I get so confused sometimes by what I see. But then I remember that 90% of the time what I see is just the souls wish...Or known as a out of body experience....But though I want it to be real could it....That is the question....I think that only time can tell...I hope it does for it will bring great joy to me....
Hmmm sometimes I just sit and wonder. Why must the past still kick me in the ass. Like how I still even after a year still fears my birth mom after being beat. Or how the past never seems to stop haunting you. I know all I can do is wish and hope for the past to leave me alone. But it wont happen. Ant in 2 years the nightmare still stands and still haunts me by the day.
Hmmm I wonder if my shocking and denying that bastard the other night is what made him leave me alone. Or is he plaining his next attack to try his luck. Well it has been like 3 days sence then and he ant talked sence thank god for that. Sometimes I just sit and wonder if Aarons mind is stuck on that one damned track. At least that annyoance has seaced for a while.
Okays so my douche bag ex calls right....He has the nerve after teating me like shit to freakin call me with a guilt trip...Damn him I wish he would get the damned hint TAKEN----HAPPLY TAKEN....Grrr he is such a ass....Call wanting to hang out (Aka his verson is sex).....Or ask me if I want to be a benfical friend....Like hell I would....Of corse I say hell no but does he get the hint or keep trying to sucker me? let me answer he keeps on....I got like so damn pissed and exsploded BOOOOOOM....Yeah but he still ant got the damn hint....Oh well maybe if I ignore the bastard he will go away....*Wishes*
Okays as you know I am a fangirl. I am so dying to watch the live action movie of Lupin the 3rd and Blood the last Vampire. I have the anime but is dying to watch the live action movies. Oh man I can't wait till the last episodes of Inuyasha comes on DVD if they put it on DVD lol. Add it to the collection of all 4 movies lol.
Okays I am so enjoying myself. Even though I know I will have to face my Dark past and try to not use my Darker side. I am prepared to try. If I can get my fear over with then I can go into the future with out most of my past to bite me in the ass. I wish I could cause due to my past I fear a freakin building and one person who lives in it. Sad thing is it is a volenteer firedepartment. I know if I get the job my aunt said she will try to help me get I can face my fear of the person and destroy the one of the building. Oh well maybe I can do this.
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