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Newsletter number one.. done. Tomorrow I hope to finish number 2. Not been feeling the 'umph' of writing with all the other things needing "doing".



Still WHEE! Got one done :)

So I sent the letter to my old "boss". Kept it I hope cheerful, to the point and as a start to move forward.



Honestly I just want my pay check, so I can pay hydro, taxes and current landlord. I also want to start paying down the debt to her in a big way.



My ideal world, I would take out a loan to pay her and the taxes, so that I don't have to "deal" directly with them except in professional instances that arise. However with how things work up here- I can't get a loan till the taxes are paid. So yesterday I set up plan there, and now I just have to "stick to it". Good thing is, in Sept when my contracts end for my washer/dryer- that will be another $100 I can put towards my debt.



And as my client base slowly starts to grow again, it will be better. So. Back to paperwork, shower and a little lunch. It's been a good day both productive and "restful".

Or those who commented...

Egon is an asshat.



I was getting ready for a little sleep in, and the jerk jumped off the bed and ran for the door (this means potty now outside or in the house). So I got up, took them for quick walk in PJ's (typically I get dressed) and then came back hoping to fall back asleep.



Worst part?



Winston is now sleeping in his kennel, and Egon is sleeping next to me. Bastards.



Time for more coffee.

Oh my. We went through 2.25kg of bacon yesterday, 28 eggs, 3 pots of coffee, 1 Litre of half and half, 3lbs of pancake batter (gluten free), a tray of macaroons, a loaf of Banana Bread, 12 rice krispies, 35 pieces of fudge, one full fruit tray, 2lbs of strawberries, gallon of Orange Juice, one bottle of sparkling wine and one pot of tea.



I supplied the bacon (thank you sales), eggs and pancakes with tea/coffee and creamer and Sugar... the rest was supplied by the guests. It was a very good time. No one came until 12:30 (thankfully as I blew a fuse and was behind on making bacon!) and food was ready to eat by 12:45-50. I finally ate around 1:35-40 as the start of the demo happened. Aside from that, everyone was gone home by 4:30, and my place was fully cleaned o.o



I'm still in a blur about the party it went so very well, even with me cooking the majority of the start, and cleaning at the end. I'm excited to get the kitchen gear I was able order as the bathroom set I've had for the past 4 years makes cleaning the bathroom 10min. Unless doing floors. Then it's 15. I also got the car mitt, so YAY to getting to wash your car with just water. LOL one of the girls had gum on her new car (thanks to her daughter) one swipe and she got it off (keep in mind she had gone through 4 car washes trying to do the same thing).



It was one of those moments where everyone seems to forget and just have a good time. That was very cool. But as I told another friend, I will never forget my anger over the past years.



Forgive it? Done. But I will not forget it. I will let it fade, but I will not have any of that behaviour allowed in my life. That is the reason to not forget. I don't need to be upset with what has been done, it is past. But I certainly can take responsibility for what I have done and make small steps forward. Today was one of those steps. I think I will have a few more before the week is out.



It is exciting and freeing.



Sadly, I don't miss the people who were the cause. Not in the least. All the "I miss you" statements are followed by months of no calling or contacting. Yes it is a two way street, and right now, I'm good with that.

I just found out one of my childhood friends has died. She was a twin, and the two of them got me into the biggest trouble of my then very young life. I will always remember them, and it is a different type of sorrow finding someone from that "time period" has died. But it was days before their birthday... Just 4 years older than I, it's is a rude reminder.

Dear fudge,



For all the jumpies and burpies I am going to have to do to get you off my ass: FUCK YOU.



But in the heat of the moment you were yummy.

Party went WAY better than I expected, my friends loved the products so much 2 parties were booked off of mine with a potential 3rd one later. On top of that, my apartment is now sparkly clean thanks to the consultant cleaning as a demo.



Seriously, 10 min with oven at 150- no smell and the crap the previous people baked into the oven wiped off :-O



Add to the removal of the soap scum in my tub... well, it's a good thing I still have some other things to buy for those that booked parties off of me.



Now I don't know what to watch, but it's TV cuddle time with the boys :)

Poor Egon. He simply is "terrified" of Spazz. Seriously, he will move off my lap if she comes near. Winston isn't "afraid" but wary of her, and she lays on him and head butts him... but Egon, he would rather not thankyouverymuch. Poor guy. I can't help but giggle.

I hate to keep asking for positive thoughts, but the space I really want, well notice is being given tomorrow. HOWEVER, he thinks there is someone else that they will take over me that has previously spoken for the space.



I have to admit, I keep "seeing" the practice in that space. But I have to remember that I can't be attached- it has to be the right space... *sigh*

Total and utter complete fail with the space yesterday. But I also talked to the manager where I am at, and I feel better all around with the situation as "patch work" simply because he also stated that they were "being weird". It's nice to have confirmation of that, just because part of what I'm trying to avoid, no not avoid, part of what I'm trying to REMOVE from my life is this passive aggressive BS. I want strait forward "American Brashness". Fuck this, "I'm going to lie to your face, and say something else that I mean to everyone else".



I get how to say "you're a dumbass" in a professional manner. Don't believe me? Look at the example here I follow, trust me when I say I don't just follow it here. At the same point, I want to say "this doesn't work" what can we do to change it? And not have it be "ego fest". I really think I have that now.



Shannon and I went to the new space. It was advertised at $580- right within my budget. When I called I left a series of questions that could have removed me from even looking: Square footage (for what I want and next step of growth I need at least 300 in open space layout- or I could do 350/400 with two or three rooms, with one that is 10x20). Anything bigger would be "bonus" and used either with growth or with getting another therapist with us. I also said my profession (to confirm zoning) and asked about extras (hydro and cleaning often is a "hidden fee" you have to ask about prior).



When I got the call back, it was 280 sq ft (doable!), zoned ok and some other perks= PERFECT!



When I got there it was 168 square feet with 18 of that being a bay window (not usable) and filled with stuff. The relator kept insisting that it was well over 200... um here's the thing. You can't lie to me, my arm span is exactly 6'. I spread my arms did a quick measurement, and in truth it might be closer to 158... what's the big deal? I need 50sq ft for office - file cabinet, desk, storage... this office wouldn't mean my clients were CLOSE together.



After talking to my clients yesterday, they like the group, and are ok with close. One even said, "you feel a kinship" when you're with everyone. AWESOMESAUCE! That is exactly what I want them to feel, it is exactly what I'm trying to build. YAY!



But it also means, no desperate moves. So. I went to lunch, bitched about the waste of time, and then wrote another note to my friend the lawyer who is leaving his office- two blocks away... and it is between 300-450sq feet, with big beautiful bay windows... has all the other perks... and if the landlord likes me and is willing to have me, could be a perfect fit.



I can taste it. Truly I can. I know I have to be patient, and get the right space- another wrong move will hurt business. I also see why I'm not doing more advertising...



I can't, until it is my space.



However the group I'm with, I think it will be I still will work with them; however, I am going to just take my private practise (ones not on contract) to them. I will not have any contact with clients that come through them and will "show up" to work once a week, or 2 half days. I think it will be an added bonus for them; and I think it will help "fill the gaps" financially from having to move right as I extended myself (oh, assumptions how I loathe thee when you bite me in the arse).



Still, my fortunes from yesterday I think I should share:



"No one is happy who does not think himself so"



"You are good with finances" I have to admit I giggled with the current irony of this, then reminded myself- NO this is exactly what I'm working towards and how wonderful the "universe" deemed this cookie should remind me ;)



From this morning (yes I ate fortune cookies with breakfast, it's a perk of ordering enough to have 3 meals of left overs)



"Your perseverance will pay off soon."



"A small act of charity will go a long way."



Hell to the YEAH! Very exciting. Still a lot of work, but WHEEEEEE! :)

At 4:05 exactly the birds started to sing.



perhaps I might get another hour or so of sleep.



Both the boys have chosen to sleep on my lap while I do silly internet wanderings while I cool off the brain that refused to shut down.



sleep round 2.



Let's do this.

So I go to see a new office space tomorrow. I'm actually really excited- I think this is "it" for the next little while.



I need to figure out how to come up with first/last and then I need to get out of where I am. Don't get me wrong, they were great; but ever been somewhere where you can just tell if you stay it will ruin you?



Yeah, it's a place like that. I've been itching to get out, since I came in.



Plus, this new place will be downtown- right across from the big park. So when I don't have clients... I can walk the park

Watching Frankenweenie with Dachshunds is an unexpected challenge

Had an hour long conversation with the new lawyer.



*sigh*



seems I was NOT denied, but my application was "incomplete". Now the laws have all changed, but this *might* work in my favour... Positive energy please!

I find it sad, that without my push push push- so far the ones that are "insistent" that we need to do the poker run again are doing nothing.



Bottom line is, the "lot" I have right now has to be dealt with. I have to get my situation stable, and put into order. There is a bit of a mess, and I need to clean it up.



Still it saddens me, because it shows where "talk is cheap". You give people the reigns, after beating yourself up the prior year- and well...



I sad many times I didn't like how these people held my friend back from what he wanted to do. Yes he held himself back at times out of loyalty for a few of them, and a few he would use as the convenient excuse.



But now? Now each of us has moved on, and guess what? I'm still dealing with being an immigrant and getting my work situated (six years running)... and they are still complaining about the "drama" and all the wrongs happening.



See my point? We all make our own beds. If you don't learn to make it differently, then it will be made the same. Which is why I'm so scared. Not because I don't know how to make my bed, but because I am attempting to make it differently- and I don't know how it will turn out.



It's exciting at the same point. I wish I had that voice to excitedly yabber at. Sometimes I wish it had been reversed- but I know that would never have worked- because I don't fear that, I fear this. And he didn't fear my path, he feared his own... funny that.



Still it is the reality, so now it's about making it better and allowing for the "magic" to happen. Not in a card game kind of way; rather in the train hard, listen to the quiet voices and follow joy, love and bliss. Sure there will be tears, and blood; there always is, but there will be so much more... because that's how it happens if you don't attach and simply allow the positive to be nurtured and grow.



Make no mistake, it is a choice. You can be conscious and make it, or you will be victim to it.

There is something amazing about spring. The flowers, the daylight... but for me, one thing that always stands out: how cold I get.



It is not in the dead of winter that I feel the cold the most, it is now. I always feel bone cold this time of year. I actually use the heater in my room more at night now, than during the rest of the winter.



Odd, but something that I seem to notice.



A shift seems to have happened. I don't quite know what yet, but it's that feeling... you know, the it all works out in the end feeling? I have it, even in light of knowing what must be done. Not good nor bad, just what is. For once it is a relief not having to have something be "good" or "bad", rather just having it be. The adjectives will take care of themselves and in truth I choose to make them for the good. Because that is one thing I know, we choose what we do with the bumps and curves life throws us.



Most excellent day.



Although I'm exceedingly disappointed that Downtown Abby only has season one on netflix. That is a sad thing...

Dear Downtown Abby, why must you be like crack?



I broke down and started watching the first season. *sigh*

No show today. I'm glad... I kinda wanted to play "hookie" anyway :)

Just enough wine, a gin and tonic; and I remember how close to the veil I can get. Sometimes it's like people who have passed are right in the room with me. Heh, in truth they are.



But the difference is, normally I can't tell. I don't want to. I'm not supposed to; because life is meant to be lived. But every once in a while I must pay them homage, and give thanks that they touched me enough to still be connected to find their way to where I am.



Expect one. He's just an ass. But he secretly likes it that way... I only pretend not to hear the giggles. Bastard.



Still I will go to bed thankful, and hopefully tomorrow forget most of what I touch upon tonight. Sometimes we simply have to live to experience. Take heed of what is happening, but simply live.



I get it now. And well the pups are ready for bed, so who am I to keep them waiting? :P

Dog nails trimmed, third walk of day, and laundry almost done. WOOT!



Now it's time to keep watching Heroes and start dinner, along with getting the dogs ready for their bath... but shhh don't tell them :P

Anyone else with odd habits?



I just spent 20 minutes picking all the hair and lint out of my hair brush, finishing it up with a good scrub down of soap and water.



Yes I have wash my hair brush... they get so gross otherwise.

Bed made, dishes put away and other ones cleaned. Dogs had a "in between walk" because I think they just want to "eat" first thing, and now that weather is sunny- that shouldn't be an issue.



Goal: do 2 or three boxes in the sewing room.



However I'm ok if I don't do any of it. Laundry is about to be done, YAY "multi" tasking. Heroes season 4... disk one.



Coffee is made, cinnamon with a touch of vanilla...

I have done nothing but eat badly, and watch heroes season 3 today.



Well I did make my bed. Ok. back to the end of the season and then bed...

I have done nothing but eat badly, and watch heroes season 3 today.



Well I did make my bed. Ok. back to the end of the season and then bed...

I am really tired of having to have the heat on. The other day it was 24 and it was great. Because I'm in a basement apartment, it was wonderfully cool and the humidity didn't bother me.



But when it is cold... :( that said, I have the heaters on now, I just have to wait for them to "kick in"... *sigh*

When all you see is evil, perhaps the problem of perception lies with you.



Stop watching the news.



Start focusing on what good people do.



We will all fail at some point, get over it.



Love.



"You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty." ~ Mahatma Gandhi



I promise that doing these things you will see the good, and it is ALL around you.



And I further promise, you will be hurt and disappointed; but do not mistake that with "evil". Evil is something very different.

So I have found the "missing link" to peeing on my bed.



Rain.



Today we went for our walk to get DOWNPOURED ON. If you've ever walked a dachshund, you will know this means they do NOT want to be out. Both did their business, but not as much as if we had done our 45-hour walk. They simply would not walk being wet.



Fine, we go home, all seems fine...

Until I change for work... to find a wet spot on the bed. It's at the "dry phase" where it is obvious they did it RIGHT WHEN WE GOT HOME.



Looks like I will have a "battle a head". But I'm ready, and have rain clothes. BRING IT PUPS. This is ON now.



And it also might mean bath time this weekend.

A friend came over with a huge bottle of wine....





we talked for hours.



now there is a thunderstorm



I plan on sleeping like a baby.

I blame Flannery *BUUUUUUUUURP* for my over indulgence in Chinese food tonight. I have enough for at least three more meals.



Today was my first day I allowed myself to buy "take out" food. o.O wow I'm full.

PUPPY TIME! Along with the end of Capricus (battlestar galactica prequel). Have to say, it's a better show than I was expecting. Too bad it was only one season.

It's a SHA-BAM! kinda day :)

FINALLY I have my registration number :D



I know I have to prove my right to work here so I'm putting in call to lawyers today to hopefully have everything filed and off to government by end of next week.



DEEP BREATH.



Seems the old employer is calling all my clients with a new Acupuncturist, and offering them deals. I can't let this bother me. I know I'm good at what I do, and I know that with community I have something unique in this area. I need to put my head down and focus.

Regarding yesterday. Remember



What happens when you shine a light in a dark room? Shine on.

That motherfucking bitch. Can't even believe the gall...



GALL I say. It hurts so bad; before that the diddle, and now?! Now that bitch has stolen my honor. Did you read that?! Bitch stole my honor.



Namaste Motherfucking Biddy, Namaste.

Damnit Moonie! I don't wanna love you more, this hurts enough as it is! :P

ONE HOUR. Then I'll be off work and my plan is to play in the sunshine a bit :)



Honestly this time of year, I am YEARNING for the sun. But I think after a nice long walk with pups, I'll settle in for a rather light meal and some serious relaxing. I've almost gone through all my receipts, now I am gearing up to working on my craft room (which has about 5 boxes that have things for me to go through. Once that is done... I will be able to say I have gone through and organized everything in my house! YAY).



Nice thing about organizing papers, is how many go into the recycling! I'm rather please with new organization that I'm putting into place. I think it is going to allow for LONG TERM organization. Lot of mistakes I'm seeing. I don't want to sound nonchalant like it doesn't matter, but I'm not worried about them. They happened, I have to make adjustments and fix them. It will be ok as long as I'm aware.



I'm hoping for an early fix on my washer tomorrow. I'd really like to do my laundry :(

Three years ago, right about this time; we had the first bonfire of the year. We knew something was wrong, and I think you knew even then... But what a great night. Talking till 3:30 am, to the fire and of course that damn bottle of Screech moonshine. LOL talk about burning fire!



I think I might ask some folks over and do this again this week. Yeah. I think it is a plan, for sure.

I don't think the dogs peed on my bed today. I think it was the cat.



:-/ bitch.



And with washer not working yet... UGGG. Hopefully I can get someone out tomorrow or Tuesday to get it fixed. Nice part of this warranty is that if they can't fix- I get new machine.



Note to anyone looking at front loading washer: PAY THE MONEY. On average these machines break far more frequently, and are expensive to fix. I'm certain with this one service call, I will be saving more than what I spent on the extended warranty.

Long dog walk. -check

Put away dishes. -check

Clean dishes from last night. -check

Make coffee. - check

Make bed. -check

Make breakfast. -check

Sit down and watch Practical Magic.



Beautiful Sunday :)

*beams*



I got Twitter, and MailChimp set up for the Community portion of my work. The idea is to create two separate newletters to the different types of groups I work with.



One main reason is in my long-term goals.



However, with things still in the same place, it's frankly just good for me to get in the habit.



Sent two newsletters and uploaded most the information to my blog. Next two will be at the end of the month. For the community I did one on growing from home or in the local community gardens.



For my private practice I did it on spring cleaning and ways to naturally clean. Along with sending it with a big ole grammar boo-boo. Heh. We'll see what people say :P Bloggy thing



Now, I'm going to finish my night with a little MrDarcy and herbal tea. :) It was a great day!

How do you know you're caffeine sensitive, but not in a standard way?



When you drink coffee at night. Go to bed normally, only to wake four hours later. Guess I get to switch to decaf after 4pm (although I did drink it at 8pm last night...)



*sigh, knows better*

Well boo. I can't get to my pants. Literally. OH DEAR, or my work bras :-/



My washer went Belly up about an hour ago. Huzzah for 4+ years on my extended warranty!

Lazy Saturday. Made Beignets (last of what I picked up in NewOrleans- have to go back for more) and had double stuffed potatoes for lunch with Kat. For the beingnets I've used organic cold pressed coconut oil to fry them in. Then I've added a tablespoon of baking cocoa powder and a pinch of cinnamon to powdered sugar topping.



Granted I will pay later... but it was a nice treat for a dreary overcast Saturday. Now I complete my laundry, make my bed and some more paperwork, perhaps even some blog work.



Tis a very good day :D

Sometimes I wonder about people.



Then I think about how "most" in alternative lifestyles tend to live. The wonder goes away.



Go a head and ask... why?



Because there is a juvenile aspect to creative communities. No, I am not saying you haven't grown up, but you *points left, and then points right* haven't. Seriously creativity is encouraged when we are developing and young, when we enter university or vocational training, the focus turns more practical; even with the arts. The reason being is we are training for work.



Yet the creative side tends to putter for a while, most people I would argue aren't even aware of what it is they struggle with.



Because of this, and an overall lack of mentor to encourage both the creative and the practical at the same time; we end up with in our heads fantasy. This could be a great thing, something that benefits us; more often than not, it is simply an escape.



Perhaps with the big consciousness shift we are encountering, we will find a more "graceful" way of bridging the gaps. I see examples of this every day, I also see the repeating habit of hide till it passes.



Neither is fully correct, and neither is complete wrong.



But maturity I think is mastering them both.

So you all know it's been really tough with the change over, and my still waiting on registration.



However.



I HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO PAY BOTH RENTS! ON TIME :D



Now I still have insurance and such and things are still "behind" in the grand scheme... But this is the BEST news yet. I CAN DO THIS



*big sigh of relief*

YAY!

Walking dachshunds in the rain is like leading a dog into the Vet's office. Normally our walks start with the boys "bounding off", days like today? I'm dragging them until they get their business done.



And then it's pouting time on the couch. Such babies.

I really want to do a garlic, mizithra stuffed sweet potato...

More fun science gobbledly gook.

There is an interesting parallel I'm seeing with the science talks I've posted, and these "shamanic" dreams I feel I've been having. Fascinating coincidence.



Yet I don't believe there is such a thing as coincidence.



I'm not saying that for others there isn't (if you see my message, you may not see it as message but coincidence- the meaning is not for you). In other words, if it is coincidence to you, then the message is not for you. But watch out for repeating themes. Our subconscious and our social connection often ask us to grow and allow change that if it spoke directly to us, we would not open to. Yet the well placement of signs, seems to ease us back on our path and into where we need to travel.

This is SO worth taking an hour to watch all these videos:



Banned Ted Talks



Radio interview going over what happened...



Dr. Rupert Sheldrake Radio Interview



Very interesting to hear the inner arguments that often is not put into the "lime light". The other aspect is we are SO used to Science as "law" that we forget it is a constant... of change. Great discussions, I love this kind of stuff. Even more, I love a coffee chat over days with friends on this (keep in mind, my best friend is a PhD in chemical oceanography, my uncle is PhD in genetics, and numerous Dr's and other scientists in my life)... Damn I wish they were closer so I could really "bite into this"...

Nothing like waking from a dream where you felt as if it were a serious negotiation/prope of you and the realities of your situation. What is strange is this is the second one of these dreams. They are very real.



Almost like astral ones where the other person has drawn you in for their purposes. Both times, I don't think the other was expecting my perspective.



No matter how much I learn, the biggest lesson is that two people can be RIGHT. But each will only have their perspective. Nothing except a want to understand the other's perspective can change that. Often the entire process is jumbled with outsiders trying to impose their perspective. It's a big mess after a while.



No wonder communication often breaks down. We think it is easier.

We're gonna log into Fakeboob.com



Cumming soon to a bedroom near you.

With the thunder storms of the last two days there has been a LOT of flooding in the local parks. The one where the music festival is, normally has a walk way and then a 12' green before the river... right now the river is over the walk way. Even on my block some of the houses have water pumps, pumping the excess water into the street.



This time of year is always crazy. I thought we might avoid most of this, but nope, here it is.

New moon. I can't help but reflect it is considered a monthly "rebirth". With how things have been going I wonder if this is just me sinking.



Everyone including myself had such positive vibes with the move (regardless of the poor timing and lack of time to prepare). And it has been a good move, but I am stuck.



I am waiting on my bloody registration so I can truly promote my business. There is nothing worse than having to say "no new clients until the government body does their work"... which means I am SCREWED financially. Yes I'm getting by, but not even close to where I was.



I was getting really good response (still am) from things I'm posting, but without the ability to say "HEY" contact/see me, it is really tough not to just get upset.



Or stressed.



Still I feel like things are on the right track (have business cards for both, just got a new domain)... but I'm really put out with this waiting. The only good thing is it is letting me put things in place that I think are going to make my work easier, and allow for more volume.



I'm also going to be talking to the lawyers next week... Plan right now is to get perm residency sent in, and then get a local MP to get on it to try to "push it through faster". If that can happen, then I could be out of all of this sooner rather than later.



Why did I put myself in this type of situation to begin with?



I really am questioning that. Because to break the cycle and really step it up, I have to. And I have to know the answer. I'm getting closer to it... so much more so...

Egon won't stop whining now that his new girlfriend has gone. Every so often I think he's done and then another groan comes out. Poor boy. LOL

Oh the boys are in for a treat... although I fear for my floors (tis ok this weekend I will be doing my spring cleaning - carpet edition, as well as windows).



A colleague who is a wholistic nutritionist is bringing Bella with her for us to have a meeting and for Bella and the boys to have a romp. Bella is an over weight mini dachshund who actually looks like a cross of Bria and Pai... only she's Winston's size and should be closer to Bria's.... o.o



It's gonna be a weeniez running kinda day.



BRING IT!

I LOVE BLASTING PEOPLE. It makes me all happy and stuff.



What is unfortunate, is that like biting; many people abuse the feature- so PM's turn it off. It is the schnizzle. It allows quick discussions no matter where or what you are doing on VR. A part of me hopes that eventually it can lead to being similar to one of the chat rooms, only you don't have to "go into a room" to chat. We'll see. Cancer always is doing different things... maybe... then again, maybe not.



However, I fear the "Blast entire site". Truly, if you know my track record here, you know why.

And BAM! It's diddle diddle time. Congrats biddy, :)



Shhh images should never never have told y'all how much we groveled for the mug!



;)

Preparing for diddle diddle laughter in 5...4...3...



Sometime karma isn't a bitch. Sometimes karma has a sense of humor within the happenings.

In 24 hours they registered 31 people. At this rate it will take 49 business days to register everyone that has taken the tests (and if they are like myself, they had everything in by the deadline given). That means whom ever ended up getting delivered last will not be able to work again until June 14th.



This is stupid. Please sign the petition below.

It's a strange phenomenon here on, and truly on any journal site.



We all write entries about OURSELF. Then we add other factors (let's call them YOU).



Somewhere in the story telling, often key details are left out. Feelings are expanded to portray great emotions. Yet like the LOL we all use, often that emotion is just a smirk or smile. Still there is TRUTH of LOL, it just isn't really a "laugh out loud".



Then YOU are added. The aspect of right and wrong comes into play. Yet it isn't the whole truth, because we (OURSELF) live and view life, from our perspective. Which doesn't involve YOU at all. And thus the he said/she said and any combination there of gets all gobbilty goo (yes it is a great descriptor).



What's my point?



I'm often fascinated by trying to figure out what is "going on" because in truth I'm more focused on my life and come here to socialize, that if I were to write out the drama... it would be so distorted no one would know what I was talking about.



Wait. What am I talking about?



Oh yes, YOU. No, that isn't right.



ME? No, that isn't right either.



Oh hell, I give up *pours another cup of coffee and puts Dr. Who on*

It's interesting. I used to always have the music going or TV playing something. Background noise. But lately I'm surprised when I "check in" to be greeted by silence.



I actually welcome this. It is at times quite nice.

Jumping on the old bandwagon.



Why?



Because it makes me laugh, and there has been more than enough stress for this week.

Do you live in Ontario? If you do: Please sign



They have only added 30 people since Monday. With a total of only 564 registered. My application was in on time, and they will not respond to any of the calls I have placed. I do not live with someone, I do not have the "spare money" to afford this break from work.



It punishes me for being qualified, paying over 1,200 in fees and mailings just because they want a cut-dry date, that THEY CAN NOT complete my registration by.



Please sign.

I was given some beautiful fabric from a friend yesterday. This weekend: finish more of my paperwork, and then get working on the sewing room.



Slowly everything is being sorted through and "out" if it's not something I need. I have a great idea for storage for the papers I DO have to keep (part of being in the biz I'm in) and BONUS it will free up more space! YAY.



Ok dog walk, quick lunch, shower and then work... then- WEEKEND! WOOOO :)

It's funny, I've said this several times today and over the past week.



I should be way more stressed with how things are playing out... waiting for my registration to go through (I had everything expect police report to them by the 19th, and then emailed and mailed that when it came around the 22, so they had the original by the 26th).



So I don't know if I got pushed further back in line for not having that one piece (had everything else). Or if it's just because they have only registered 533 people for the entire province. There are over 1,000 of us who took the tests.



It's stressful, because TECHNICALLY, I can't work until I have that piece of paper; but realistically, I can't afford NOT to work. It's a horrid catch 22. So with nothing else, I sit here quietly waiting. Hell, until I have my registration I don't want to deal with my immigration (as no registration-means no new work permit)



But I feel like everything is as it should be. I got everything in as soon as I could, and no I can't "blast" all that I am to everyone without the registration, I am gently still working on building my business. However, I won't be booking new clients unless they are referred by a current client. It sucks. They give the province 25 days to get information in (email was sent late on the 4th of March) and then the bill goes into effect on Easter weekend, which means two days off of processing. Really? Who thought of that shyte. IMO it should have been Feb 4th, and then if you don't have everything by March 1st then you can't work as of April 1st.



At least, I'm not the only one in this limbo. But it still doesn't take the stress off. *sigh* Good thing for getting a treatment today from the naturopath, and tomorrow from the Chiropractor.



Still over all I'm happier. I have a long way to go, as I really want to buy two more zero gravity chairs (they are $34 ea with tax, and I use them in my group setting) as that would mean I could treat up to six people at the same time in community... but then again, with where things are... ACK!



And then I remember only 533 have been posted to the website. I took the tests with 300+... soooo, I'm not alone, just a few days more....

When you answer the question, "what did you do last night" with...



Sat on the couch stroking the wiener.

I'm seeing SO many mistakes that I've done over the past several years. o.o



It can be disheartening, but overall I'm looking instead to how I want to change things. I woke this am with a note from an account that is past due, "check is in the mail". And yes I believe them, as it was for a birth, so they are late, simply because they have baby :)



I'm still working on gratitude, I'm so very grateful for all that I've done, had help with and where I am. I think that's the thing. It is a process, and you can "know" something, but until you LIVE it- it doesn't matter.



Truth is, I've needed this down time. I've needed to "check out" in many ways. However, staying there does not honour my ability or the people I should be helping. Why did I buy into the bullshit? Because it was easy. I was tired. More importantly, I was learning. And for me to make an educated choice, I had to KNOW.



I do know. I have a long way to go, yet am looking forward to each step.

Ok most of you have heard me talking about surround yourself with the positive. This email is a GEM! And pertains so much to VR doings.



My I introduce you to Danielle LaPort!



And here is the email that rocked my socks off...



11 Pointers on good digital manners, yo.



1. For the love of God, give people decent notice for your requests. May I interview you ... next week? Can you write an article ... in two weeks? Um, no. Most people have commitments and process times. A month's notice for a request is civilized.



2. "Did you get my Thank You note?" Don't ask for thanks for your thanks. It kinda takes the fun out of being thanked.



3. "Did you get my email?". Chances are extremely high that they got your email. Yes, there are over-zealous spam folders and rare Gmail gremlins. But it's highly likely that they got your email. Give people at least two weeks to get back to you. Remember the days when you'd write a letter, put a stamp on it and just wait to be pleasantly surprised when someone wrote you back? Try to channel that energy into your online communication.



4. DM'ing on Twitter (Direct Messaging) is not necessarily a means of intimate communication. (And DM streams are getting blasted by so much spam these days, it's getting harder for people to sift through the trash.)



5. "LOL" isn't funny. Never has been.



6. No one really wants to hear you bitch about your head cold or your kids. No one.



7. If you can take an hour to write three paragraphs about a typo that you fond in someon's post and how it undermines the efficacy of their entire theory, then perhaps you need to find more meaning in your life. Volunteer somewhere.



8. People say all kinds of stuff online that they wouldn't have the audacity to say face-to-face. They get, as my friend, psychotherapist Terri Cole puts it: "cyber balls." Uh huh. She goes on to say, "It's time to look at online interaction as real life, because whether you like it or not, it is." It's all energy, it all gets felt. Kindness is classy, and you can disagree without being a nasty douche about it.



9. So about those really long emails to thoroughly introduce yourself... ix-nay on the length-ay. Two short grafs, max, with a link to your site. Consider your first email communication a handshake and invitation, not a long dinner on a first date.



10. Putting someone on your email list without their permission is up there with telemarketing and walking in without knocking -- tres tacky.



11. Tweeting or Facebook-posting about something great that someone gave you or did for you, i.e., "I just got the best new car from @jane!" is a lovely act of sharing -- do it -- but it's not a sufficient expression of gratitude to the giver. It's kind of like just spreading a rumor that you're grateful. Be public and be direct. Thank the person. Immediate email is good. Hand written notes are superior. A phone call is like, stellar-stunning.



Vive la digital swellegance. xo

^ Points to the date ^ Do I really have to spell it out for you? ^





Durrrrrrr

It's time for all administration to show up in our private group: H8R



We need to plan out new ways of terrorizing VR members. If possible leave the best times you are available for skype so we can fully go over all the details for this year.

Taking a quick break from my Dr.Who marathon (I'm also going through all my receipts from the last several years and organizing a new system- after all if I expect to get busier, I HAVE to have working systems).



Egon was a silly pup, he ended up with gravy on his head :P But my game hen was AMAZING. I am definitely doing more Kale. I swear it is my new "go to" veggie. Actually I have some quinoa and I think I'll make a quinoa and kale salad tonight... OOOOO YUM!



Alrighty. A few sit ups on the ball (also helps stretch since when organizing and working on the computer I tend not to "move around enough") and then back to organizing and Who watching.



Happy Easter everyone :D