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why don't u love me for me? why can't u see all the hard work and dedication that I have given and delivered? why must it be a constant battle to feel loved and wanted by u? why must u be so secretive and so assumptive, when I am the one being good, doing nothing, just being my age.... I am not old yet by any means and I am afraid to die without living life, if i were to die today, I would not be missed, only a faint memory in peoples minds.. why? I have done nothing but try to be good to all, when does it become my turn to have good done unto me??? why can't I turn this table of time over and it make it say something better???







why can't i come up with something intelligent to say? it always seem to be gibberish and nothing that makes sense? I have so many thoughts but none of them make sense, and when it is time to put them on paper, they just seem dumb and don't make sense... I spend so much time gone and away that I cant believe that I am even able to slow down enough to have one valid thought, maybe they are all just valid thoughts, just not in the way I understand them..