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Just an amv(Anime music video) I happen to like:



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vKi31yA8if8



I dont own the video nor the lyrics.

The lyrics of the song follows:



"Monster by Skillet"



The secret side of me

I never let you see

I keep it caged

But I can't control it

So stay away from me

The beast is ugly

I feel the rage

And I just can't hold it

It's scratching on the walls

In the closet, in the halls

It comes awake

And I can't control it

Hiding under the bed

In my body, in my head

Why won't somebody come and save me from this?

Make it end!

I feel it deep within,

It's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I hate what I've become

The nightmare's just begun

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

My secret side I keep

Hid under lock and key

I keep it caged

But I can't control it

'Cause if I let him out

He'll tear me up

And break me down

Why won't somebody come and save me from this?

Make it end!

I feel it deep within,

It's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I hate what I've become

The nightmare's just begun

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within,

It's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

It's hiding in the dark

Its teeth are razor sharp

There's no escape for me

It wants my soul,

It wants my heart

No one can hear me scream

Maybe it's just a dream

Or maybe it's inside of me

Stop this monster!

I feel it deep within,

It's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I hate what I've become

The nightmare's just begun

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within,

It's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I'm gonna lose control

Here's something radical

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

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moonkissed
11:19 Jun 09 2016

Cool. I like the Elfen Lied and Higarashi AMV's.

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CrimsonBloodMoon
14:10 Jun 09 2016

Sounds nice!

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moonkissed
16:03 Jun 09 2016

Have you seen the animes? Not nice but very good.

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The more I get close to humans the more I feel loneliness and sadness crawling up my spine. The only humans I've told that I'm an awakening vampire were my close friends for 2-3 years on the internet. When I had told them about it, they disbelieved me which certainly is a sting to my heart. I never had close real life friends. I wonder why I don't. Now I feel completely isolated. The ones that believed I am a vampire asked questions like "Why do vampires harm people? Even if they're willing to give you blood,you should not.You should not exist and be banished from the face of earth.Do you eat food for dinner or people?"Words hurt, be sure to taste your words before you spit them out.Whether they're a monster or a human,they get hurt. However, I've learned to distrust people through various experiences. I'd not go onto that. If this is so called "humanity", I'm glad I'm not a human.

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cr8054
07:16 Jun 06 2016

This is one of the reasons I have not come out to anyone beyond the OVC. People just cannot be trusted when it comes to this. We are what we are. We cannot change that and for some reason, most humans think of us as evil monsters that need to be destroyed. Either that or they think we are insane. I cannot tell you how hard it has been to find a donor, even here in suburban New Jersey where people are supposed to be more open minded. The fact of the matter is we are not evil and if we follow the black veil, we wouldn't. Care for our donors is the top of our priorities, besides getting tested for diseases. So yeah, humanity isn't all that its cracked up to be. I too am glad I am not one of them.

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CrimsonBloodMoon
12:30 Jun 06 2016

I strongly agree with what you commented. It's been a year since I started awakening. Yet it still stings the heart when it comes to this.

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I'm an awakening vampire. It gets quite hard for awakening vampires such as myself. I feel quite lonely and I know the fact that no human can possibly understand how it feels. A world crowded by humans and then there is the lonely vampire. The awakening vampires(I am telling about myself although it can vary from person to person) live most of their lives as a human till they start to awaken. Then the awakening hits. Constant cravings for blood(I'm a sang so), the breaking down of body unless blood is consumed. There was no one I could trust for blood. So I relied on auto vampirism. I spent days locked up in my room crying to myself avoiding any interaction with people. I know there are blood/energy/both feeders out there. All I want to say is you're not alone. If you feel you need to talk, I'm here. Message me anytime. Thanks for reading :)