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Well…it’s been an odd couple weeks…..

In the last two weeks I have stabbed myself….been poisoned….and been dragged by a car which then hit a wall….

Now to explain

I have gotten back into weapons training….as I am tired of sloth…. Part of this training includes tricks with my collection of sharp things….in this case….a new throwing knife…well in the process of spinning it on my palm prior to throwing it..I dropped it and it landed on my foot….

Yes I’m a fool

As to the poison….spicy food and I don’t always agree….you do not want the details…..

And then the car

Some background first…

I work at a carwash…I drive the cars out to the customers after they are dried off……we run very fast…approximately 2-3 minutes per car….so a few days ago…..the guy I work with was not watching the line speed….and the car behind the one I was in almost hit the one I was sitting in….so I jumped out to hit the emergency stop…..no problem….unfortunately..I had already started the first car and shifted it into drive prior to this…so as I took my foot off the brake it starts rolling forwards….I dive back in…get my arm caught on the steering column….and then at about 18 kilometers per hour we hit the wall….

Now I firmly believe that anything that fails to kill me three times will never accomplish the goal….this makes 12 times cars have tried….and failed…all I got was a sore wrist and a bruised finger…..

So that in a nutshell is my month….

truth

to me this is not simly an abstract....it is a way of life itself....truth with others, truth to oneself,

truth to the point of hurting those you love and who love you...

all pains can be overcome if there is an understanding that you were truthful in their causing....

for me being lied to by those who love me is one of the worst things.....

I would rather the pain of sincere truth...for I cannot start to heal from this expected pain...till it is given

this is both a realistic state for me....and a message

for you who the message is directed....I hope you understand it