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People in society have a real problem on their hands and they don't even realize what that problem is in the first place. The problem that I’m talking about in this piece is the stupidity that goes on everyday when people get up and attempt to make decisions in their life that think is the best choice that they could when all in honesty it may not the best choice at all for them to make in the first place.



What I’m saying is basically is when people don’t spend anytime to actually thinking about the decisions that they make in their life. They tend to make other people that are a part of their life and other people that are bystanders suffer because of the stupid ness that goes on from the somebody who hasn’t spent a moment to actually think about what it is that they are doing and plus they may be going down the path as in terms of getting whatever it is that they need to get done.



The thing behind actually thinking about what it is that are doing before you actually do it Is that, you will look down the possible paths that you could go down, you will more likely to go down the right rather then travel down the wrong path. The thing that might be said about the path is that if you go down the wrong path in life you are more likely to run something I like to call stupidity and bullshit then if you decided to still on the right path of life you will then be less likely to run in those two things.



The real thing behind stupidity and bullshit is that this is a cause and effect that happens when you aren’t thinking about what it is that you are doing. The bullshit is used to explain why the stupidity of the indecent happened in the first place. If you could get rid of the stupidity and the bullshit that happened in the indecent and also in life, in general, then your life can and will be a lot better off if you didn’t have those things as part of your everyday life.



The final thing about stupidity is that no matter how much people try to think about what it is that they are doing, stupidity will always be part of lives due to the fact that is so intergraded in our lives that something as big as thinking on your yourself isn’t possible except for a very few individuals.

So you ask me tonight why am I going back to California next month, eh? I want to let you in on my feelings and thoughts on that question because I think you should know why so that you don't think I making the wrong decision about my life anymore,



First thing I want to say is that I'm tired of living my life the way I'm living right now. I work a lot of hours and I don't make even money to really enjoy life. It feels like I'm living from paycheck to paycheck I really shouldn't be living my life that way at all. I'm going back to school because I want to make even money so that one day I can stop worrying about how much money I bring in and instead just enjoy life to the fullest I know that I can,



Second thing I want to say is that I'm tired of having people right and left trying to tell me what to do and how I should my life. To me, I want people to understand that this is my life and I will don't care who's roof I'm living under. The main thing is that I will live my life however I wish to live it out. It belongs to me and to no one else,



Third thing I want to say is that if you think that I'm staying here or moving to Texas, well you guys can forget it. I love you guys to death but you guys bitch about every damn mistake that I make or ones that you make. You guys don't have any clue on how much I hate that from all of you guys. I hope that you guys will be happy in what ever you guys go but understand this I think that it would best for me to move on and that I've spent even of my life with you guys to know where my life would go if I had to continue to live with you guys. Its just wouldn't be right for me to stay here anymore, and it's just time for this family and I to move on to bigger and better things for that is what best for everyone,



Finally it all comes down to this, I want things to go back as they used to be with me being a man going to college to find a better life for myself and hopefully make a life around himself and other people better than it ever it was before,



That's why for those reasons I'm coming back with a vengeance. I'm not going to stop until I have the best of everything because that is the type of life I want to have for myself.



I'm coming out there to find myself a better life for myself and to basically become a happier educated person and to find the right partner to share all of my happiness with her,

It has been already a year since I’ve decided that I’m was tired of being by myself but the thing is that I have done nothing to that extent and while I realize that I could change that aspect of my life, I realize that I’m shy around girls that I find attractive while when I’m trying to be friends with them in the real world or when I’m online with them I’m completely fine and talk with them normally. The interesting thing is that when I’m hiding behind a computer screen I’m more open about everything that is going on in the real world. Yet I can’t be that way to anyone that I’m interested in my real life. So because of this I guess my pursuit of love is more likely to happen online then in my real life and because of that fact the special person that I’ve looking can’t be found in San Diego or anywhere else that I live in the world, but it rather happen on the internet which is fine with me. Based of the fact that I’ve searching for a long time for love and that if I have to wait a little longer for love to be in my life once again then I’ll wait a little longer because love will come to me sooner or later on in my life.



The thing that I have realized is that the net has let me to become more of a better person then in my real life because I feel like I can help more people on the internet than in the real world. I feel like I can talk to people on the net and not have to worry about the stuff that happens after any advice that either I’ve given out or by anyone in general. Based on what I’ve read from comments from anyone who type a messages, I’ll help them out in anyway possible. The thing though is that If I’ve tried to do that in the real world something bad might happen to me because I messed with something in someone’s life that I maybe should be messing around with in the first place.



The other thing about talking to people on the net is that I can be the biggest player in the world trying to talk to many people at one time but the thing is that I know that I’ll never get a change to meet any of these people because they most of the time they live so far away from me that I’ll never be able to get the change to visit them as long I live in the place that I currently live at. While in my real life I have been to just about everywhere to meet someone and still I haven’t met anyone interesting even yet that I would want to change the way that I currently live my life so that they could be part of my life. Most San Diego girls that I meet are either too much like a twit (nothing in the mind) or they are to shallow to really give me a change to show who and what I’m really is all about.



So what that in mind, I’ve decided that if love was truly out there for me to find it isn’t going to be in San Diego. No, it’s going to be found on the net because I feel like I’ve have more freedom there to show off what the real me is like on the inside is like and that is fine with me.



The last thing about this topic is that I know that internet love only happens for only few people and all but the thing is that I have concluded that I have waited for a such a long time to love someone and to have love back in my life again that I’m willing to wait a little longer if it means that someday I can find my soul mate and hopefully start our new together and possibly live happily ever after.

Sadness is one of the worst feelings to have in the world. When someone has been so alone in their life sadness is something that will be a more than likely going to an occurring cycle in your life if you don’t try to fix it or at least have the solution to fix the problem in the first place. People who aren’t by themselves can still feel the sadness if there are events in their life that make them feel the same way. It is how sad a person feels that determines how long it take to get over whatever has given them the sadness in the first place. The last thing about this part is that there are different levels of sadness and it on one of these levels that can help in your recovering process of whatever has given you the sadness in the first place.



The first level of sadness on the road to depression is that you might feel something that has had a minor on your life or something that will have a very short recovery time in terms of getting over it. Examples of this level might include that you have loss a game that you wanted to win or you lost a fight with one that person and he had that one particular thing that you had to have but this time you fell a little short in getting your goal. Here you would get sad and all but it wouldn’t last not long at all.



The second level of sadness on the road to depression is the level where feel sadness for a little longer that you have in level one. In this level, it may be taking anywhere from a week to upwards of ten days in order to feel better from the thing that has given the sadness in the first place. Some examples of what could get you into this level of sadness might include any fight that you have with any person that is important in your life and another example is maybe a loss of someone who wasn’t necessary important to you in your life but you knew them well even that it cause to feel a little grief when they passed on to that better place. This, my friends, is what the second stage is all about.



The third level of sadness on the road to depression is when it has happened to you. Yeah it’s when the sadness and depression has finally settled on in there in your life. This can be caused be many things such as things that turn out to be tragic that has happened in your life. Like a death of a person in your life that was important to you and that you would have done everything possible to prevent their death from happening but yet in the end they passed away from you with you holding out hope that they might be able to live though it, but it turned to be a lost cause. It can caused by other things like a loss of a relationship with someone that you cared for dearly and that you had tried everything to keep the relationship but it too turned out to be a lost cause as well as the relationship ended anyway. Now after these two things have happened, you feel like you are alone in the world and what has happened, the sadness and depression part of your life has begun.



At this point in your life, you need friends and family to be there with you in order to start the healing process of what made you depressed in the first place. It will be a very hard and long process to go though, but it is necessary if you plan on feeling better when it comes to getting over what has just happened in your life to have caused your pain and suffering. Another thing to remember about sadness and depression is that they are both part of life and like everything there will be a part of your life in one form or another. Just remember to have friends and family around when you do the pain that lies because that is what good friends and family are there for in the first place.

There is a point in everyone’s life that everybody likes to be by him or herself. You know that time when you can be alone and not have to deal with the problems that you have in your life. The point of doing that is to get a little peace and quiet that other wise you would never get in your life. The thing is that, I’m really getting into is that you might like being alone all the time all the time and all, but there will soon be a point in when to be alone, you start to push people out of your life in order to keep it when you are still alone. What will happen is that people will soon not want you in their life as you are pushing them away from your life. When that happens, you will soon feel isolated from the world because of the fact that people have given up on having you in their life caused you pushed so hard to keep them of your life.



The feeling of isolation is something that is like a self inflected wound. It is your fault for it to happen. The truth about isolation is that when it happens to you, it is the ultra mint form of loneliness. You feel like, you are the only person on earth. As you look around and you see that no one else is out there in the world that will even stop for a minute and give you the time of day like you truly want out of them. The thing is that due to the fact, you have pushed people out of your life; people will no longer want you to be part of their lives. They also have moved on to other things that are more important to them and like anything in life you have become a forgotten thing that no one wants in their life. When that happens, you would reach the point of which you have isolated yourself from the world. You feel like that are on an island by yourself where no one is around you at all. Even though in the real world, people may be around you, it feels like no one will stop and talk to you at all. Like I said before, that the reason this has happened basically because that you have booted, everyone important to you, out of your life.



When you feel has happened you have then truly isolated yourself the world. What happens next is that you get the after effect called loneliness. It is the worse feeling in the world to have for anyone trying to lead a happy and normal life. With loneliness, you truly feel like you are all alone out there in the world and that there is no one else to talk too. You think that no matter what you try to do to change it, but in the end you that nothing can be done to change something that you started in the first place.



In the conclusion of it all, is that the truth is if you get yourself thinking like you are the only person out there. Then you will get the sadness and depression that come with loneliness. If it isn’t treated and is left alone, it will only get worse to the point that you may even commit suicide. The thing about that is you can’t let yourself thinking that way because I know for a fact that no one would be very happy with you if you went and did go through with the whole committed suicide thing.



The real truth is that, you can prevent this from even happening as long as you have a balanced life where you spend some time with people who you think are important to you but also take some time to be by yourself in order to relieve stress that happens in everyday life. Do this and you wouldn’t go totally crazy and then do something that you may requite doing and something that you may not want to happen to you in the first place.