whenever you think im happy,

Thats when im crying inside

Because i hurt so badly

And i cant get rid of those

F*cked up feelings inside!!

Play ground bell rings again

Rain clouds come to play again

had nnoone told you she's not breathing?

Hello im your mind

giving you someone to talk to

hello?



if i smile i dont believe

soon i know ill wake from this dream

dont try to fix me im not broken

hello, im the lie living for you

so you can hide

dont cry

suddenly i know im not sleeping

hello? im still here

The Missing Thing



Looking for the missing thing

Incompleteness

Yawns and yawns

The hollow O

Echoes with the dentist's terror

It only stows pretences

A blind cave

Where nothing is



Nothing comes in juggernaughts

The GDP of every nation docked in vessels

Feeding the black hole.

At the rim,

Overloaded pressure cracks and warps

Any living thing



Nothing feeds her hideous grubs

The missing air rent with hissing sounds

Of vacuum mouths

Barrels of missile-launchers

Bell-toll tanks

All hollow



Any life surviving,

Groping around in the dark

Looking for the missing thing

See this its my blood,

It seems like I have no life,

And noone seems to care.

That does'nt matter anymore,

Im fading away, but yet so slowly.



It seems I have to cut myself,

So I dont feel so lonely.

Who cares if it is bad,

you never knew why

I was so sad.

That doesnt matter anymore.

You see this it's my blood,

I knew you never cared,

I am gone now,

Because of what you dared

the lover leeps

as the night starts to creep

the lover leeps alone

she just wanted 2 be home

she wanted 2 fit in

but there's a game she will never win

you laughed at her because she was diffrent

can't u people take the hint

she was always the lonly 1

she just wanted 2 become

what every1 wanted her 2 be

u made me change me

I just wanted 2 be apart of the crowd

I wasn't aloud

I love u

I helped u get through

why were u afraid

what a couple we could have made

when u were down I was there there pushing u 2 the top

I was always there givein' u all I've got

but all u did was give me pain

days full of rain

well here I am, at lovers leep

as a lover leeps alone yet again

You all laugh at me because i'm different I laugh at you because you're all the same





this is a great saying I think that suicidal kitten is a very intelligent woman and I would love 2 talk 2 her

she inspires me

my dreams are filled with fright

there is no light

I have 2 stay awake

I'm always up late

the sounds of screams

fill my dreams

this is my suicide fright

I try 2 fight

this just isn't right

I cry

then I die

my blood drips

every1 take a dip

in2 my world

it's just so cold

I'm over this

I've got 2 make this life make since

now I can't tell what I've done

every lie I shun

I thought this would be fun

this is my suicide fright

nothing is ever right

1. Get 24 boxes of condoms and randomly put them in people's carts when they aren't looking.



2. Set all the alarm clocks in Housewares to go off at 5-minute intervals.



3. Make a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to the womens rest room.



4. Walk up to an employee and tell him/her in an official tone, 'Code 3' in housewares.... and see what happens.



5. Go the Service Desk and ask to put a bag of M&M's on lay away.



6. Move a 'CAUTION - WET FLOOR' sign to a carpeted area.



7. Set up a tent in the camping department and tell other shoppers you'll invite them in if they'll bring pillows from the bedding department.



8. When a clerk asks if they can help you, begin to cry and ask 'Why can't you people just leave me alone?'



9. Look right into the security camera; use it as a mirror, and pick your nose.



10. While handling guns in the hunting department, ask the clerk if he knows where the anti- depressants are.



11. Dart around the store suspiciously loudly humming the "Mission Impossible" theme.



12. In the auto department, practice your "Madonna look" using

different size funnels.



13. Hide in a clothing rack and when people browse through, say "PICK ME!" "PICK ME!"



14. When an announcement comes over the loud speaker, assume the fetal position and scream "NO! NO! It's those voices again!!!!"



15. Go into a fitting room and shut the door and wait a while; and,



then, yell, very loudly, "There is no toilet paper in here! '



THIS ISN'T MINE....... i JUST THINK IT'S FUNNY

the end is near

maybe I'll just disappear

my blood drips on the floor

I'm on the beach shore

I sit alone and wonder why

these people love 2 make me cry

there's a box high up on the shelf

ment 4 me

no1else

there's a peice of a puzzle known as life

wrapped in guilt sealed up tight

I'm not ok

I don't wanna live this long day

I wish I could go away

life is so fuckin' hard

I feel as if I'm barred

locked in a cage

feeling bad with my old age

I'm broken

I'm loansom

there's so much left 2 learn

and no1 left 2 find

I want 2 hide

from my dreams of suicide

isn't it funny isn't it sad that my dreams of suicide

arethe best I ever had

these are my dreams of suicide

blood of my own

I cry alone

where should I go?

what should I do?

I don't understand what u want from me

cus I don't know if I can trust u

the darkness falls

please hear my calls

the puddle of my blood on the bed

I rest my head

hear my screams

listen 2 my dreams

please understand

I will not comand

I can't take it anymore

I'm by the beach shore

hear my plead

rescue me

blood of my own

I stand unknown

my sweet suicide

my world will slowly colide

I scream

because of my dreams

with a twist of my wrist

I make the slit

I don't understand

some1 give me a hand

why do I have so much pain

I have nothin' 2 lose and nothing 2 gain

I don't beleive in anything

I have no belief of nothing

a lonly cry

alone I die

with a puddle of blood on the bed

I will rest my head

and soon be dead

u don't get it

I can't deal with this shit

alonly cry

alone I shall die

my sweet sweet suicide

my world will slowly colide

I won't let u in

don't even begin

why don't u see?

see what I can be

I'm not what I appear

I just want 2 disappear

hear my cry

hear me die

I've lost everything

I'm not a human being

I won't let u in

don't even begin

I hate my life

I grab my knife

I will die alone

I am unknown

I am a poser

I'm just a loner

forget me

forget what I can be

I won't let u in

don't even begin