You asked me if I'd wait for you... and I said of course I would. I've waited my entire life for you to come along and fill the void in my heart, so why wouldn't I be willing to wait a little longer?
But, what if you don't want me, when the waiting is over?
I'm willing to take that chance.
There is much truth to that saying... just as there is in "what you don't know, won't hurt you". Of course, I still believe that knowledge is power, so all those adages, sayings, proverbs or whatever you want to call them may or may not apply, depending on circumstances.
I received a postcard today from someone very near and dear to my heart. The message that was written on it contained a bit of information that I was unaware of before today... information that bothered me a lot. Now, I'm left to question certain things about this person and our relationship, as far as loyalties and priorities are concerned. This is a very confusing time for me, and I'm trying very hard to hold myself together for the sake of this other person... and myself. I don't want to make assumptions or jump to conclusions, because I've always felt it best to give the benefit of the doubt, especially to someone you consider at the very least to be a friend. Until I get an opportunity to actually discuss this with the author of the postcard - live and in person, not on the phone - I will do my best to stay focused on future plans and to remain as upbeat about things as I possibly can. Unfortunately, these little bits and pieces of revelation are eating me up inside. I hope I can find the strength to see this through to the end.
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and you will...
you are one of the strongest people i know.
if you need to talk shout my way * hugs
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MysticMoon
23:41 Aug 08 2009
:) * hugs
CAJOME
02:01 Aug 09 2009
vines
16:27 Aug 11 2009
You are soooooo romantic. *hugs* I hope he appreciates you.
ABHORASH
20:27 Feb 10 2019
I will ALWAYS love, and want, you. I realize I'm not always the man I should be, and for that, I apologize. The one thing I know I've done right in this world is falling in love with you. You are an extraordinary woman and I feel so blessed that you love me, as well.