You spin me right round02:38 May 21 2006
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So my friday, was such a cool day. I went to school I did well on 2 of the 3 finals i took. Then I went to the senior picnic got to munch on awesome food and the leave early. Afterward, we went to a yard sale wheer I found the coolest record ever...
It's got a story book, sing a long and it tales the story so you dont have to read!
Today I went to ren fest, i'll post most of the picture in my portfolio. It was so fun, I actually had money this year to buy stuff..still not enough for clothes though. :[ But I got a new pentacle, a tarot necklace (the moon- Life of imagination) and...
*drool* This is by far my favorite painting ever, and when I saw it I almost fainted. they had a big painting but that was 500.00 dollars, so i got the smaller version.
It was a fun day.
It is if everyone dies alone.
04:34 May 14 2006
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I realized today, that life, is worthless. You go through life with a inner desire for something better, and you know, deep down within, what you choose to ignore, that you will never find it, but you keep on going. You smile, and you keep taking it. My whole life, is shit. Everyone in my life, my past, present and most likely future. They leave, they forget, they abandon, they stop caring, they become human voids to me. I use to picture, a murder coming into my room, and slaughtering me. I imagined, how'd they react, the ones that say they care.
I don't understand it. I try everyday, every minute, to be a good daughter, friend, girlfriend, sister, student. To be a good person. I try and hope that me trying will bring something good into my life. Why is life so hard, why do others get it easy. I want one good thing to happen and not turn bad in the end, just one. I'll keep this, and never complain again, if I could have that one thing. I fail at everything...school, relationships, my family, friendships. I'm never good enough for them, for no one, I fall short. I try, go, but things go wrong, there isn't enough paste to fix it all.
I watched Donnie Darko today, I love the movie. It holds truth. Everyone dies alone. You can try to be good, you can be rich, you can be famous, married and be in love..but in the end you are alone. I think everyone is alone, on the inside. We just lie to ourselves, detach from reality and tell ourselves we have others who care. But really, we don't..no one really cares, if it you was you or them, they'd pick them. No true sacrifices exist. Everyone is in it for their own. That is where sadness comes from, reality. If you live in you imagination, you never feel real things. I think my life is more livable that way.
- Lyrics-
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
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Concrete and water, she's looking for her daughter
At midnight in torrential downpour.
And everything I said about how messed your head is,
Was cut up and left in bits and pieces on the cutting room floor
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Lie to me, cry to me, give to me
I would
Lie with me, die with me, give to me
I would
Keep all your secrets wrapped in dead hair
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I can't go on, digging roses from you grave
To linger on, beyond the beyond
Where the willows weep
And whirlpools sleep, you'll find me
The coarse tide reflects sky
The stars under our feet, well it's the year to be hated.00:31 May 09 2006
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So I found out today in art, that the art show thingy is Saturday. I'm really excited, it's hard to think that my stuff is good enough for people to look at, makes me happy , like this :D. I've always loved art, and for my stuff to be in an art show is very satisfying.
Okay, this shows how much of an idiot I was to ever date my ex Josh. We broke up a year ago, blah blah I haven't talked to him in forever, nor do I want to talk to him. Because he is, was, always will be a...dickhead. I got on the internet today and he imed me...
Mr Cremate (5:18:58 PM): ahh your still alive
Petite Mortea18 (5:19:11 PM): of course
Mr Cremate (5:19:27 PM): hmm dunno if thats a pity or a pleasure
Petite Mortea18 (5:19:36 PM): :/
Petite Mortea18 (5:19:51 PM): ah still being an ass i see
Mr Cremate (5:20:12 PM): no, just honest
Petite Mortea18 (5:20:24 PM): yeah
Now really, wtf? Couldn't he just of saved that. That has no meaning, their was no reason for it. Just wanted to be a douche bag. Idiot.
We have senior week next week, which is a week we can dress up and are special and all. Well we got shitty days..
Monday-Hawiian day
Tuesday- Career day
Wedsnday- College day
Thursday- Pirate day (school mascot)
Friday- Senior tshirt day
Lame.
Two weeks to go. Oh no. Dance a lot, and watch the ink blots grow. This is my lil poem, notcha know. Giggity giggity and all that jazz. do a lil dance with my ass.
Oh i found out today, My friend Kenna REALLY is Mexican. Did not know that, i thought we were just joking. lol.
Repeat Repeat Repeat.
05:17 May 02 2006
Times Read: 751
Drink up, baby, stay up all night
the things you could do, you won't but you might
the potential you'll be that you'll never see
the promises you'll only make
drink up with me now and forget all about the pressure of days
do what i say and i'll make you okay and drive them away
the images stuck in your head
people you've been before that you don't want around anymore
that push and shove and won't bend to your will
i'll keep them still
drink up, baby, look at the stars, i'll kiss you again
between the bars where i'm seeing you
there with your hands in the air waiting to finally be caught
drink up one more time and i'll make you mine
keep you apart deep in my heart separate from the rest
where i like you the best
and keep the things you forgot
the people you've been before that you don't want around anymore
that push and shove and won't bend to your will
i'll keep them still
I really like this song on repeat.
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