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Blackness engulfs me

like nothing before

What was once an option

Is now a closed door

Strange times lie ahead

Will I make it??

Or end up dead??

The warrior in me won't let that happen

The coward inside me thinks it will

God am confused

Do I move or stay still??

Too many unwanted emootions in my head

When all is done what is left to be sed??

All around me are familiar faces

Worn out places, worn out faces

Bright and early for their daily races

Going nowhere, going nowhere

And their tears are filling up their glasses

No expression, no expression

Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow

No tommorow, no tommorow

And I find it kind of funny

I find it kind of sad

The dreams in which I'm dying

Are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you

'Cos I find it hard to take

When people run in circles

It's a very, very

Mad World

Children waiting for the day they feel good

Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday

Made to feel the way that every child should

Sit and listen, sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous

No one knew me, no one knew me

Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson

Look right through me, look right through me



This has been my theme tune the last few dayz :) it makes me happy 4 some rather obscure reason :)

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllllll let me think of everything thats buggin me lately......................

aaa|aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *picks up all treasured possessions and chucks em at wall* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

*low seething growl*

I feel fuckin better now

I'm gonna use this lil space for emotional dumpage I'm not artistic never will be I accept that and its all cool with me.

I'm jus gonna vent right now, I wish I could tell y'all what am feelin but to be honest I don't even know.

Right now my head is pretty messed up and to be honest I feel a lil sick.I don't feel sick somethin I ate was bad or I'm feverish I jus feel sick.............................I read somethin and well my heads all like "Its cool" and "Why?" (angrily/upset) and "Like let it slide man it ain't nothing".

If I was in a room with bullet proof glass steel furniture and such you'd come in right now and it'd be trashed like complete and utter destruction UUUUUUURRRRGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! god sometimes I feel like running at a brick wall headfirst not cos am angry or upset or anything I'm jus so goddamn confused and bewildered and befuddled (Befuddled lol hey at leasdt I can still laugh) I dunno U dunno who does what does???????? Leave me alone talk to me hug me hit me hate me love me...................................................................................God am such a reject's reject lol I try and be cool and stuff andf 99% of the time I am and 4 me to "lose" it it takes a LOT but sometimes the odd thing will tip the scales not into anger or anything but jus enough to stop me dead and make me think and when that happens lol its funnilly not what did I expect???????????????? That question ain't even rhetorical which sux lol oh god jus shoot me now eh?? at leasyt I'll shut up eh lol "Que fas et gloria du cunt" b*llocks to that eh?