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I am writing an Entry in this Journal, once again I wish I were not here, I hate this place, I don't know anyone here, I have no friends it really sucks I work hard all day I am trying to rebuild my life, I've been working on my house and doing the best I can with hardly any money.

Trying to stay positive, but I just can't get away from the Doom and Gloom of my life and all that has happened to me. Currently I am sitting here in horror, pain and loneliness and my enemies are prolly laughing, enjoying themself, and they have as it stands won, I have lost and I just can't stop thinking about How much I lost ...

This life is Horror I wish I was not here I wish I die in my sleep tonight.....

I just can't get over the thought of How those enemies drained my future. Too make it worse they also further deminished my soul by taking advantage of my Father who is over 60 years old who worked hard every day of his life in a hard labor environment. yet he has always being thoughtful and helpful never once complaining just offering a helping hand. These people not only took away from me but also took away from my father. He worked hard towards a cause for nothing. Now I have to look at him and think about this. Not only did these bastards deminish my well being but they also unjustly enriched themselves on my fathers hard work. This is so hard for me to deal with I wish I was dead so I did not have to further consider this fact in my thoughts.

Seems as though my life is in slow motion.

Things for me seem to be going very slow but the days are moving by quickly. Time moves on track but I am not.



I want to do so much, I need to find a way to fill my body and soul with energy so I can move forward and advance myself beyond the speed of the day.