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I will sit here and listen,

Pretend that I care,

But believe me I dont,

I will smile and nod

Act like Im interested

When really Im not

I'll continue to act like

I know what your talking about

When actually I havent got a clue

You continue to talk about

Your problems and things you cant handle

And I will fake a grin and nod

When really I have nothing to say

Tell me

Do I care?

Do I care what you choose to wear?

Tell me,

Am I interested in what you have to say?

Talk about the same things day by day

Tell me,

Can you honestly think I'll tell you the truth?

When all you are is wasted youth

Tell me,

Should I sit here and lie?

And tell you all the things you want to hear?

Tell me,

Should I let you die?

And act like I was never here?

Tell me,

Could you see me giving my life for you?

Can you really see me helping you?

I dont know what to say

When your the only one

In my way

Is this how it feels?

To be in love?

The craving of ones sweet sorrow,

to feel the warmth of a distant heart

So is this love that I feel?

Somewhere far yet so close

Is where you lie

Bu the apathetic darkness keeps the light from me

Yet when you walk into the warm,

the darkness is just a fake

So I am starting to think,

This is love?

The way my heart beats in this pathetic worldwe live

Pounds for your sweet embrace

The one that hold my heart in warmth and kept

From the hell my life lives through

So yes,

The warmth and crave I feel is love!

But now to only think you dont feel the same

Takes into actionm

The horrifiv thought that haunts my mind

and leave sorrow into my heart

Am I being unfair?

To even think is to assume the worst

of ones person, but to assume

maybe true of what one thinks,

So am I assuming just the worst?

For I have been told what and how you are,

but the characters people assume maybe

just a simple illusion

For I have seen a differemce of the words

of hate from what others say

but not enough to know the truth

of your words to me

But still am I only making this nightmare

For I am scared of the truth?

Maybe...

But the way my heart pounts to you

makes the nightmares go away

That smile,

your touch of all amazing things

I know I am in love

But from your words, and the things you say

only leads that you kind of feel the same

But like a clock I have the time

and I will wait for you

For if I were too leave

I know I wont be the same

For you, because something I want to

treasure is for you to be with me

So my mind and sanity will stay the same

So until you love me, I will wait

Juat like now

Im waiting

How do you feel

after a heartbreak?

Destoryed or crushed?

Miserable or Hushed?

The world jusr seems to stop

You dont know how to handle it

Maybe so much pain?

Tears that fall down like rain?

And the world just disappears

How do you try to control it?

Crying from the break?

Revenege you want to take?

Does anything even work?

Tears will fall for hours

And there is nothing you can do

but stay to yourself

make yourself feel true

be your own standard

Time will fly and you will see

Time will mend you

Demons scream and Angels Cry

Heaven rains while Hells a lie

Dark dreams and gentle touch

Loud noises scary as much

Angry voices ad sweet smiles

Shadow dancers with hearts in denial

Evil days while magic is free

Worthless games paid to see

Small cries and loud screams

begs and pleads

pathetic dreams

Nights are hell and days are pain

Spend all day in the pouring rain

Why were you to good to be true?

The one to rip my heart out...

Why must I only want you?

my words that will not shout

I sit in the shadows and watch you pass

Im invisible in the dark

Hide my face in that mask

you have made your mark

I cry alone without you near

Your embrace I wish to feel

But your so far away I fear

The love that isnt real

Please notice the girl I hide

So you'll finally want me

Yet I have no pride

and we will never be

I will sit and wait

Until you see

we're soulmates

and you'll be with me

Not enough to be with you

Tried to hard to know the truth

Dreams of us to be together

Far from here now and forever

What I want

not to say

Cant have you just the same

to jold and kiss never more

go and hide

hit the floor

In the halls I walk right passed

Im ingored through the mask

Sighs in sadness

Whats wrong with me?

your what I want,

cant you see?

Night is long, days so cold

Off in the distance, one I'm told

Our eyes finally meet

The love I keep

My heart will leep

Does any of this finally make sense?

Maybe...

Still not clear

Forever my heart is frozen

I'll live in my sin

. Tick Tock goes the clock

deep inside my head

All these wishes

Wont be missin

Wishing I was dead

Night and day with heaven rains

what an awful truth

Blloody tears with no fears

wasted on pointless youth

Wish the day

Wish the night

Whats the point to live?

Kill I say,

If I may

The killing I want to give

Am I sane?

Or am I mad?

Whats it matter to you?

Pray to save

Go away

my death will soon be true

Goodbye my life and end tonight

I want to fall asleep

Dream away

all the day

My sanity I want to keep

I didnt know how to tell you

That I found someone else

But thats a mistake

I know this very well

Now I know you hate me

I could feel it when I call

The world destoryed around me

I know Im starting to fall

I lay in bed thinking of you

only hoping that your good

my heart breaks to see you

only that it should

Yes I cheated

I broke all I stand against

But I know I couldnt help it

Our love not making sense

you and I have differed

The day summer began

you rarely called me in a day

My love began to ran

So what I did was horrible

I know thats plain to see

I know you'll never forgive me

I cant help that be

I apologized to you

Thight I'll never be forgiven

Though it doesnt matter

My heart that is now given

I'm slightly glad we fell apart

Only cause we changed

Thought I think about you

every other day

My poem may not rhyme

But Im sorry cant you see?

Though your so blind in sight,

you never really got me

Now all my friends now

you stopped talking to them, so

I feel semi bad

But your not even sad

I thought you'd miss me

but your happy as can be

Maybe cause I cheated?

or you didnt really care for me

Everyday you stayed away

That started off first

Than you try to be Mr. Nice

but my heart only broke apart

This is all I have to say

your cruel as you can be

So stay inside the lied

your twisted reality

so yet again Im here to say

Im sorry for what Ive done

but I sit here and blame you

for our one twisted truth

.As I lay in this place

voice speak to me

I am alone in darkness

Therefore I cannot see

the voices get louder

as every second flies

it hurts to hear the screams

it makes me want to die

but also in this darkness

I feel so safe and warm

though out in the sunlight

I feel so dazed and warned

but in my hidden darkness

that no one else can find

I think Ive lost my sanity

I know Ive lost my mind

As the voices whisper softly

but also start to yell

this place is a tragedity

the one I cannot tell

So Ill lay in this hidden place

of darkness and misery

I will not see your face

so just hide from me

So let me hear the voices

that only I can reach

Ill lay upon my darkness

alone on this beach

Wish upon a bloody star

so high in the night sky

Look around and always

ask the question why

why you sit above the water

and sit upon the beach

when all you want is death

but this you cannot reach

So sit alone in the dark

with questions in your head

A wish upon that bloody star

and wish that you were dead

the blade so sharp upon your skin

the pain you want to feel

though the mess suicide

surely isnt real

as you wake beyong these stars

these ones only stands

So go and see the bloody wish

that lied beyond your hands

So as you look around the shadows

and only see dark bliss

I hope you look death in the face

and give it a kiss

but when you finally open your eyes

to see the question why

I hope you see that bloody red star

fly across the sky

The world looks past me

just like the wind

the world can be a twist

and catch ppl in its spin

Demons lie close this no thanks to you

have the world painted black

with pain and suffering

as you close your eyes

and see white lightning

through hell and fire rains

mist you see me fade in mind

you seem to be searching for your inner demon

twine

yet not look far

just look in the mirror

theres your own reflection

cant you hear her?

A dark voice inside your head

created from this life

you cant destory your reflection

cant stab it by the knife

so open your eyes

and take the truth

the demon that you are

you open your wings and fly

the world will take you far

but when the world begins to fade

and only show the truth

you seem to have faced

the real broken youth

Defeaning by the sound of hatred

what part of hell do I live in most?

For you are just an illusion

torturing my soul

playing tricks upon my mind

your a demon that was

cast onto me as a curse

why must I love a rotten heart

like you?

You hold no purpose, but

your like a fallen angel from

high heaven thrown into the

shadow relm covered by

darkness and regret

your beauty, like a blue diamond

rare but stunningly beautiful

you pierced my heart

paralyzing my with your dark magic

a grip of which I want to escape

a grip of which I want to stay

what castrophic hokus is this?

How can one black angel

spell me into love?

Mixed colors like mixed emotions

the burning sky confused me

pink, blue, purple, and orange

the chilling breeze blows by the sea

the burning sky like a paintings on a canvas

your waiting to be surprised

like a secret ready to be told

as you wait for the moon to rise

the burning sky with sheets of colors

sending confusion within my head

wanting to know what to feel

like a book wanting to be read

Ill continue to sit on this beach

to conintue to watch the sky

as the colors change more and more

wishing that I can fly into the

burning sky

Your grip tightens around me,

I cant gasp for air

losing sight around me

the hold to hard to bare

I fade into darkness

hearing voices underneath

In the arms of a heartless

wishing I could breath

soon I see light surrounding everywhere

you have murdered me

this clearly isnt fair

my wings pure white

my soul heaven bound

I gathered myself into light

no demons like you to be found

Dreams are for the good

Nightmares are for the weak

I cant see nothing

My fear starting to peek

I lost you when I

was trying to save you

I feel as if I failed

My mission was not meet

I missed my chance

and now there is nothing left

but to die

The lights dim, I see nothing

hard to see the face in the mirror

hard to see

my own reflection

I hear loud noises

my heart beating in my chest

my heart

pounding to the rhythm of fear

I move to find you

but where are you?

where can you be found?

I sit in silence

So quiet I can hear the knife sliding into my skin

so quiet the sound of blood hits the ground

I smile as weak as I watch

red droplets all over the floor

red droplets coming out more and more

so as the night continues to grow

I shall sit and cry

I shall sit... and die



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I feel scared, alone;

Hauntings in my head,

Cold, Confused;

What can I do?

Hide in the dark;

Afraid of the truth?

Please someone!

Tell me what to do!

Locked in this hatred;

A rage I cant deny

With whispers in my head

I dont want to hide!

Break from this pain

I've felt for so long

I'll teach myself better

I'll prove you all wrong!

To have my way

and make a change

you'll all pay

I'll finally be

Free from you

you will see

I'm better than you