Fuck this place
I need help finding the real me
This world cannot stand me any longer
This damn world is bring me down
Into a deep dark hole that I really don't want to be in
It's getting worst and it's just hurting me even more
No one to help me any longer
It's getting worst and it's just hurting me even more
No one to help me any longer
This world cannot take my life any longer
I will be taking control of every move from you
Your just bringing me down
Into what you call your home
Your just getting so old
I cannot stand you're feed back
Your just getting so old
I cannot stand you're feed back
It's getting old, but you keep coming back to me
I can't believe that you are so stupid that
You would take me as a fool
It's getting worst and its just hurting me even more
No one to help me any longer
Your just getting so old
I cannot stand you're feed back
It's getting worst and it's just hurting me even more
The anger you start
doesn't seem to be enough
You just like to put people in pain
You've hurt me so
much in the past
that I can't stand it...
DON'T YOU SEE
You've put me through so much,
That I can't even breath,
I can't just hold all this shit inside of me,
Do you understand me like you say you do?,
I don't think you do!,
If you did you wouldn't put me
throught all this pain,
If you understood how I feel inside
How much I
hurt, cry, hate
all the anger, all the cuts,
maybe you'd stop then
All this doesn't seem
to be emough for
you, all you want is
to hurt the people
around you,
you don't see!...
How much damage your doing its not enough
that you hurt the people
around you, but you don't seem to see
How much we
all hurt, cry, hate
all the shit we go through
the problems going on with
you happen to us all...
Your not the only one!
Screams in my head, no more reasons for me to go ,everyone pushes me one way, then pulling me the other,
not to much fun there
been abused most my life, been kicked around and
punished for things I never did,
to much there (can't take this life much life much longer)
beed around drugs most of my life, done drugs (what's new with that)
People not understand how I feel and whats
going on (on the inside)
not knowing what is truth from false
My mind is spinning from to many thoughts at one time
make it stop I just want it to stop
I've lived in so many different ways
Moving around like a stray cat
Been screaming for help from someone
I've been trying to find bright stop in a dull area
hoping to find a reason to continue living
Why shouldn't I kill myself, would it ne easier
No, its just worthless
People not understanding how I feel and whats
going on (on the inside)
not knowing what is truth from false
my mind is spinning from to many thoughts at one time
make it stop I just want it to stop
Fucked up people not being truthful
Using me for the time being until I break
until I fall intoa deep black hole and lose myself
to their hatred, its not going to happen
You can go FUCK OFF!!
You told me you loved me, you fucked with my mind,
I believed it and you betrayed me,
I was your best friend and thought that
I could trust you,
But you still fucked with me again,
That was in the olden days, when I was naive
and now I've learned from my mistakes
and I'm not going too believe that shit anymore
I won't be naive any longer
I've changed
I've learned that nobady is to be trusted at first sight
That they must show me what they really want from me
To know that I'm not being used as a toy for what they want
I want to trust you, but I can't
I want to know you, but you won't let me close
what goes thourgh your mind, I wish I knew
You lie to me time and time again and you wonder
why I don't love you!
What you told me was all lies
Just so that you could get what you wanted from me
I won't be fouled by you any longer
I've grown up since you last saw me
Let's just put it this way
You want something you can't have
And you'll never have it again
I'velearned that nobady is to be trusted at first sight
That they must show me what they really want from me
To know that I'm not being used as a toy for what they want
I want to trust you, but I can't
I want to know you, but you won't let me close
what goes on in your mind, I wish I knew
You lie to me time and again and you wonder
why I don't love you!
All the things you told me,
left long ago,
I never listened then,
What makes you think I'll listen now
Your words are useless to me.
I don't want your hypocritical thinking around,
How hard is that to understand
Get the fuck away from me, you fucked up
version of the human race
I tell you time and time agian,
I fucking hate you and I never want to see you ever agian,
but still you keep coming back for more,
trying so hard to be something that your not,
just so I'll be your friend
Remembering once that you told me
you'd never change for anyone,
so why change for me,
I'm not the one for you,
when will you get that though your fucking head
I don't want your hypocritical thinking around,
How hard is that to understand
Get the fuck away from me,
You fucked up version of the human race
Lights surround me as everything flys by me at speeds I can't understand.
The fear of letting go and having endless boring days that mean absolutely nothing to me come across my mind.
What would I do if out of no where I lost everyone dear and close to me?
I simply wouldn't be able to handle it.
It would just kill me.
It'd be like the old days when I relied on drugs.
I'm not exactly sure if I'd go back to my old habits, but either way it wouldn't be good.
In the end I'd end up being the emotionless person I use to be and I really wouldn't like that.
I'd have to start over with everything once agian.
It'd be a fucked up senerio and people would end up seeing me back at my worst and I really don't want that.
If the ones that know me knew everything about me there'd be no way that they'd still be talking to me.
But if they knew me for who I am today maybe they wouldn't care about the things I did in my past.
Everyday something new to add to this addiction,
when will this shit end,
when will all this shit put an end to my life,
the addiction gets harder and harder to get past,
when your body needs the feeling, the taste!
How much am I willing to risk for this life,
Do I really want it that badly,
that I'd give up my life
I don't really want to think about it
I've lived a chemical life for to long
when will this all end
How long am I expected to survive
this treachrous life ( all that I hate )
to much time and sorrow
to put this brhind me
How much am I willing to risk for this life,
Do I really want it that badly,
that I'd give up my life
I don't really want to think about it
All the secrets and denial
When will it all end
All I want is for it to be all over
Or for my life to be free from all of this
I want my freedom, but it doesn't seem to happen that way
How much am I willing to risk for this life,
Do I really want it that badly,
that I'd give up my life
I don't really want to think about it
Best friends to the end was what we said
but its changed over time
we were once so close and now were lost forever
I can never understand what happened
nor do I want to
The way we acted was inapporiate
we went from loving to hating
Its surprising how one person can change your life
how it can ruin or build a relationship
we can look back and try to find what we once had
or we can rebuild a new relationship
A lot has changed and I haven't seen you for a while
some have changed for the worst and others for the best,
but in other ways it will never matter
what we once had is destoryed
I missed you and I'll always love you
but that will never change anything that happened
what we had is gone and truthfully I wan it to stay this way
Its surprising how one person can change your life
how it can ruin or build a relationship
we can look back and try to find what we once had
or we can rebuild a new relationship
I still ask myself why we can't get our friendship back together
I really wish that we could have our friendship back
I don't want it to be like what it was
Only the friendship
Some things will never change, but at least we could try
Its surprising how one person can change your life
how it can ruin or build a relationship
we can look back and try to find what we once had
or we can rebuild a new relationship
Its surprising how one person can change your life
how it can ruin or build a relationship
we can look back and try to find what we once had
or we can rebuild a new relationship
As it starts to rain you look to my face
For a sign of life or emotion,
but you will never understand me
and my issues for they don't live in your world.
Maybe one day I'll make you understand,
or maybe one day I'll go through with my plans,
Hopefully you won't leave before I get
the chance to explian to you why I love you
I fear the day that you leave
and it makes me think back to memories long.
So attached, I don't want to pain you,
afriad to hurt you and have you leave.
I fear the day that you leave
and it makes me think back to memories long.
So attached, I don't want to pain you,
afriad to hurt you and have you leave.
I am not to be trusted
I don't really care what happens
Maybe sometimes I think of all the stupid things I've done
but I don't regret any of it
All I care about is your attention
Still frightened to get to involved
Rain continues to pour down upon my face
I look up to you, see my mistakes in your face,
and I ask myself why, why did I do this to you
I'm now commited to every image, every scene,
to your scent, taste, the way you hold me,
I remember every moment, every feeling I get when I'm with you,
but is this really what I want
I fear the day that you leave
and it makes me think back to memories long.
So attached, I don't want to pain you,
afriad to hurt you and have you leave.
I am not to be trusted.
I don't really care what happens.
Maybe sometimes I think of all the stupid things I've done.
I fear the day that you leave
and it makes me think back to memories long.
So attached, I don't want to pain you,
afriad to hurt you and have you leave.
I don't regret any of it
All I care about is your attention
still frightened to get to involved
Listening to music may not be that fun..
nor reading a magazine..
but as long as I'm with you!
we can do everything hun..
as long as I'm with you..
I can climb the Everest
I can cross the widest river!
I can reach stars..with one touch of your hand..I can do everything no one could ever stand!
as long as I'm with you..
the simplest things can lead to endless pleasures..
we can fly to the skies above..no one could ever measure!..
baby, you and I are a found treasure!
we can challenge our fears..
be there when we cry!
wipe each other tears..
hold to happiness even if we're meant to fly...
and when the nights are lonely and cold..
we'll cling into each other!
never let go...our hands we'll hold!
never quit thinking we're here together until the end of forever!
the smell of your perfume is like the night breeze flattering my face!
the touch of your hands or your warm embrace..
when it comes to this I'm truly in lust..
how could I pick one of my favorite must??
when I'm with you...
everything seems to be prettier!
if I'm cold..somehow I feel warmth!
if I'm starting to crumble..somehow a smile tints on my face...somehow it feels like my favorite place..
where ever I am if I'm with you..I feel home
because I know...whatever happens..you'll be there!
you'll be there for me until dawn..
fighting all my fears..you'll dare!
suddenly when you say I love you..
I feel like they're the only words I ever knew..
like whatever I ought to be I can do!
I only know to say one extra word and that's too!!
for you...I can live day by day..
I can hush all the secrets away..
because without your whispers the night is so loud!
without you myself I'd never found!
with you in my life..no song can express..
what you make me feel...how it's so real!
all the love words seem wrong!
for you are there for me all along..
so baby stay with me..
because after all I've said..and all I've done..
if there's more I can show you would see!
because now you realize..all that you do..
how much I'm happy "AS LONG AS I'M WITH YOU"
Fill me up and poor me down
watch my heart bob then slowly begin to drown
you take my hand but can not pull hard enough
its OK life is tough
my mind wonders but when gone you don't leave it
your love your care keeps my heart warmer then a mitt
don't ever flow away in this never ending black sea
so hold tight and never let go of me
my heart skips a beet with your words, and races with your kisses
you are the only one this heart misses
the only one that plunges me deeper into this sea of emotional wonders
where once inside you forget all life's blunders
take my breath away every moment I'm with you
don't be surprised if my face goes blue
my hearts beets every second every moment for your love
an angle with no wings but you seem to come from nowhere but above
a surprise in the midnight sky
a surprise that lit up my life and made my heart fly
so plunge me deeper into this sea of wonders and love
brace your heart and watch mine fly away like a dove
The warmth your eyes bring to my heart
Is the greatest feeling in my world
How you use to look in my eyes
Still makes my heart flutter
Your sweet taste... smell...
The way you’d touch me so gently
The way you held me
Holds my heart
You are my one and only
I’ll never feel the way I do for anyone but you!
I love you so much
I will forever and always be yours!
I am truely sorry!
Anger, rage, darken skys
I want this pain to be ended
But will it ever or do I really have to die for that
I am not afriad of death never have been and I never will be
It will be an extremely happy day when the pain finally ends
But will it ever
I fucking hope so
I want it to I want my love back
But will he ever come back
This I truely don’t know
All I can do is hope
The movement of attraction is just a bit confusing
You never know whats going to happen
Most of the time you don’t want to know
Or if you should question it
But the days move forward
And each day you get older and older
You see things you’ve never seen before
Things that half the time you didn’t want to know
But the problems still arise
Even when you try changing what is wrong
You learn that life is not easy
And never will be
Nothing you do will ever make it completely easy
Doing the right things can help
But it won’t make everything better
Not everything your told is the truth
Even if you want it to be
You just have to let things fall into place
And hope that everything will be okay
Even if it turns out to be false
The people you love move on
Whether you want them to or not
Theres nothing you can do to change it
Its just a part fo life
COMMENTS
every one of them are well written and i know where u are coming from there is someone though who wants to take u and help u fly like an eagle free and wild and brave and even all powerful keep searching
Heh this writing along with some others had to do with an ex of mine.
COMMENTS
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aerostotle
11:34 Mar 31 2010
I LOVE THIS I COULDNT AGREE MORE