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Random Inspiration
16:57 Mar 31 2006
Times Read: 735

I Feel Betrayed!

Standing in the shade!



I Watch You pass!

AS I Sit on the Grass



You Kiss Her Neck

I'm Just A Stupid Feck!



You Catch My Eye, And Hold My Gaze!

I Simply Lie, And Pretend I'm Blind! Working out my mental Maze!



You Stand And Stare, Way Over There!

I see your Grin, Slide Of your Chin!



You See The Gentle Splatter!

Of My Crimson Blood, Splash Upon the grass!

You Can see The Colour Contrast!



You Fight Your Concience!

What is right?

Stay Over there And Watch The Fight?

Or Run Over Here And Save My Life?



Your Torn About What To do?

You Cared For me, I Still Care For You!



I Miss Your Hugs!

I miss Your Touch!

I miss Your Kiss!

I Miss Your Stare!



I remember when You where Always there!



Remember Me From When I Was Here! I Am Now

Gone, There Is Nothing Left For Me Here!

SCARS!?!
20:04 Mar 29 2006
Times Read: 737

Could You Sit And Count The Scars?

The Scars On My Arms?



SCARS!?!

See The Scars, Here On My Arms!

Count Them Up, Don't You think That I'm Ashamed?



I Am Ashamed, And I Still Get Blamed!

My Past Is Bad, All Because Of Some

Stupid Lad!



Some Stupid Lad, And Now I'm Sad

He Ruined Me, Took my Innocence And

Broke My Soul!



Did You Wonder Why I Cry Myself

To Sleep At Night? Did You Think My Tears where Yours?

But, No they're Not, My Tears Are Wrong!

Memory's
22:26 Mar 26 2006
Times Read: 739

Can You Believe,

That I'm A Mere Memory

Of What Used To Be!

I'm Not Really Here This Isn't Real It's All Pretend

And In Your Head!

I Haunt Your Dreams And Capture You Heart In My Vibrant Green Eyes!

Imagine It Captured By A Memory!

Your Haunted By My Eyes

Your Tormented By My Voice

My Words Are Stuck In Your Head!

There's No Escape

From My Iron Grip

Your Incased In My Heart

Your Smothered By My Breasts!

All By A Memory

That's Right A Mere Memory Of What I Used To Be!!

Objects!
20:23 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 745

Objects of pleasure, Standing still like stagnent water!





One Drop of blood, from the prick of a finger!

Love is poisen, Slowly dripping onto the petals of blood red roses!





The Childish laughter from the bitter wind, The splattering pain like a dead man's Brain!

Falling from teh cloads in the hellish sky! Angel's tears hurt!





The Red eyes of the earth Watching, Our shadowless Souls, Wander around and around Blindly!





Slowly starting to Drown! In the bath! Watching for the last, lifeless breathe! The shallownesss of humans, Only wishing, Seperate lies!



Watching carefully with eyes shut tight! Seeing only what is in there minds eye! There idea of a perfect world! Missing the pain, Lies and deciept!

Missing the whore which is the world!

Hating the dreams of the innocent minds that blink and miss the obvious problems!

So Come On

Lets All Pretend!

Pretend That Sluttiness

Is Just On The Earth

And Isn't What Makes The Entire World!

@~>Bleeding Onto The Purest Petal!@~>

Fear!"
19:20 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 746

Fear is only a weakness!





As I sit here alone, in the gentle pouring rain! Just watching........

Watching the rain washing away all the impurities of life away forever!

Just Losing sight of life!

Wishing that it was just that simple!

This originally started life as some song lyrics but i decided against them when i couldnt get a tune!!
19:19 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 747






Help me please help me!!

Don't let my feeling sget me!

Stop them please stop them!!

keep them away from me!



Do you know what it feels like

Being trapped in your own head?

Do you know what it feels like

Living with a broken heart?



I wish I could tell you

How I am feeling!

I wish I could tell you

Whats going on!



Do you know what it feels like

Living like I do?

Do you know what it feels like

Holding it in?



If only you knew

What I am going through!

You have no idea

What it's like having to hide it!



Do you know what it fells like

Living in my world?

Do you know what it feels like Day in and day out?

The day of death!
19:18 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 748

The day of death approaches!

Heart breaking sadness!

Utter madness!

Pain
19:18 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 749

Pain beyond all pain, Like none ever felt before!

It's gone forever I can't believe it's gone!

Tears can't heal this pain!

People
19:17 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 750

People are only human Even when they try to be something that they're not!



Noone is superior to you!!



There is noone Who has the right to judge you for being yourself!

REMEMBER THIS ALWAYS!

Love?
19:16 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 751

Have you ever been in love?

The deepness of this feeling Goes down to the core!

This love is too painful to keep, But, I can't Get rid of his face or his words!

Why does my life suck so much.

Questions
19:16 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 752

Why does Love hurt?

Why is peace so far away?

When will we be left alone?

Why is everyone so false?

What happened to truth?

Why all these Questions that have no answers?



Pure evil rules the earth, And it always will do!

Why do you have to suffer intense pain, for a little pleasure?

Life is so unfair and cruel!

It's unbearable Most of the time, I JUST WANT TO DIE!

The tears Make your Eyes swell. The sobbing makes your lungs tight!

The anger and the sorrow make your body strong!

The pain makes the tears come!

Life causes the pain!

I will never be happy again!

Opposites!
19:15 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 753

Life

Death

Love

Hate

Hot

Cold

Smile

Frown

Big

Small

Up

Down

High

Low



People die all around me when will it be my turn?

I deserve to die!

I don't deserve

Love, Life or Friends

I deserve to be punished For all the nasty things I've done!

EVIL COWS DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE!

I DESERVE TO DIE!!

Trust
19:15 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 754

Close your eyes!

Come on trust me!

You know you want to!

I won't hurt you promise x

Just because I have a knife!

Why should I trust you now?

Now that I know you don't trust me?

You expect me to tell you everything, You Couldn't handle it!



Believe me!

Trust is hard to find!

You have to earn it!

Leave my existance alone!

Stay out of my life!

And stay out of the Dark!! DO YOU HEAR ME?

GOOD!!

Don't You ever forget it!

Scars
19:14 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 755

These scars on my arms!

Are my past!

The open wounds on my skin!

Are my present!

The pain in my heart!

Is my future!

Dreams
19:14 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 756

Dreams of being wanted!

Will never come true!

Thats the way life is!

I was born a loner!

Nothing
19:13 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 757

There is nothing to live for!

But, There is no point in dieing either!



Whats the point in Hopes, Dreams and Wishes,

When you know that they'll never come true!



What's the point in being happy?

When your so sad?



There is no place here for me!



Sitting here counting all the visible scars!



I may go home to blag some moneys from my mother for teh alcohol i need so very, very, very badly!

You all see!
19:13 Mar 16 2006
Times Read: 758

You all see me as the Fat, Ugly Goth who always sits alone!

The one who cuts herself. And wishes for death.

I am the girl who loses everything to everone else, Who doesn't let anyone see teh pain.

I am The master of disguise who can Hide everything sho doesn't want seen!

I sit here just wanting, To be wanted for who I am, Without having to play the part of someone I'm not.

I just want to be hugged!

I need to feel safe, Like I belong I don't tho!

And I never will, Because I am selfish I am undeserving destined to be alone always To sit here and cry is what I'll never do! Here I am crying in my own world of self hate!

i think this is rather beautiful!
23:04 Mar 13 2006
Times Read: 767

Here I am, That's Right just me!

Looking out towards a tree!



Thinking that it looks so high!

Wondering if it is touching the sky!



Thinking that it is so wide!

Wondering if it knows I lied!



Telling people I havn't cried!

Whilst I'm actually trying to hide!



Thinking back to when I was little!

Remembering How I let my tears trickle!



Down my cheeks and onto the floor!

Then just walking out the door!



Wishing That I could see!

What it is I'm meant to be!



Walking round the streets at night!

Watching people run in Fright!



A Child Is walking with Darkened Eyes!

This child has been told too many lies!



She never laughs, And never cries!

This is why she wants to die!



I stand and stare out at the tree!

Wishing I could be Free.......

Just be free from being Me!!

Kerensa Rachel Gregory

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Letter/Poem
23:25 Mar 12 2006
Times Read: 768

To Whoeever :-



When You Look At Me

What Is It That You SEE?



Do You See The Outside Shell?

Or, The Pain And hurt Inside?



Does It Make You Want To Hold/ Love And Protect Me From More Pain And Heartbreak?



Or, Do You Want To Run And Hide Away From The Sadness Of My Eyes?



Could You Handle Me?

Could You Cope With The Insecurity That Is My Life and Soul?



Could You Hold Me Out Of Love Rather Than Out Of Sympathy?



Could You Look Me In The Eyes And Tell Me That You Love Me?



Would You Be Able To Accept Me For Who I Am! And Not For Where I've Been Or What I'Ve Done?



Would You Love Me?



Would You Hug Me?



Would You Kiss Me?



Would You Do All You Could To Make Me Smile?



Would You With Me Always?



In Sleep, In Thought And In Person?



Would You Want Me First Thing In The Morning And Last Thing At Night?



Would You Smile When You Saw Me, Or Even When You Received A Text Or A Call From Me?



I Would For You!



I'd Give You All I Could To Keep You Mine!



That Is All I Want To Know!



Could You Handle ME?

Let Me Know!

KERENSA RACHEL GREGORY

Yours For Aslong As You Want ME!!!

this may seem rather emo but i think its quite amusing!
23:12 Mar 12 2006
Times Read: 769

I Have Cried My Final Tear!

I Have Nothing Left To Fear!



What Do I Have To Lose?

Not Alot, Not Even Shoes!



You've Taken Everything Important To Me!

Now You Want To Watch Me Fall ANd Break MY Knee!



See Me Struggle To Survive!

Stand And Laugh When I Hit The Drive!



I've Shown You What Is In My Mind!

I've Made You Wish That You Where Blind!



You Tried Break Me, Make Me Small!

I Turned It Round, Now I'm Tall!



You Thought You'd Made My Heart Break!

That Was Me Just Being Fake!



I Made You Believe That I Was Your's!

I Was Actually Playing You Along the Shores!



I'm Not As Bitter AS I Would Seem!

You Just Happen To Be Playing On The Wrong Team!



You May Have Seen That I Am Mean!

But, That's Just To You, You Are Too Keen!





Yes I Am A Bitch, But, You My Dear Fell Into The Ditch!



You See You Never Could Have Broke My Heart!

As I am Just About To Start, For I am Actually Just A Tart!



You Thought You Knew Me! But, I Proved You Wrong!

Noone Knows Me! I Am Too Strong!



I Am Alone

I Don't Need Anyone

Especially Not You!

GoodNight To All

Kerry! xx



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