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Surface again in light
19:29 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 500








the epiphanies of my failures



and the reaper of reputations



strip me to the bone



strip me to the bone, spit me bare to dry



licked repeatedly by the incinerating



UV rays of humanity.



care not for me.



care not.



hold me never.



laugh, laugh and walk away.



left to my own, my ingenuity.



i build myself, i create myself.



i unbrainwash myself!



years of reconstruction.



i succeed to emerge a greatness



an inner entity of amazement.



no one understands.



failure? i wonder



pain always lingering in the depths.



inadequacies, bullshit.



i push past, deal with, battle face to face



to leave dismembered on the floor.



step on it, stomp it deep.



plunge it down, to surface again in light



me



hold me, love me if your able.



never take for granted.



my soul, not of this life,



this place, these people, this society.



i am light.



capable of so many inconceivable things.



i am light



i need only when i let myself need.



i need you, only if to see me.



the true me, the me no one can possibly see



i cry, i love, i feel, i am awakened!







11/24/07

Unimbiguitus
19:27 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 501

step on me, go ahead.



don't see my blood? truth be told it is red.



don't hesitate. I've been lying here for effervescent scores of time,



drifting in and out of knowing.



my heart sewn by the threads of chance.



so scared of pain and the hurts I've lived.



reluctantly the love i give,



is taken greedily, and selfish truths come into light.



cry i have like never before, my mistake to open the door.



lessons learned i did not heed



now i lay here on the floor to suffer my fate and bleed



darkness enveloping hope, jumping through hoops



with a noose around my throat.



praying each leap lands me on my pedestal,



without a false step.



the fatal end i know, waits for the careless step i take.



you the thief who stole the whole of me, all of me.



made me go where i swore i would not.



made me live my dreams.



made me step out into fantasy,



my reality,



came true to me,



unbelievably.



i so foolishly.



no one will ever catch me. my heart will never be,



never see a safe horizon.



never be surrounded in true and trusting arms of strength.



i can not save you, i can not save anyone, for i need saving myself.



can you save me? will you try?



will you support my misguided step, before the noose pulls tight?



i am bleeding on the floor and running out of strength.



will you stop my blood from running, or will you merely drink??????

Beautiful Night
19:25 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 502

darkness seen in brilliant beauty



magnificence in the night of the soul



that wanders in search of truth



i wander in the seeking too.



through black gardens of violet ivy



boasting its plethora of blood red orchids.



gargoyles perched upon high posts protect me



from all the superficial lurking souls



this black night casts its beautiful light



and i wander in magic repose.



moonlight to kiss my fair skin, and gently caress my lips.



i take rest by a great willow languishing alone



i feel the energies gathering in strength



someone is coming for me, someone seeking me.



i am intrigued, i am afraid but will not flee.



i thrive within this beautiful nightmare



unseen charms entrance my vision



circling me around gloomy paths seen by glimpses of sun



breaking through the cimmerian darkness



a dark love comes, stronger than the light.



as beautiful and true as the dark of night



this unseen garden in the muck



along side its indigo rose, i walk alone.



untill i am found

No
19:23 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 503

watching them



they watching me



all of us in our own reverie.



them watching them,



watching you watching me.



all alone i seek.



falling from grace in a no mans land.



through empty space like desert sand



millions of moments pass by me unnoticed



eye through my looking glass,



sees through your eyes.



love me forever and tell me no lies.



tell me no lies my only, my lover.



for deceptions cause interceptions



in two hearts beating as one.



no lies and no falisies,



no deceptions between you and me.



entwining souls of a different time



they come haunting the present



from times long ago.



coming together with ones they already know



already held, already loved, already died for,



already before.







10/29/07

Find me True
19:22 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 504

cry the masks



of emotions shed



cast off the muse



cast off the dread







wims of deepest



dimensions advise



are you lost



within my eyes?







catapulting fantasies



drifting endless realities



i thrive within



the whole of you.







your magic draws me in



deeper than i know



are you feeling celestial



entwined within my skin?







let it linger if it may



and in its core we'll remain



and lovingly dissolve



another day.







the strings of hope



carry the music true



they bid you to me







there is naut but life



and mine is yours



cast us apart on different shores







you sail once again



this black ocean whole



and find me true,



your,.....................oceansoul.

Sleep writing
19:20 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 505

Lingering in your embrace



hold me tight and keep me safe



never let my fading dreams die



never allow desolation to fly



within the depths of a chaotic core



lock them away to haunt me no more







lingering in your embrace



the whole of me entirely



i am not displaced



hold me close and you protect



i walk the path of thieves



that blatantly neglect







lingering in your embrace



across porcelain skin



your fingers trace



a sigh so heavy as if to drug me



back to tranquil utopia







lingering in your embrace



i gently feel your breath



paint worlds across my neck



warm and dreamily, floating freely



drawn on high energy



engulfed and care free







i choose not to wake



lingering in your embrace

Empathy
19:13 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 506

share with me my pain, my pity



share with me my loss, my loss



don't pretend, don't play games



i can see what you hold in.



i say nothing to this knowledge.



that you hide on the outside.



i know what you really think.



the secrets you won't share



on the exterior you're mask you wear.



i will keep your secrets safe



never let you know, i know.



I'll never let you feel ashamed



thinking what I'll think of you.



i will share your pain, your pity.



i do feel your loss, your loss



i pretend i can not see within you.



i let you wear your mask.



i love you either way!

Minutes trial
19:12 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 507

treasures lost our souls left to cry



golden tears fall down the sigh



the feelings sway with the wind



blown away to return not again



the fluttering lashes of my eye



turn from the emerald ashes that fly



born up to the clouds of yesterdays dreams



the trampled petals that have withered and died



harmony fades as my shallow breath slows



in the end, no one knows.

Solitudnal Wims
19:12 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 508

amongst the multitude of solitudnal whims



i carry within



down to you, forgotten.



a youth thats fighting



refusing to succumb to the delicacies of



an aging core



the dream of love renewed



the ambiance of it



the life of a thousand nights of falling star



wishes and programned dreams.



a chance within our grasps



mirrors



desolately has my soul resided in this



phantasmal reality of dull referendum



misunderstood.



neglected, rejected, tortured, hurt



and broken.



i remain hidden.



a cool calm collected exterior.



the world sees me,



or so it thinks.



hilarious hideousness.



my deceptions so simple.



smoke and mirrors, magician i am.



humor the powerful blinding agent of stares,



opinions, gossip.



i laugh internally as the world judges me.



forms its superficial, egotistical repressed



opinions of me.



do you, see me true?



can you? will you ever choose to?



demonic presence ever near, trying to rape me.



have i fear?



no i have no fear!

right
19:11 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 509

stormy skies



those who try



they will die



freedom is false



freedom is illusion



freedom is blasphemy



the cause of our confusion



there is no freedom



they



the keepers of hell



they're the ones who tell



tell us the free



where to live



where to work



how to act



how to serve



how to obey



obey their rules



their ideas



of righteousness

Riddling answers
19:05 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 510

dred the dispare



of those not there



they've turned the key



to enter reality



born into known chance



riding the waves of disablement



spinning round and round my mind



my shadow answering the rhyme



in riddles that forever bind



the knowledge to the knower



can you see within the truth?



can you see between the lines?



i see backwards to look forwards



and in so doing do find



the key to all is relevant



if the knowledge



can be grasped by the mind!

Chaos
19:03 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 511

gifted are the dead



we shot them in the head



we ran them down insane



they cried out in pain



guilt we mustnt feel



for life is so unreal



and broken hearts don't heal



i know how they feel



does it matter, do we care



does it help if they're not there



endless visions, endless thoughts



night and day don't get caught



you will be shunned, you will be blamed



if you break the heart that you've now tamed



what is real, what is right



who you sleep with every night



or the one you dream of, is it fair



to love the one who can't be their,



questions always on the mind



which way to go, which choice, which time



never ending how you go



for the other path you'll never know







2007

The instant gravity of the void
19:02 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 512

The wolves did not just stalk quietly through cadmium woods. Their teeth grew madder and rose from each others throats. the tigers did not just sleep on mossy slopes, they colored the afternoon fuchsia and indigo from celadon heights, and the dragon with it's terrible emerald tail and ruby glare did not merely threaten, it incinerated everything around it. Spiders prepare a grave. This thing in a blinding tomb. A multitude of flames, a million orange and blue tears cremating the past. A burning snow falling everywhere. When the darkest angel of all sits at last upon my chest permanently enfolding me in its iridescent wings, I lose hope. A creature with out a voice, a voice without a name, as immortal as my life, come here at long last to summon the wind.



2008

Within a Breath
06:52 Jul 02 2010
Times Read: 521

Everything changes within a breath,



We breath life's force in and exhale it's poison.



Thirty some years spent in sweet slumber,



The numb relief to the painful awakening.



What the hell am i here for,



If not for some purpose.



I breath his life in and exhale his pain.



And true to this action i know it is killing me.



Everything changes in one breathing moment



The death that is longed for,



The hunger, the need,



Is simply released from the breath that we breathe



I'm beeing slain honest and cold.



Defenses are crumbled as fast as their thrown.



Walls that get scaled as fast as their built.



Is this what is needed, the lessons of soul?



To slumber no longer and face loves true toll.



Selfishness battles selflessness,



And the wager is all.



Using and neglecting life sucked out, we fall.



There is no grand ending, no marbled halls.



Where is he hiding in this masquerade ball?







written 1-19-08