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A year ago this month ...Jan.15.2007 to be exact my daddy passed away.The pain in my heart and soul is still overwhelming .I miss him so badly.I have cried so many tears yet still they poor like rain.I wished I could say my memories of him are ones of love and happiness....but i can't....my memories are of haunting images of pain and suffering.....The hardest thing I have ever been through in all my life was loosing my daddy....We never told daddy just what was wrong with him.Mom thought it best not to tell him he was dying of cancer and was only given a week or two to live....I remember visiting him in the hospital..Mom came out and met me in the hall...she told me daddy was very sick and proceeded to explain the grin diagnosis...My heart sank and tears began to flow down my face...she walked me to another part of the hospital and let me cry as to not upset daddy...seeing his vacant and lost expression ,he didn't know who we were or where he was...made my heart fall to the floor and I couldn't keep from crying.I had to leave the room.We took him home the next day and there is where we cared for him night and day for a week before he passed away in my Momma's arms while they were sleeping.I had left at 2 A.m and he passed away at 7 A.M that same morning.I got the call at 8 A.M and my nephew answered the phone....I was told to get up and my heart sank and I lept out of bed and quickly got dressed...the ride to my parents home was silent and heavy hearted....the sense of dread filled my heart.I knew the moment I got there and saw my brother in the yard...I fell to pieces and as soon as I got into the house my world crumbled into ashes.I had lost my best friend and my world all at once.I had to be tranquilized when they came to take him to the funeral home.I have never in my life been so utterly broken and lost as i was that day.....I thank the Gods and Goddesses for the one person that was in my life,my best friend Brandon.He kept me going during that horrific ordeal.He never once told me he was too busy or too tired to be there for me.He is my guardian angel.I love him very much and hope he knows just how precious his friendship is to me and how much he means to me.