Even though I know I am strong within, it is saddening to also know that my heart is weak and longs for the warmth of another.
I can take care of myself and stand on my own. I have learned to be tough when I need to be and caring when it's called for. What I have yet to learn, is how to close off that part of me that craves to hear anothers laugh. Feel the touch of a warm hand in mine. Be held by someone who I can feel safe with. Safe enough to say "It's your world for a while, I am tired of trying to contain the chaos". "Hold me while I let myself sleep and let go of the daily fight for survival".
I am either an idiot or a hopeless optimist. Somewhere inside there is a tiny spark of hope that refuses to go out. It clings to the silly belief that love and happiness are still possible.
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