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It is offically Oct 31st all around the country as I am speaking to you right but the truth is that as familties are going out and getting to have the candy that is so bad for them and it is something that I dont do anymore. What does it mean to me that I have grown out of that fit in my life. The last two years halloween was a time to look forward too becuase I had the friends that I wanted to be with for years to be there with me. Who can forget the whip cream chase and whip cream fight it is a time that I wont forget about it for a long time now. The next yea there was the start of the end for my friends it all started at the party at eden's house I remember the cops called over the noise and then all of the bitching that went on the whole night im glad I got out of there far away from there as fast as I could be from there. it is interesting year that it has been since from there from dealing the drunk southen folks in north carloina that I had to deal with when I was living there at the time. To helpin a family in ohio gettin its ass together moving back to columbus on the verge of going under in different directions but leave it up to me to put things back together that is my legerd thats seeming to follow me whereever I go that is for sure. my only issue in my life I help to fix everyone;s else problems but my own and it is wierd how that is going to work out for them and not for me. I dunno I guess some of it has to do with lack of action done on my part and some of it I guess has to do with the shit that I has to go through on a daily basis. I know that one day it will be my day to be number one on my know world and finally get a change. It is that tonight halloween doesnt feel the same with the former friends that used to be a big part of my life and even tho I will be seeing them later on tonight at the party I know my heart body and soul that it just wont be same as it used and the trruth is that I wont know to react to that when it happens to tonight. it is something I will face tonight and problay will never the night that lays ahead.

bye for now,

DMC

it just seems like it is that time of year again it starts with halloween and it will cont all the way tho the new year. it is the time of the year that everyone around me will make a trip to go somewhere and be out of town when it is time to go into the holiday season. It is crazy to see how much alone some and lonely one person can get at this time of year. the thing that comes to mind is sometimes you gotta go out of your way sometimes to make sure if this kind of thing is going to ya all the time that changes need to be made in order to gandaedee that something like that isnt going to happen to u ever again and for me I need to get myself ready for holidays by making arrangements so that I can have time to get to go to the places that I want to see and also get to see the people that mean the most to me and that is the number thing that is on my mind this holiday more than anything and i know it will be a hard fight with work about getting a day off once in a while between now and jan 3rd when our blackout period but it is something that im planning on managaing on right now and preventing people from over working me to the point of no return. Then again the truth is that I could really care less about my current job and will problay cont looking for a new better paying job after the holiday period is over with. I dunno why I wanted to post this rant but now that it is out of my system I feel much more clear and able to deal with the daily bullshit and fucking stupidness that I have to see on a daily in the same stupid world that we all live in. thanks for reading even this whole rant is nothing really important worth of saying in here anyway.

bye for now,

DMC

Current mood: exhausted

Category: Blogging





I wanted to say that I am getting better at this 23 hr hell that I put myself tho at a one a monthly basis. I truly call hell sunday for me just because by the time that I get done catching with everything that I have put tho for a one day it feels like too much time has psdt by. I have groen to love this new hobby of mine as it is a wonderul cause and tho I hate what it feels like to be a 12 workday in the for me at least it is very worth it to me. I got to meet there again the very spirited group fromt he mira mesa store and the truth is that I wish our store was excited and glad to be there as this store was. I noticed they had the biggest group of people there from all of the targets in san diego today as 59 members showed up from one store. As For me I was the only member from my store to partake in this event which speaks volumes compared to all of the other stores in the area. I love doing the walk through balboa park for the breat cancer. I had a grandpa on my dad;s side that died from lung cancer and a friend who recently had an espiose with throat cancer that had to removed and she is doing well right now. those are the people that I walked for today along with all of the other cancer members in order to hopefully find a cure someday to solves all illness that have to do with cancer. As this week I will write more about the current events in my life as my time is up I will say.



bye for now,



DMC

Madonna Miles away



it's called miles away from Madonna now the thing is that I know people would be hard to believe I would listen to music from her and such but yes im a fan of hers and always loved the new music that seems to be coming out alot lately. I just bought her new cd called Hard Candy and my favorite song that seems to hit me the most is a song Miles Away. It reminds me of everything that I have gone though as a kid growing with two different families and it seeming like im so far away from everything from a regular life, friends, and a normal kind of living that a person that should happening when they grow up and such. It just seems like my life has away been miles away from a normal life. Everything that seems to make a normal life is so far away it just makes wonder what a normal life anymore. I dunno I guess things and life has a way of doing things to ya that you didnt expect it to work out like that. All I know is that im looking forward to seeing all of your faces when I get back to San Diego. The truth is that im tired of being so far away from the true friends that I have missed for a long time and fianlly I just decided that I needed to do something about and now it has happened. The thing is that it wont be the same going back this time around no more messing around with people who in truth I shouldnt gotten involved with in the first place. The wasted time and other things will not be repeated that is a Promise I will keep forever. I just know that now im grateful that I know have a change to not screw this anymore and just maybe get things somewhat back to normal. Im excited just to be back soon enough. I feel more alive that I have in a long time.



Bye 4 now,

DMC