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Everyday, I get up and do the same damn thing over and over again. There is no end the the mundane and dull life I have. It seems that I have been deserted by whomever is up there in the cosmic dust of the universe. I have nothing therefore I am nothing. My life is a complete shambles, I have lost my balance, my center. I can't seem to get things going for me for some reason, no matter how hard I try. I don't know what is keeping me from acheiving my goal, why can't I rise above? What is holding me down? Its been this way for 4 years now, will I ever get a break? All I do is go day to day, trying hard to make life better for me and mine, but no matter how hard I try, it just seems that something is weighing me down. I just want to scream sometimes.