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im a broken shade of gray



a daughter of the black night



hiding in the shadows of white



while on my lips drip a dark red



lost in the time of uncertanity



making love to death



masquarding as innocence



dancing in a shower of blood



i scream at the touch of yellow



sleep on a peaceful bed of green



taste the sweetness of purple



and wear a shade of brown



the rays of the sun hurt



grass with the sweet smell of rain



the sweetness of grapes



and brown is the skin im in



i rest when yellow brightens the earth



dance under a singing moon



in the security of my lagoon



i can sing and dance freely for the stars



my naked body in harmony with the rythm of the earth



listen to the symphony

Never saw it coming



And never tried to stop it



In one night alove was forged



Two hearts made a promise



Forever my life was changed



Because of you...all because of you



If I cry they're tears of joy



And my hearts been made pure



You brought me tonight and showed me the light



I'll never give it up



Everything's right because of you....All because of you



You showed me a world



Deep inside of me



You gave me hope



A reason to believe in me....to believe in me



You're my lover and my friend



I'll stand by you to the end



When you cry in the night



I'll be there to hold you tight



Whisper in your ear what you wanted to hear



I love you....Baby I love you



You were my first kiss



My very first love



The sun in my sky



My angel from above



You may not believe me



But your my perfect baby

I dont know what Im suppose to do



Sickly and frail



Worn



Torn



Bleeding in my brain



Im sickend to look in my mirror



Cause I can hear all the voices that scream



'Pig' 'Bitch' 'Whore' 'Unloved'



The voices they stay and they torment me



Cause it's my punishment



Im a sick little girl



Here's the needle doctor stick it in my heart



But instead is a gaping hole where it's ment to be



Oh fuck, what do I do now



Im a goddamned zombie



Dying and decaying



But I dont want flesh and blood



No



I just want your love



I wannna feel human again



Feel again



I want to NOT look in the mirror and scream



I want to NOT close my eyes and those nightmares to dream



I want to cast aside my tears



My doubts



My weaknesses



I want to Live



Love



Die

crying bleeding begging slowly



rape the motherfucker with a knife



sweet agony and torture



blissful pain just shut up and DIE



nobody cares for it



nobody cares for you



lovers quarrels never end



dry your tears and pretend



STUPID LITTLE CUNT



You fucked up so go ahead and cry



Bullshit never spawned a perfect ending



You were never ment for the joy



Stab yourself over and over



Go fuck yourself and get a goddamned clue

Drilling nails into my head



I cant take it



All the voices the screaming the cries



I cant take it



This is bullshit



Dont tell me you want me to be me



When you hold the chains and wont set me free



Tell me it's alright to cry



Then spit in my face and leave me to die



Stop playing with my mind



Im not a toy



Not what you want



Tough shit Im what you've got



How is it Im nothing



But my pain is paramount



Take my place in hell and roast for a while



Why do you think that this is ok



Pour acid on me and watch me melt away



I otta rip your fucking heads off



Light you on fire and have a bbq



But instead i sit



I wait cause I know that all you motherfuckers that i hate



Will need me one day and I'll be gone



Oh shit



You people are in it now



Who's gonna help you when you drown



Clear waters go red



Who will save you now

Little child so small



Sits with a blank stare all day



" Little chlid" I entreat "Why is your soul incomplete?"



With empty eyes and empty voice



The little child speaks



" Devils lie in my home



Starve and beat me to the bone



Mother and Father I have none



I recieve punishment for what I have done"



"What have you done?!?"



" For me it's being alive



They claim it's love



It's for my good



But Pain for Love



That I never understood



I tried to do what is right and still it's wrong



I cut myself but I only bleed air



Because in this shell exists nothing



I used to have dreams



I used to smile



But none of that matters



When in my shoes you have walked a mile"



He pointed under a willow



And there I find



A small forgotten grave



Covered in vines



" Little one so small" I whisper with tears in my eyes



"Who's grave is this?"



And the wind whispered back



"Mine"

I cant say anything right



All i do is whine and cry



Im such a stupid little bitch



All these emotions running wild



But when i speak they never come out right



I miss him



And i love him



Im going madly insane



Cause they wont stop yelling and screaming



He used to be my escape



Now i have no where to go



Im to scared



I feel alone



Trapped in my own nightmare



With no where to go



Choke on my own breath



And watch as time passes bye



I use to understand



Now nothing makes sense



Float away my heart and my dreams



Shock me in to reality



I hate this world



it's not ment for me



But i stay



And I wait



Cause I know if i leave i'll be lonlier



and that is my fate



way worse than death

Would you care if I died



Not today maybe tomorrow



Would you care if I cried



My tears cause an ocean



The world drowns in a flood



If you say you love me



But leave me when I blow up



Were you just saying that



Or am I that easy to just hate



Would you fucking care if I ate



Enough poison



Would you say that you love me again



If I stopped trying



Stop telling me that Im foolish



I know this



Stop telling me that love is a lie



When Im plainly standing here



With my heart in my hands



Do I mean so little



Do I mean anything



Would you be here



If I was someone else

Your razorblade kisses haunt me

Bleed me dry

You said our love was eternal

Fuck my soul and leave it dying

Disappear without a sound

Was I ever alive

Shadows surround me choke me breathless

Hunt me down

Force it on me

You were everything

And now Im nothing

What a way to see the world go down

Blessed be those that have that link

That bond cause they will live forever

Sever my ties and my wrists

Whisper in my ear

The sweetest lullabye

Then set my bed on fire

Hear my screams

I hear your laughter

Next stop

HELL

Never had a taste of heaven

Never wish to see the light

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demonlovesyou
16:06 Oct 09 2008

Lovely poems...



I loved these poems..

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