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It's tough when everyone starts gushing on fb about how great you look- when it was taken 6 years ago and you look nothing like that anymore. *sigh*

One thing that stands out to me about the past and its effect on me; I don't laugh like I used to.



I laugh, I have a good time. But it is rare now days for me to be truly moved with joy/laughter. That needs to change.

It's tough, I still haven't had the spare change it get a back up of my work on the laptop so I can basically erase it, and hopefully fix it's inability to get online.



Last night I got devastating news that one of the best people I know has ALS. We think he's had it for years, misdiagnosed as strokes. My friend (it's her father) is devastated. She said last night she always thought of him as invincible, so did I. He has been my Mom's neighbor, since I was 5, and now he's in rapid decline.



I'm still numb from this.



Work is going well, we have had a bit of a slump for the past two months of about 40-50 patients which means things are just a bit tighter. I have been paying all the bills (yay), yet there are certain things I would really like to take care of, but since I can only pay myself what I can afford... It has to wait a little longer.



I finally found out what food screwed with my digestion this time. Now I can avoid it- but there is a sadness with each food I can't eat because these companies won't share their ingredients (natural flavoring is the culprit). I'd like to know because it's fever, sweats and two days of barely being able to stand without pain (makes work very hard)- and I can avoid this and the massive bloating... If I knew what it was. *sigh*



Ok- time to bath the dogs and watch more Doctor Who.