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Easter went okay. I had to put up with "that other girl" being brought up during dinner. 15 to 20 minutes of racial remarks, jokes and put downs of her and you know what, I defended her. I couldn't defend Brett but I did her.



I've had dreams of conversations with her. I miss talking to her even though it was her choice and like she had stated, I knew it was coming.



It just sucks.



Links are broken from chains every day.



I only have a few people I consider friends anymore. Most of my "friend" links are broken.



What do I miss about my high school years?



Courtney. Amanda. Tad. The people who were close to me.



Courtney is gone.

Amanda, I haven't talked to.

Tad is usually doing gay bar jigs and stuff. I don't talk to him often. No real trust anymore there.

Jared... I don't know. A lot has happened. A lot has changed.



As for the three girls I could see being best friends with until we died... one turned on me, one hates the fact I threw away a 14 year friendship because of the hurt the one had caused, and the other, her brother had spread rumors and turned around and complained about them.



What friends do I really have?



Wow, depressive moment.



I seriously need to get out of the house. Not just in nature... but also in public more.



I guess the fact I'm going to a wedding in August is a good thing, right? LOL!



Maybe I'll go to a club one night with Tim or someone. Just get the fuck out of here for a bit.



I need a small break. Everyone does, right?

My premium expires on the 8th. I'm sad about it but oh well. I should be able to get everything backed up somehow on pictures and stuffs. I don't think I'm going to have the money to renew it.



Facebook has been drama-filled between listening to some people on Brett's statuses. I can't stand some of it so I'm staying away from a lot of things anymore.



We're spending Easter with my family. Aurora and I've made two cheesecakes, colored eggs and I'm making pumpkin pies in a bit.



I'm miserable because I'm either dealing with allergies or the flu. I'm hanging in there though.



I have my neurologist appointment this week! =)



I'm so ready to find out what's going on with me.