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Somewhere along the way I lost the thing I hold most dear to me...myself. I have recovered from so many things. Yet for some reason this, you, have thrown me for a loop I never expected. I did not come here to fall in love or even in like. I did not come here to find a soulmate or a past love. I did not come here to be hurt. Or to be made vulnerable again.



My dream for myself is as following:

I will let go of my concerns about what I could have done or should have done. Instead I will look at the chances I have at being in the moment, doing the right thing in this moment.



My regrets about the past are viceral and painful. Yet, I must once again attempt to learn from those regrets and allow them to teach and to motivate me. In this moment, I can take the valuable lessons I've learned and move forward with them. I have been sucessful with this in the past and I will be successful with this again.



It is obviuos that every action, and every failure to act, has a reaction and it's own consequences.



I have changed my life for the better so many times...and once again I will do so. I will make my soul as pure as I am able. I will make my heart as open and as understanding as I am able. I will clear my mind as much as I am able. I will love and care for my body as much as I am able. I will mend relationships that I contributed to tearing down...as much as I am able. And those relationships that can not be healed...I will mourn and release.



I have many regrets, my love. I regret things I have done. I regret hurting people I love. What I most regret is giving you all of my personal power. At what point did I become that woman? I had made so much progress...I allowed myself to be so vulnerable to you. I am a strong woman, you always tell me that and you remind me how good I am. I remind you how sometimes I am tired of being strong. And how I need a person who loves me to be strong and hold me up, so that I may rest. I remind you I need to be looked over while I sleep. I will find a way to continue to be strong. I will find others to watch over me and provide me strength when I am weary...for we all need someone to watch over us sometimes.



I have a future that will be shaped by what I do today. I will make my life better. I will make my life full again. I will heal the wounds that have been cut into my flesh and soul. I will allow you to be my Witness.

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Jho
08:11 Dec 29 2008

Hmm...

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PaganPrincessAdina
13:16 Dec 29 2008

that is beautiful i feel like you were writing from my book ya know

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MorbidAngels15
14:51 Dec 29 2008

that came from the heary didnt it hun, i wish i was strong willed like you hun would help me alot =[ i need to make the right choices and make things better

thanks tam, by you writing this it helped me understand the way i am feeling

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shadowlord420
18:27 Dec 29 2008

good work thy coven sister a 10 for this

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This beauty



I have seen the depth in your eyes

Though your face will never rest in my hands



So soft and full are your lips

Though a stolen kiss will never be mine



Such beauty that is you in all your glory

I may never compare

To the passion of Monet

Or to a sunset so fair



This beauty you exude

Cannot painted on a sheet

No photograph can do it true



Though I will never feel you warmth

I have seen your beauty deep within you



This beauty is to me my friend

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shadowlord420
18:24 Dec 29 2008

killer poem i do say so

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