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I get so tired of being everything im not for him.. I just want to be excepted for who and what I am.. But out of everything I give all I recieve in return is critisism.. No one wants to live this way which is why I am taking action.. Question is will I actually go through with it.. I cant say.. Because there are 3 reasons as to why.. I cant be the reason that they are not happy. I cant be the reason that things just ended.. I wont be the reason that there is a whole in their heart.. In a place that I cant help or fill.. So im stuck.. as many people are..

I sometimes wonder if im in the right place at the right time in my life.. I think we all truly know inside.. And I dont feel I am... I have felt off the right road for soooo long now I dont really know how to get back to where im supposed to be.. Its like a bad road trip.. You get so far down the road you look at your gas, and your funds and you dont really know if the trip back is worth it.. But also in the same token.. How are you sure that other road doesnt lead you to disaster.. Cause I am a firm believer that we all move off of track sometimes.. And that sometimes that track that your supposed to be on can lead to shit.. But the shit you go through is the lesson that you need to know for your walk through life... And I have also recently figured out that your constantly in school in my opinion.. You get one lesson done and then another gets plopped in your lap... Never ending learning.. Just goes to show that your elders that you look up to.. Not just in family and life.. Are truly wise.. Yet we dont head their warnings therefore another lesson in your massive stack.. I hope I get there eventually.. Cause this road trip sucks... Maybe im just making a big circle back around as we speak.. But dont ask me because I havent the slightest clue..

For some people they have this view of you and your life like you dont know pain.. They assume you are in a glass box. So pristine.. Like your not surrounded by the same bullshit as everyone else in the world.. And quite possibly that your past isnt full of memories that anyone would love to forget. Well no one is perfect. We all have things in life that have changed us.. For some shaped your character.. For some lead you down the wrong road.. And ultimately just added to your list of wishful forgetting.. Or maybe they should also contemplate that there are simply some things that you want no human being knowing.. Some of the people in this world dont mind those skeletons so much.. Sometimes makes the nights not so lonely..Shit, I name mine..lol...So please.. Dont assume things about people.. Its not fair when you dont know what kind of shit they have walked through to get where they are..