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Well here I am, sitting here in my darkened living room and writing yet again about me. It seems that I have turned to writing more and more, both on and off VR. My mind wanders in so many directions and its hard to keep up with whats what. LOL. My 3 nephews had birthdays within a month's time and its hectic trying to keep up with how old who is. Hell, I have to stop and think hard when it come to thinking about how old my kids are, let alone someone elses. It seems as if the world is passing me by while I sit here and write this. My life is empty yet again, for I cannot seem to find something to permanently fill it. I haven't been out but once since my xboyfriend told me about his cheating habit, and when I did go out it was with my mother. I seem to be going deeper inside myself, with the passing of every boyfriend and friend from my life. I am getting to where I don't want to go out, don't want to put myself in the position of disappointment. I have decided that for now(might change my mind later) I will just be happy with me. Friendship isn't all that important, the ones that have stuck by me through it all I will still have something to do with but to make new contact is something to be put on the back burner. I am not ready to put my heart on the line again. I am not ready to hear from someone's lips that I am their destiny and then they disappear. I am just here.

HERE I AM