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living my life in a fantasy

it cant be real, not for me

its going by to fast and free

everyones dying and everyones crying

except for me



life is to short

and no one can see

thats we live to short

and its not so free



life is a prison

and once we die

we can live free with glee



when im in heaven

with my family

i will be happy

i will be me

I feel weak

I cant speak

no words come to mind

my hands are sweaty

my heart beats unsteady

Every time i see him



I feel the butterflies

I can't look into his eyes

Because im afraid ill be mezmerized



hes in my dreams

day and night

I can almost feel him holding me tight

what i wouldnt give for just one chance

to have him notice me

with more than a glance



when i see him smile

i tingle inside

it brightens my day

and my night



i lie awake at night

day dreaming of him

us holding hands

walking along the tide of the beach

bare foot

collecting sea shells

and soaking up the sun



if he were mine

i would fight till death

to keep him safe

and keep him mine



even though hes my friend

he probably doesnt even know

my true love for him



these are My Signs of Love

that i just can resist

when you have lived life like i have

you would be like me too



i've moved my entire life

so i dont make friends on purpose



i have had to raise the younger sibilings

and i've had to to even raise my own mom



i cant do that anymore

im just a kid

if i keep this up

this will be my end



i will be in the hospital

and i will die

if life ends up like this again

if i died

everyone would have cried

people would go mad

people would die



i would be missed

dearly



if i died

i would have cried



i love this life

but this isnt

what i want to be



i want to be free

and careless

floating in the clouds

with my family



so if i die

dont cry

just remember me for the person i was

and always will be

have you ever loved someone so much it hurts

i have, my heart aches

after they ripped it apart i still care for them

some people call me stupid

some people call me weak

but what are you supposed to do when you love someone

after all the heartache

and you find out they love you just as much

as you love them



you cant tell them

cause then you would be giving in

its better off if you stay friends



you just fixed the ache so you must not

make life any more complicated



so dont you give in

cause in the end

you were always better off friends



if you give in to the pain

then you will never forgive that fatal mistake

so hold on tight

this is your life

Death is my friend

he will be the end

but im ready to go

i want to visit my friend



when i die i wont say goodbye

goodbyes are forever

i will see them again



so life goes on

and so does the road

one day i will live there



im going away from myself

and everyone to visit my very best friend

his name is death

he will lead me in the right direction

and i will be ok



so when i die

no one can cry cause

im just going on a road trip

you'll see me again

all of you

my very best friends

you broke my heart

and broke your own too

i found someone to fix my heart

you should too



your life isnt over

since you lost me

you are just missing a piece of your heart

that you ripped away after me



you should be happy too

so live your life

and forget about me



we are still friends

and who knows in the end

we may be more



but im not ready

to lose another love

or i may lose my will to love



so just be patient

wait it out

cause in the end

you were never without me



i was always there

you just kept pushing me away

with the "i love you's"

for now it's just best to be friends

living life the way i see fit

trying to make the best of it

i love someone and they love me

but why do i always feel so without glee



im getting depressed again

im losing my will to live again

why do i care anymore

life is just so boring



if i were to die

people would cry

someone would die

others would deny



so i'll just out live

the rest of them

and be the one suffering

in the end

being a kid

and living my life

i was never a kid

i was always the adult



i raised my mom

and i raised her kids

after they split up



my mom and dad used to be happy

he did things wrong

but she was so happy for so long



i havent seen him since that day

i still remember us driving away

and him waving goodbye

and that is the day i truly died inside



i have no father

i have no mother

i only have myself



i have opened up to someone again

but we will end up just being friends

in the end im meant to be alone

and have very few friends