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What is the basic meaning of revenge? Is it the selfish nature that we all possess? Is it an unbearable, unrecognizable urge that makes us want others to feel what we feel? Is it a drive that causes us to derive pleasure from another's pain?



Over the last 24 hours, I've reached a point in my life where only one thing matters: feeling. Feeling anything and everything you can and showing others what you feel. There is a distinct problem with this: people (other than Empaths) don't know what you feel and will never know. So I'm going to show them. I'm sick of being lonely and denying what I truly am. I've made myself into someone that everyone wants and I've bent and bent to their wills at every turn. Now it's my turn for retribution. I'm going to make myself even more desirable. Then, when every person (men or women, they both are attracted to me in some form or another) comes to me asking to be with me, I'm going to say no as often as it takes. Then, maybe they will feel the profound loneliness and pain I feel every day of my life.



The vampire is, in essense, an evil creature. We feed off of the life force of living beings (psychically or sanguinally, it doesn't matter). I'm a nice guy by nature and by choice, but no longer. It's time for people to learn what it is I am and experience the pain and longing I feel. Council be damned.

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MasterMindedFate
02:20 Dec 27 2009

self gratifaction,the enjoyment in anothers fall,the pleasure in creating chaos in one enemies life

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It's said that every person has their own curse. Well, mine is a curse of the mind and soul. I feel too much and remember too much. The dominant feeling in my life is loneliness and I don't know how to deal with it. All I want is a woman to love me, a family to care for me, and a life I can be proud of. Not too much to ask for, if you ask me.



Last night I got so drunk I couldn't remember my own name, literally. $150 worth of alcohol is what it takes for me to not feel anything, let alone loneliness. It's sad and pitiful, I know, but I had to do something otherwise I would go insane. I have no trouble meeting women, the problem lies in those women thinking I'm too nice or too chivalrous and run from it as fast as they can. I don't know what's so bad about a nice guy. Why is it that women always have to fall for the idiots and assholes that they know are bad for them and leave the nice guy who only wants to love and be loved behind to hold the bag? I don't know and probably never will. I have a distinct feeling that I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life and the only two options for my life I have right now is end it now or deal with it, but I don't know if I'm strong enough to deal with it on my own.

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Theban
14:42 Dec 17 2009

I have it all and feel lonley sometimes....keep your chin up.

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