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Weeping hollowly,

I want there to be a way, that I can be myself

Everytime I try to breathe, my own mind strangles me

Why can't I let myself go,

Forget my self control, if only for a moment

I am a living shadow, this can't be truly me

How can I hate myself so?



Weeping hollowly,

Nothing worth to say its me,

These thoughts are not my own

Slipping now while drowning

Holding on to being empty

I only love pain now.



I can stop this now, there is a way

But fear is a heavy toll

Which can't be paid

Not by me

Not by this



Weeping hollowly,

I want to be myself, not what they say,

Who am I now?

Why I am so below all of this?

How can this be me?

When I never really wanted any of this

I will always love you,

I am sorry it comes to this

I want you to know that I never forgot you,

I always want to see your woundous face

I can't take anymore of it,



Millions of faces smile at me

Not knowing that I am not them

That I am dif-fer-ent



I tell them

They say its beautiful

But then leave it never found



They all love me

All love me terribly

They tell me I am wrong

I will one day see the way, of all-of-them

That's what they said to me

But I cannot not see any hope at all



I know that others love me

They found my way

And I can't wait to hold them

Close to me



I will always love you,

I am sorry it comes to this

I want you to know that I never forgot you,

I always want to see your woundous face

I can't take anymore of it,



I wish there was some other way,

I will never find the ones

I want you to know that I never forget you

I am sorry it comes to this

When you realize that you have nothing to live for

When eveyday begs for your death

And you long to oblige

Humanity is for the humans

Them and their pettiness

When Humainity is taken from a human

Everyday is passionate to watch you die

For everyone you meet

You see that these humans

Make life unworthy of your precious time

For it is in everyone you meet

That you see all things which are ill

All things which sicken you



Enjoy your misery alone

Enjoy your inhumanity alone



These things let it not

They are everywhere you will go

They are everything you will do

In this vasts of Earth

They have taken

All

And you will never get your misery

Alone

And you will never get the inhumanity

Alone



Death sees you all the time

Spits on your morbid face

In this pool of vomit called people

You don't exsist

It is too good for you

In the bowels of all the filth, where light is but a bleak memory designed to torture

You belong

You belong

You belong, for you don't deserve life for what it is

For what it has been made by them and thereby is

You deserve to have thee insesant beat for a whole time

The whole time

To see that it is Holy, to see that it is good

To see that you don't get it

Never will get it,

Be alone amongst all of them

They will always love you

They have always hated you

Never shall you see the light again

Darkness is your only soul

It is the only thing that keeps you whole



You have nothing to live for

There is nothing left



They will always love you

They have always hated you



If you ever see the light again

You pray that they take your hand

You long to be the bile of God, to be worth less than nothing

To move up in the universe



Death is the name you say for home

There is nothing to live for

Every day wants you dead

You long for the day

To give the day its Holy gift

You wish to become filth

It is so far above you now, that you can't see it

It is beyond you now

You fear there is no place to call home

You fear there is a place with your own



You wake up today, and death was your only wish

If you never see the light again

Never find somewhere to be alone,

To find a place to let fountains fall,

To fall, from you now,



And if you ever see the light again,

Life will still beg to find its end

There is nothing to live for, there can be no regrets

Can’t stand to see a tomorrow,

To know that they will still be with you,

They have always loved you

They will always hate you

You pray that they day gets its gift

To see a happy face from it

They will watch as you fall, deeper still

From this

Filth is all that you can see above you now

You long to have the time,

When you will become the bile of God

They all need to go away, you can’t take anymore

Anymore

Of any of this



Why should they be so lucky, be bloody spit

You are alone in all of this

No one will take you home

No one will take you away



The light will never come again

You are alone in all of this

You will never be so lucky to be the bile of God



Eyes are blurry now,

Death is your only home

You deserve to live forever

To forever see that you don’t get what life is

What they have made it be



You will make the fountains flow over now

Life will not see tomorrow

The day gets to open THIS

Empty and alone

Infinte frost won't numb the pain

Oceans of love from the sun



Seek Holy Shade

Run to the pain of trees



Love Always Burns



Turn your eyes

Be blind in pain



Empty and alon

Infinite suffering shatters the nerves

Songs of love from the robins



Faith in nothing

Crawl to isolated caves



Loves Always Breaks



Empty and alone

Infinite nothing revives feeling

Thoughts of love from your heart



Till the earth

Fill lungs with Him (death?)



Love Always Dies

The thorns of thee rose bring its life

I wish to touch its beauty

Only blood will pour



This rose is sweeter than rain

Pure white and gentle

Stained red from my closeness



To want is to leave this place

Turn my back for the rain

Its roots have swallowed it



Only blue skys



Isolation not possible

God made a garden of these

A world of these



All white and beautiful

The smell of death

Always with them



I beg for the aroma

To gather

And take me away



Only hunger fills my soul



My blood is all I have

These take it away

Just enough, so I won't feel the rain.

When the end of suffering

Begins to slumber

And the beautiful fog

That keeps us sober

Begins to clear



Will the cliff seem so short?

Will the fall seem so easy to take?



The world shakes under weak knees

As the light behind the fog

Caresses your face

When the flesh begins to fall

You've been on your hands and knees



The fall must be taken soon

With all the clouds

The end of it is unseen

A day? An ever?

Blood pours from useless eyes?



The fall must be taken soon

So little flesh on bones

Stripped away by the light

All is bathed in blood

As a heart hits the ground



Lying now, beside the pulsing beast

A red hand of a skeleton

Ceases the beat

Rolling over to continue it all?

Lie now, and end it all?



The fall must be taken soon



The dark figure which is He

Tells this to thee

Take my hand and feel salvation

Or fall now for ages more

Be damned now for ages more



As the red hand

Becomes one with His

Ashes blow in the wind

To take that fall

As you end it all