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Smooth, Elegant, Suave, Beautiful, Self Aware, Impeccable taste, Truly incapable of duplication. Master of masking. A chameleon of modern times. Less we forget a scent more distinct then any other being I’ve ever come in contact with. They could bottle her up and brand her a new drug. My teacher. My lover. My destroyer. I’ve spent years under her wing. She guided me along through my process of life teaching me all the ways of my kind. Providing me with the necessary tools of survival. She showed me love, showered me in affection. Wrapped me in lust always leaving me hungry for more. She taught me restraint and obedience. She gave me all of her knowledge. She was more then I could ask for in a teacher and a companion. Then when there was nothing left to learn, nothing left to give, she left. Without warning or regret she simply disappeared. I waited for her for years in the same place she left me. Nothing. It was the first time I felt my heart break. The final lesson. You can not depend so much on one person. I wonder even know how many times has she taught these lessons. How many hearts she left in pieces smashed against the ground. Even after it all I do not hate her nor fell regret towards her. I love her the same ,even after years have gone bye. My Teacher. My Lover. My Oldest Friend. My Destroyer. I could have not asked for more.

A companion. Someone to spend the years with. Instead of this loneliness that steals my time. Some of the most simplest things are the hardest to come by. It truly makes you wonder, what are you really longing for? Money? Success? Sex? Love? Truth? Faith? All truly simple things are they not yet people put so much into them as if they will never have enough. As if it will all just disappear if they don't reach out and grab it quick enough. But through the endless years it hasn't changed you all still fight and die for it. Destroying one enougher just to get a step closer to it. Why? Out of all my years this is something I have wondered the most yet have not found a answer for. So please help me out what do you desire?

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Robin3x3
21:46 Nov 01 2011

i seek what you seek. a companion. what you seek is so hard for people to comprehend sometimes.

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I was simply passing through my old town going into the local grocery store when I stopped in aw. It was you. Years had passed yet you looked the same some how. You walked by as I turned away so you could not see me. Yet to my suprise you stopped and turned back around. Did you know it was me? Did you recall my smell, my scent. Then just like that you quickly turned away. Whats running through your head? It's been over four years since we last saw each other before I left without reason. Did you even see me? But I had a reason. I couldn't allow you to see me as this monster who bares no time. I wanted to stop you in your tracks hold you in my arms and simply listen to the seasons change. How cruel and unfair that would be to you. You deserve so much more, more then I could give you. My sweet darling I watched you leave for the final time, the last time my heart will break in your hands. It was always you. Goodbye Louise Goodbye.

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XandrogyneX
02:56 Nov 01 2011

I really like this. I know it's very personal but i can relate to what you said. I too have been there. Had a love that i had to let go and every time I see this person, I wonder whether they get the same warm feeling i get when they're near.

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TT
10:57 Nov 01 2011

This is well written, It is quite a familiar feeling.

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