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i have an "Angel" and a "Spike" and a "Xander" in my life...



i have an Angel that tells me the most beautiful things in the world and that he wants to be with me, but i can't be with him....i'm not in love with him...i love him but just as a friend....but oooohh i almost hate myself that i can't feel anything else....the worst thing is that he hasn't changed from the day he met me and from the day he told me he loved me and from the day i told him that it wouldn't be fair to him nor me if we were together and i don't have romantic feelings...i honestly felt like a biatch ! but he never changed...he still told me those wonderful things and that i can always count on him...

i'll never ever forget the day i talked to him and he asked me if i had a bf, and i told him that i did (i did have a bf at the time) and he asked me if i loved him...my answer was that a person can't love a person that quickly when you've just been together for a couple of mounths, it doesn't work that way...and then he said with a sarcastic voice "ok" and i asked him if he ever fell in love with a girl or knew he loved her in that short period of time...his answer: yes, i loved her from the first day i saw her and it hasn't changed (at this time, we have known eachother for 5 years)



what am i doing ??????? i'm a bitch !



then i have a Spike, the one who always messes with me and the one who no matter how much we argue and "fight" he'll still come and ask for my help if he needs it and visa versa...



my Xander is my childhood friend...we've never been more than friend and i know we never will and i know i can always laugh with him by my side :)



i have 2 Willow's...my two best friends...always there for me and always listening to my problems



i have a Faith and thank God, i haven't seen her in ages...



Cordelia....i don't have a Cordelia :D:D wieeee



and there is an Oz, or at least one who reminds me of Oz but we've maybe talked 2 or 3 times...so he's not "my" Oz...



and we all know that there are always a bunch of demons involved...an other word for it is emotions !

so it must be true, that you can kill the demons (vamps) by staking them...-emotions come from your heart, and i can tell ya that if ya stake yourself through the heart the demons/vamps/emotions would die...