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I will be away for a bit as I am forced to move from where I am. I may only be a few days but then it could be longer as it depends on how things go.



Friday May the first I will be moving.

5 pair of Rustler jeans

8 pair blue dress pants

24 pair of white socks

10 pair of black socks

2 winter ponchos

6 sweaters

1 800 mhz pc

1 optiplex pc

12 pair underware

22 pocket ts

6 white ts

5 shorts

2 coveralls

2 winter coat inserts

1 800 dual core server

real time pictures which cant be restored or gotten back.





I will add more shortly

These feelings I have are they real or are they a dream?



At times I wonder if the feelings I have are really a dream rather than being real but I pinch myself so I assume that they are real.



When I see her online or get a phone call from her it makes my day. I also have my heart jump through my throat. I can be down at the time that they happen and suddenly I feel so happy. I miss her when she is not around and worry about her. From what I know of her she too has had a rough life and has been made to feel worthless as well.



I only know that she makes my day when I get to talk to her. I think that perhaps she is not used to having someone truely care about how she feels or what she wants. The reason for thinking its a dream is because she makes me feel so special in her own pleasant way. She holds my heart and I wonder if she really knows that I am not one of those who plays games when it comes to relationship. I know how she feels because of how I have been done. She is my world and she is my light from my dark exsitance.



More to come.

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thebatt
18:49 Apr 19 2009

:)

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littleimp
16:25 May 29 2009

this is how it started for me and my wife and now have been marred for 5 years

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When I am in a relationship I am devoted to the one I am with. I do not waver from that because of all of the hurt that I have been through. I dont like cheaters, players of emotions, or liars. Unlike most men I do care about being honest and open about how I feel about the one that I am with. Communications are what help a lot in keeping a relationship going. I have seen too many of both men and women get hurt because of the fact that people now a days tend to cheat on one another. I have no way to prove that I am different except that past ex's can confirm that I am a one woman man. I feel that a true man only cares and loves the one that he is with.



Friends are nice to have and I would not stop the one I am with from having them, nor would I want her to stop me from having mine. Many people think that cheating is the way things should be done well I am here to tell you when you really care about someone that is the one that should matter above all others. Especially when you have children.



Keep your eyes peeled more to come later.

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Oceane
04:19 Apr 20 2009

I know personaly one of your ex, I actually live as a roomate with her ( we share a room ..long story...budget issues lol ) and she agreed when I asked about you, she said you were not the ceating type, you were honest. So yep, she confirmed and since I beleive her, as my bestest friend, then I agree with her.

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I renamed this because somehow my other one disappeared on me.



I am exploring a very special lady and for now that is where my heart is resting. For now she is the only one that may get with me at any time of day or night. I have never felt giddy in my life and when she is around I get that way. I care about her and anyone that hurts her will have to deal with me. As she is lost without me I am lost without her.



I will be adding to this from time to time so keep your eyes peeled. HAHA

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Fizbop
09:51 Apr 07 2009

Didn't know a man could get giddy and now there's two of us.

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Appearantly noone cares when you feel down.



Appearantly noone cares that they break your heart.



Appearantly noone cares that they use you then throws you away without a word.



Appearantly noone cares because they say I love you then they are doing god only knows what with someone else.



Appearantly noone cares when they talk of building a relationship then drops you flat.



Appearantly noone cares that life means something.



Appearantly noone cares that love should be taken seriously.



Appearantly noone cares that your on the verge of ending it all.



Appearantly noone cares that the heart is not a toy.



Appearantly there noone that cares that you wonder why your even here.



Appearantly noone cares that some of us do care.



Appearantly noone cares what the other people feel.



SO WHO CARES? APPEARANTLY NOONE.

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MeanOleRachy
14:21 Apr 05 2009

I wonder the same things the same thughts have crossed my mind the last 48 hours.... when especially no one thinks that maybe just for a second that someone has laid awake for days worried about the one person they love more then life itself.

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MissesXYasutora
18:25 Apr 17 2009

yep thats basicaly life for anyone that tries to breathe or speak.

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TaintedPoison
17:26 Apr 19 2009

I care

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What is the use of trying? Appearantly not is best due to the way things go.



Whats the use of caring? Appearantly its not worth the effort.



What is the use of love? Appearantly no use there as the heart is always ripped out.



What is the use of a relationship? Appearantly not worth having.



What is the use of helping others? Appearantly it dont mean anything.



What is the use of being nice? Appearantly that does not help.



What is the use of being someone who has feelings? Appearantly they are not worth having either.



What is the use of stiving to be wanted by someone? Appearantly it sucks especially when it seems all one sided.



What is the use of living? Appearantly I am a gludent for punishment especially when it comes to the heart.



SO WHATS THE USE? I HAVE NO CLUE.

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MeanOleRachy
14:19 Apr 05 2009

your not alone on feeling that... I can assure you on that.

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