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just when you raise hope that things will change things will always still stay the same and my thinking is that what do i keep putting myself out there if the same result is going to happen I dunno ive learned from experience that I should put so much hope into things like this but I cant help it. I dunno I guess under the slim chance that I want things to change its hard to try to do it. ive been so used to things for such a long time and its dawn on me that i wouldnt mind making a change to my life and get the right company in my life in order to fix the void that I feel in my life right now. it just sucks im going to bitch about in public like everyone does but I have my outlit for it. how does one get over it quickly does one ask i dont know but its back to the grind of things in that department i have to lock up those feelings and not want to deal with it again but thats the way it goes in the end of the days I thought things would change but its time to move on from those feelings in which need to put back on a hanger and put back in a closest for in which it will remained closed for a while until the next chance to come up to make a chance. a lession learned is that I cant dwell on the little things if they dont go my way and move on to bigger and better things in my life because I must hide my feelings until someone is ready to come into my life to take away this pain that always lingers in my system no matter what I do to distraction myself in the meantime its something that needs to be dealt with sooner or later .