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How long? We have all that is left of our lives.
08:17 Mar 11 2008
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All i want is you . . you make me happy and you don't even know how i feel about you in my heart and i know that you will never see that cause you are not me. What did i do wrong to have you who make me happy with only the thoughts that i have of you and then lose you? Sometimes i don't know why i am waiting for you, but then i talk to you on the phone and it all becomes clear again . . . because i love you so much more then the words can say. Damn it all i wanted was to make you as happy as i could. That's still all i want and the only person i want is you, but i don't know what will happen anymore. All i know is i can not stop waiting . . . . if there is only a shred of hope that you will want me back then i can't give up. Are you scared of me? Are you scared that i might be someone who will treat as good as i can? Or are you running from me because of something else? You say you don't know what you want, you say that you tell me you love me but you change your mind in different moods . . . . i think you do love me but that feeling scares you. I have told you what i want . . . and it is you, for who you are, for the way you are, not because your perfect but because your perfect to me. You said you needed time, so that is what i am going to give you. It is hard and i am not sure why, but only hearing your voice makes me smile and makes my day better. Maybe i don't make you happy . . . maybe thats what it is. I just don't know anymore, but i do know that not talking to you makes me worry about you, it makes me wonder how you are, how is your day. I guess i have done all i can do . . . i don't want to lose you i really don't, but if you are scared of me then there is nothing more i can do but leave you to see what you need to see whatever it may be. You will have my heart whatever you decide to do all i ask is one thing . . . . follow you heart, thats all i hope you do. I miss you.

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