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04:21 Sep 30 2008
Times Read: 685

Tim Burton's Alice In wonderland



http://infdaily.fusebox.com/2008/09/our-first-look-at-tim-burtons-alice-in-wonderland.html





*excitement*





I feel like this.



:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

unsafeeee
21:51 Sep 29 2008
Times Read: 687






I like dis song.





fits.





I'm getting annoyed with this election drama.



So many people arguing at school, my friends, at work about Obama and McCain. It reminds me of people arguing over who should win American Idol. Shut up.



argh.



it's frustrating when my boss asks me about what I should do when I ask him questions. He does it to my coworker too. We just look at him confused, and think, your the boss, why ask us.



I can't remember if i've posted that before or just thought about it.



Im going insane. Maybe. Kinda.



Hmm. i'm working on a new drawing, it's addicting, it's gonna look prettyy, it's of Amy Lee.



When I question my major it's so confusing, I love art, I'm addicted to art, it makes me feel accomplished when I draw/sculpt. I'm confident that I'm a decent artist. But career wise, do I wanna teach it? I keep to myself, it'll be hard to teach people. do I wanna do something else, if so what...



damn.



Hmm I'm insure on the friend thing. I know I what I should do. But Ten years of friendship, though she's done me wrong a lot, that's a long time to know someone. Ughhh. I think i'm gonna talk to her, maybe I can help her not be so...gay.



blahhh stupid soap opera lifeee.

crack in the sky.
03:02 Sep 29 2008
Times Read: 690

What a bad/great weekend.



On one hand I get to see my best friends, kenna and Mal, which I haven't seen in awhile. And spend tons of time with them, even if we were bored for the majority.



sad part, I came home this morning to find out my hamster, Mozart had died. :[ It was sad, it looked so miserable, stiff and stuff. I have no idea what happened. I had a Funeral today, I buried him next to Lilly.









Apparently I've missed a few phone calls.



What do I say. I'm so disgusted and angry I have no idea how to confront this. I'm not going to let her think I forgot.



Hey thanks for being a great friend to me, cheating on your boyfriend with a guy I liked, with me in the same room. and then acting like nothing happened.





I am not that stupid.



What pisses me off, is not the fact she did this to someone I liked, in fact i didn't really like him, I thought he was cute, she was trying to make it more after I told her repeatedly I don't want to date people, what makes it wrong that she is so disrespectful to me to do that shit when I was in the room, and to cheat on her boyfriend, after all we have discussed on cheating and how it is low and vile.





I feel so betrayed. and I just want to get the hell out of here.

03:51 Sep 28 2008
Times Read: 695

:]



I'm watch Kenna and Mal play Trauma Center on the Wii.





and it is intense.

ew.
18:08 Sep 26 2008
Times Read: 706

I test people. I put them in situations, where their choice will show me what kinda of character they are.





I thought maybe people change but no.











It baffles me how people are so slutty, no morals, no class, and never feel guilty about and actually try to make themselves feel good by saying, well we haven't had sex, it's not cheating. o_0 When your ENGAGED and your grabbing and kissing and just about everything else with someone who is not your lover yeah. Your a cheater.





ugh. It's disgusting. Why cheat? Seriously.







"I'm your best friend, but if I get the chance I'll stab you in the back in a heartbeat." should be her motto.

02:20 Sep 25 2008
Times Read: 714

The tit thing on the opening page.





freaks me out.







reminds me of some obscene emo-cons from msn used by a perverted Irish man to torment me in the grossness.







Was Amanda the butt one? hahahaha.

tainted milk.
03:30 Sep 23 2008
Times Read: 719

This semester is really getting to me.



I feel so alone. all my friends, minus Amanda are at other colleges.



and I don't hear from them as much.



Haylee has Karina, in Atlanta.



Kenna has Mal.



Kim has Brad.



and it sucks. I have Amanda here but she has a controling bf who gives her curfews, I have no one to really call over to just hang out. I have to plan ahead so she can get permission.



and when my friends come home, they don't even call to tell me they are down.







I'm been depressed lately because of this. It's driving me crazy, along with all the other shit i'm going through.





They tell me not to go back to florida next fall, becasue they'll never see me. But I live an hour away and I never see them, what's the difference.



I try to keep in mind, they all have their own place and jobs, and stuff. I feel like I'm being selfish, and whiny.



I hope in january things get better.

my postsecrets.
02:30 Sep 21 2008
Times Read: 723

I try so hard to keep it all in the back of my mind. But it gets hard. I want to say a thousand things, but there is no way I will. The things I have said I feel just make it harder.



This was all brought up because of my dream lastnight. It was me and him and we were just talking and hanging out. and I was think how amazing it felt an dhow much I missed being around him. It could of been a memory, but i don't thin it was. It's insane that my dreams consist of hanging out with someone, when they could be about adventures and magic. mine are just things I miss.





I'm ashamed that I can't move on. It's been my biggest problem for years. I hate knowing that I'm stuck. I hate feeling like annoy him. I love him. I care about him. I hate that I'm not allowed around him, that he doesn't talk to me much. It hurts. But I understand why. Why they don't like me. So it's just confusing.



I tried moving away, but it terrified me that i might never see him again. I've dated other people. I've tried to love them. But I don't. I compare them to him, which is wrong. I try to put so much in my mind, and tell myself all these things, to get over everything, and it's useless. I've gone months not talking to him, and it builds up and I get so sad.



I'm not lonely. I'm fine with being single. I don't want to be in a relationship. Not for awhile.



This isn't me being single and wanting him back. I miss him when I'm dating people.



It sucks. I just want to fix it. I just want my friend back. I just want the leisure of being able to call him without being afraid. Being able to hang out with out worrying about running into people who will run and go tell lies to his girlfriend.



I'd give anything for my past.



I'm moving to Atlanta in three months, and he is the only reason I'm regretting it. and that's embrassing.

damness.
19:39 Sep 19 2008
Times Read: 730

Lastnight we went to this comedy club in Macon, called Whiskey River. The comedians were funny, I love comedy, but it seems so predictable. Fat guy, is going to make fat jokes. Black dude is going to make black jokes or white jokes. A old biker dude, is going to make jokes about being a biker.



to the point, It was a bar thing too, so of course, being 20, I got tagged with a bright orange bracelet, and they held my I.d at the door. I got my I.d back after the show, and then my sister wanted to go to the bar across the street to play pool, again I had to get tagged, but what i can't remember is if they took my i.d or if I just showed it, because I cannot find it.



argh. having bad memory can be a pain in the ass.

:[
16:08 Sep 18 2008
Times Read: 737

I went to my friend's birthday party lastnight.



and was dared to eat a spoonful of cinimon.



and I took it like a shot, and coughed it through my nose.



and I've been throwing up, coughing, and sneezing this shit out all night and day.



and it sucks. I have the worst headache. and i just wanna cry.



haha. :[

survey, eyyy.
17:05 Sep 17 2008
Times Read: 740

I got an hour before classsss.



One: Who are your last 4 texts from?

My coworker, Jessica, My sister's Girlfriend Jennifer, and my friend brandon.







Two: Where was your default picture taken?

Erm a bathroom. haha.





Three: What's your middle name?

-_- brady.





Four: Whats your current favorite color?

Teal.





Five: Does your crush like you back?

I don't have a crush, really.





Six: What is your current mood?

bored.bored. bored. I wanna go somewhere out of Ga.







Seven: When is your birthday?

august 18th.





Eight: What color shirt are you wearing?

black.





Nine: If you were going on a Reality TV show, which one would it be?

erm. uh. shit. that one with Howie guy, teh lil monsters dude. Taht one. So I can say NO DEAL! wait that's a game show. damnit.







Ten: Are you imagining anyone naked right now?

Well now that you have said it yes, Johnny Depp's naked body just popped in my head.







Eleven: Did you ever sneak into an R rated movie?

Yeah. I was such a rebel.





Twelve: Ever had a near death experience?

yeah, a fall a lot.





Thirteen: Something you do a lot?

zone out.





Fourteen: How old will you be in 12 months?

21.





Fifteen: Do you want to see somebody right now?

No. I wanna go home, to a bed. Because It's cold outside, and that means my room will be cold, and I love sleeping in the cold.







Sixteen: How many piercings?

six. five in ears, and one lonely eyebrow bar.





Seventeen: When was the last time you cried?

yesterday. All my friends are at other colleges, and it sucks.





Eighteen: Who would you do anything for?

My bff cult.







Nineteen: Who is your hero?

Uh. My sister maber, she got away from the drama of my family, I envy that. She also pushes me to do stuff.







Twenty-one: American Pie or Superbad?

Superbad. American Pie annoys me.





Twenty-two:What's your biggest fear?

rats, shit, I hate rats. heights, like in air planes. Failure.







Twenty-four: Meet any new people this year?

Yeah a few.







Twenty-five: What did you do last night?

Heh, well I went to Walmart, oh yeah exciting, then home, sat on the net and then went to my room and drew for an hour, then watched a movie, then bed. Woo. exciting.







Twenty-six: What was the first thing you said this morning?

7:00...in five mins, I'll get up.....7:21...not a multiple of five...four mins...7:28.....two mins...shit.





Twenty-seven: Speak any other languages?

Kinda not really. I know how to greet in like five. and can kind have a convo in two.







Twenty-eight: What's your favorite smell?

Lavender. and forrest. and right before it rains smell.







Twenty-nine: Do you like to sleep?

I loveeee it.



Thirty: Have you ever been kissed in the rain?

oh blah.







Thirty-one: Do you like rain?

yeah.





Thirty-two: What are you thinking about right now?

these people that keep stalking the computers in the lab, like lions watching prey.



Thirty-three: What should you be doing right now?

drawing. eek.







Thirty-four: What was the best part about summer?

nothing. they should just drop that season.







Thirty-five What are you listening to?

typing. conversations about teachers.Someones dating some girl who sucks.





Thirty-seven: Who was the last person you yelled at?

my sister.





Thirty-eight: Who is your best friend?

there is a list.







Thirty-nine: Who was the last person to make you smile?

this default picture of this person on rave.





Forty: Plans for your next birthday?

I'm going to drink like a pirate.

torso pants.
16:30 Sep 17 2008
Times Read: 741

www.torsopants.com







ha.

Geez.
13:56 Sep 17 2008
Times Read: 744

I was on my way to school today, and even though i really dislike morning talk shows, they ruin my fung shway on my drives, anyway I was to lazy to change the channel.



They were talking shit on a guy, with the name Ernest Strickland (I'm related to him, i hope not anyway) He wrote in to a paper in a nearby city, reasons why people should vote for Mccain and not Obama. Of course it was all racist reasons. called Obama a child and if he was elected he'd put "dumb" black people in the goverment, and put pictures of Jesse Jackson and MLK all over america, and "take us white people's" freedom away.



seriously. I hear this all the time, from many people, granted I live in georgia, and 75% of people here are racist, but still it's ridiculous and sick.

Finale.
00:26 Sep 17 2008
Times Read: 749

I got approved. I got a card, I only have to pay like 15 bucks to see a doctor, which is hell of a lot better then paying 700.



I go back the 10th.



I'm so happy.





I'm ready to be done with this lard.







:D

not special.
16:52 Sep 15 2008
Times Read: 756

My sister and her girlfriend, go out every weekend with their friends, and karaoke. No i'm not lying, people actual do this, rountinely.It's odd, I think it's old people thing, or a white thing. or they go to the gay club. Anyway. I suggested we go to a club in atlanta.



and they looked at each other, and My sister said very snooty. We don't go to straight clubs. o0



wtf?



I was like just because your gay doesn't make you special. Your this generation's rebelion, the new trend, the ousiders, but that doesn't make you special. When you eventually get your rights back, you'll be yesterday's news. You'll be just like us, because despite the goverment's views, YOU ARE! Your just like fucking the same gender, you shouldn't think yourslef as special.



plus, most people that go to dance clubs are gay or don't give fuck that your are. How many straight men dance?



this made me start paying attention to their converstaion, and everything they talked was about being gay, and being special. "Oh this celebrity walked down the red carpet with their partner, they are gonna stir some trouble up" "everyones going gay since rosie came out"



they really said that...hahah.



and I noticed, most of their shirts are gay oriented, like "We recruite" "better the be hated for what you are then loved for who your not" in rainbow letters. "we are everywhere"



but. I tried to get through their heads, that just because your different, doesn't make special.



they don't get it. and when I try to talk to them, they feed their long rehearsed "it's different becuse you don't get looked at us they way people do us". i do, difference I don't careeeee.



I'm all for gay rights, I sign petitions, but their are gay people that don't liek the spoylight, and they want to get out of it, and I wonder what my sister will do when it's gone.

yay.
23:35 Sep 11 2008
Times Read: 759

I got accepted to Georgia Sate University.





wooo! Going back to the city.





...eek.



but I'll be free from stupid boring pike county.





*dances*



now I get to go through the fun student loans and dorm life.



:D

Stress.
22:17 Sep 08 2008
Times Read: 765

This semester/time period, is making me want to rip my hair out.



Days like these make me hate myself for ever dating that piece of shit.



I had a place to stay for free, enough money saved to get an apt/rent a room when I started back school, no stress, free food, I was confortable and balanced.



I traded it in for a shitty meaninglessrelationship, trying to pay bills so he has a place to stay with my part-time student job that barely gives me enough money for gas, I went back to the drama I got away from, to a house I hate, and for what. Bullshit.



Now I'm stuck here until January. With my school schedule being so crazy, it's cutting into my hours at work, so my paychecks are being stretched to pay bills and put gas in my car. I've tried to tell my sister that I can't afford paying three bills, plus gas to get to work and school with me only getting in 10 hours of work a week. She just ignores me, because that's just the bitch that she is.



So I have to plan my life around, the best way to get money so I don't have to hear her bitch.



Sometime in the next week I have to get to Grady, the only classes I could afford to skip are on friday, but friday is also the only day I can get a lot hours in at work.





:[



I'm so stupid.

ha.
17:15 Sep 08 2008
Times Read: 769

I'm am the master!
03:10 Sep 06 2008
Times Read: 774

kinda. I fixed my computer!



*dances*





I've been nagging Grady for information on what all I need to do to get an appointment. I got some of the paperwork from my school already and They said I needed some other things. See it's a program, from what my mom explained it, is for poor student with medical problems. And since my mom's insurence hates me and kicked me off and won't let me back on til maybe november or january (and they might let me back on at all) It's the only option I have other then going to a doctor and being in medical debt for life. lol. Hopefully I'll get it handled, and hopefully it's not cancer, or if it is, it's not bad.





on other news, I reallly like this Mercenary 2 commercial. lol.

eek.
20:47 Sep 03 2008
Times Read: 780






being in the south. kinda sucks. atm.