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09:45 Jun 16 2010
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Im uh....going to see my mother tomorrow. Permission to FREAK THE FUCK OUT! Man, going to her house is like going to an episode of The View *bangs head against the keyboard*

Ah well.......at least I swindled her into going swimming since she has a pool she never uses and hires a pool man to clean it, and NEVER FUCKING uses it. Yes, Im gonna go swimming.................and steal a peice of my stepdad's chocolate cake afterward lmao! Yeeeeah! Rock on!

COMMENTS

SuicideDoll
10:23 Jun 16 2010

Haha, I hear you there - sounds like our mothers are a lot alike.

But, at least you're getting swimming and chocolate cake out of the deal, so that's not too bad : )

CelestiaLaura202
12:51 Jun 16 2010

good for you , you need to have some chill time and the swim will do you and your mom good after what has been happening

captainglobehead
18:00 Jun 19 2010

Cake? You got cake?

09:19 Jun 15 2010
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My nightly checklist:

Missing my friend

Another wicked Lupus flare up from hell

Severe Physical pain that just doesnt seem to end

Longing

Needing

The feeling that I have done something wrong when I know logically I have not

Severely Sun Burned

STRESSED OUT

In need of some serious sexual healing!

Wanting my smile back

*heads up to that bed and attempts to unwind with ALL thats going on*

I sincerely hope tomorrow will be a better day........

COMMENTS

CelestiaLaura202
13:06 Jun 15 2010

It will be a great day today!

Arkanisca818
18:59 Jun 15 2010

Just remember some of thinking about you and wishing you feel better

Miss you

09:08 Jun 14 2010
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Tears. Lots of tears.

Tears that make your bottom lip tremble. Silence and isolation. Confusion.

There is no joy right here and right now. Not even a tiny sliver. Just...................tears and more tears. Plenty of sadness.

COMMENTS

SuicideDoll
11:00 Jun 14 2010

I'm sorry to hear that, Di.

CelestiaLaura202
19:49 Jun 14 2010

if you need a friend please feel free to message me.

DestroyingAngel
07:02 Jun 15 2010

*Smiles to self sadly* Thank you. You guys are amazing friends!

Uncomfortable and in need of my special Vitamin!
09:55 Jun 07 2010
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I am completley exhausted and completley drained of all energy. I am both agitated and in need. It's going to be another hot night here tonight. I cant rest well when I have to try to get comfortable in that bed and the only cool breeze thats out there sails right past my window. Looks like I am losing my voice a bit too. Im pretty badly sun burned. So damn uncomfortable. I'll be heading up to that queen sized bed, alone. Naked. Clothing only seems to confine me when im this hot and uncomfortable.

Strip out of all clothing. Become naked and lay as still or as still and comfortable as I can manage to. Lay as close as I can to the open window...............I dont even care if any of the other windows could see me laying there nude without a stitch on me. I feel so drained........

So very drained indeed. I need to be replenished. The odd part is whenever I feel this drained and whenever I feel this uncomfortable.............all I really want is to be touched gently. Im a sicko....im this miserable and all I want is sexual healing lol! *sighs and makes my way up the stairs to the bed and the candles*

Vitamin D.....Vitamin D could MOST DEFINATLEY replenish me right now....

*sighs*

COMMENTS

SuicideDoll
11:19 Jun 07 2010

I know exactly what you mean in regard to sleeping admist miserable heat. I live on the top floor of my apartment building and the humidity is brutal in the summer. Best wishes in staying cool : )

xxBlueFairyxx
13:50 Jun 07 2010

Your not a sicko all human beings need affection and reassurance. We truly weren't made to be alone. Though some of us choose to be.