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Thanks to everyone who has visited my profile and has given this new profile such a warm welcome. I hope it continues.

I am currently in the process of awakening. I have been a night owl for some time but lately it seems like I just can't get the energy up to get out of bed without some sort of motivating factor.



I think I am a hybrid sanguinarian/psychic/empathic vampire.



i have been through a number of the awakening warning signs. I have been dealing with stress and a lot of painful moments most of my life but it has gotten far worse as my mother has declined due to her dementia. The most painful being two summers ago when my aunt tried to have my mother institutionalized and this past year when I caught my mothers home health aide and her husband stealing from me. I have been battling depression since the spring. Its one of the reasons I took so many road trips during the late spring/early summer. I just couldn't spend time at home or if I was home, I would be caccooned in my bedroom in bed sleeping. This spring and summer I had an empty feeling that just wouldn't go away. I still feel that way. As for a strong sense of what people around me are feeling? I definitely get this feeling about what people think about ME in particular. I have always thought that it was just me being overly sensitive and just suffering from poor self esteem. Maybe I am more in tune to that than what I have previously believed.



I have been sensitive to the sun for some time. I have always burned easily but it seems to have gotten worse over the years. This summer I could feel my skin burning even on bright cloudy days and in November, I was sitting in my car and the low angle bright sun gave me a burning sensation on my skin even though I got no actual sunburn. That said, I always try to find a shady spot or at least position my car so the sun isn't directly on me.



My eyes have always been sensitive the sun as well. I tend to wear sunglasses even on cloudy days. Lately I have been prescribed contacts and they seem to help with that a little as I think they do have a slight tint.



I have always preferred my red meat on the rare side. I like my steaks to be juicy. There is nothing worse than a dry, overdone steak, YUCK!! Perhaps this is one of the ways I have been "feeding"? I have also been diagnosed with low iron in my blood to the point of taking iron supplements. They did tests and do not know why i have iron poor blood. Perhaps its because I am not getting enough blood from my diet?



I have always been shy and a quiet person. I tend to observe the other people when I am a crowd but by myself. Maybe this is a form of feeding? I have always been kind of cranky at times so theres nothing new there. Lately I have been trying to feed off the energy from the crowd when I am out dining by concentrating, trying to imagine the energy in the room not sure if I had success. Sometimes I get this tingling feeling starting from the top of my head that kind of spreads down my back. There have been times when this feeling is stronger than others. Lately it seems like instead of that tingling feeling the top of my head, its like a cold chill that spreads from my head, down my spine and down my arms. Of course I am easily distracted so its hard to know if I am successfully feeding or not or if I am getting enough energy this way. I hope eventually I will get to the bottom of who and what I am and if I need to feed, to learn how to do it properly and responsibly. I don't want to be offensive or offend anyone and sure as heck don't want to hurt anyone or anything either.