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Friday Knight Fever
05:45 Mar 31 2006
Times Read: 687

So some how, some supernatural force, gave us a good show. It all came together, and it was awesome. I cant wait til tomorrow to do the last show. Wooo cast party tomorrow night.





P.s- If you have sent me a Msn, and I didnt answer, It was bc my sister left the internet on Xp. So dont think im rude, she isnt use to technology. Ttyl.

I dont want to grow up.
23:17 Mar 29 2006
Times Read: 691

My week has been so stressful. I guess because spring break is next week. We have had practice everyday from 6:30 and we dont leave til 10 or 11. that gives me two hours to do three class's homework, bc as soon as I get home I get my stuff together and go to bed. Grrr. Tomorrow and friday is the play, ahh. Craziness. Its going to bomb, I know it, people dont know there lines..lol.

Im also extremely confused on college, and the rest of my life. I have to decide what im doing after high school..soon. See on one hand, I could move to FL with my sister. Though applying for college fall semester is to late, i could work and get money saved for it. Also Id have to pay out-of-state tuition fees :/ and I'd be away from all the drama from home. But id be away from my close friends and where I grew up. Or stay here and go to college. But my sister Amanda is planning on moving out after house arrest meaning id probably have to either find somewhere to live or move with my mom. I have no idea what to do, and it sucks. I really just want to run away from it all, I dont want to grow up. Im hoping something will point what I should do..grrr.



I heard this quote today in literature...and I liked it a lot..

"I am certain of nothing but the holiness of the heart's affections and the truth of imagination. What the imagination seizes as beauty must be truth - whether it existed before or not. " - John Keats

Eyes are deceiving
04:10 Mar 27 2006
Times Read: 697

So my weekend was fun. Saturday was a blast though I didnt find anything, well I got a anti-Bush sticker. Clothing is so exspensive these days, sooner or later we'll just have to go naked. Hmm..pitty. Today I went to practice in costume XP I look like a man or really ugly. Oh well. I have practice evernight this week, so I might not be on very much. So sad, will you miss me? lol. Me and my sister play super model dress up..lol. Ill post them laterz.



I want a...

Oh dear:] Meooow. "Steeeelllaaa" Lol

Whisper me a lullaby
04:03 Mar 25 2006
Times Read: 701

I want to strap on my mary janes, curl up my hair, wear a cherry print dress..and do this...

Hmmmm..So my day was horrible until Art. I spent all of last night after play practice studying for trig and all my free time in class. Get the test and have a heart attack bc it looks nothing like I studied. I was so pissed, i hate how she does that, gives you stuff to study and then give you problems that dont resemble the study guide. Or maybe I just suck SO bad at math my brain cant tell whats what. *fustrated* grrr im not going to pass if i dont start passing test. But Art was cool, got to have a party bc we finishe dthe yearbook..yeahhh!

Tomorrow is going to make everything better, Im going with a few friends to Lil Five points which is this really cool strip with neato stores. maybe Ill find some clothes, even though shopping is a headache (closed spaces +a lot of people+ crap in the way of escaping= Danielle's angry face). But lil 5 is a ok place, plus afterward we might go to the asian resturant where the chop up the food on the big grills and go "hiiahh" throw knives! Wooo.

Ach das ist so lang her
23:22 Mar 22 2006
Times Read: 704










Nun liebe Kinder gebt fein acht

ich bin die Stimme aus dem Kissen

ich hab euch etwas mitgebracht

hab es aus meiner Brust gerissen



Mit diesem Herz hab ich die Macht

die Augenlider zu erpressen

ich singe bis der Tag erwacht

ein heller Schein am Firmament

Mein Herz brennt



Sie kommen zu euch in der Nacht

Dämonen Geister schwarze Feen

sie kriechen aus dem Kellerschacht

und werden unter euer Bettzeug sehen



Nun liebe Kinder gebt fein acht

ich bin die Stimme aus dem Kissen

ich hab euch etwas mitgebracht

ein heller Schein am Firmament

Mein Herz brennt



Sie kommen zu euch in der Nacht

und stehlen eure kleinen heißen Tränen

sie warten bis der Mond erwacht

und drücken sie in meine kalten Venen



Nun liebe Kinder gebt fein acht

ich bin die Stimme aus dem Kissen

ich singe bis der Tag erwacht

ein heller Schein am Firmament

Mein Herz brennt



-Ramms+ein-




Ich wünsche, daß ich wünsche



...Ich möchte komplett fühlen.

Insanity
03:21 Mar 22 2006
Times Read: 707

I hate drama, really...and being a girl it seems it is magnetic to me. Past couple of days Ive been getting shit from my friend's because I started hanging out with other people, other then them. I didnt think they'd care being that A) they never call to hand out and B) they have other friends too who they hang out with. But since I hang out with new people (who they dont like for dumb reasons) and dont drop my premade plans to go hang out with them I am "friend switcher" and stupid things like that. I really hope they are joking, but a part of me doesn't think they are.Sadly, it kinda hurts my feelings that theyd act like that, and put guilt trips on me. Im sick of following them and around and being the third wheel, and always asking them if they want to hang out. I dislike it that when I do go with them..I sit off in the corner bc they are to busy fighting amoung each other about somethimg childish. I love them all really, and I wish we could hang out more. But they need to make the effort, and start getting along together. I wish we could be lik ewe were when we were younger. *sigh* People...this is why I belong in my room cooped up in my bed with my books..in another world. Like I was when I was a kid.

*jumps off soap box*

Where was yesterday....
01:00 Mar 21 2006
Times Read: 710

I have this fear that I will lose all of my memory by the time im 25. I was driving to school today, and I realize Im half way to school....I dont remember turnung on the road or anything...I was driving down one road and 1o mins later Im in the town...scared me, makes me wonder if I was paying attention to the road since I dont remember driving down it. Ive noticed I have been forgetting a lot of things...like in mins of being told something I forget it. :[ Not good...hopefully its just stress.

I was so tired today, I even went to sleep lastnight before midnight and I was still tired. We didnt do much in my classes today, I went to a mouse's funeral..other then that my day was blah.

I am ordering my prom dress in a little bit...Im tryingto figure out what color. Lol..yeah..shut up.

Im so lame...omgz the wicked witch comes home tomorrow. XP

I shot the Sheriff.
17:31 Mar 19 2006
Times Read: 718

So lastnight I hung out with Marina, and we went to the movies, it was cool we saw Kenna and Kim there (wow!)..lol. I got me some bottlecaps candy that are so addicting.

We watched Ultraviolet...it was HORRIBLE! I was so disapointed by Mila, it was all eh..slow and all they talked slow and slow motion crazy..gahhhhh. Poo. I actually wanted to run out of the theater just to get away from the horribliness.



I was bored...look happy --->

I Think Roman Dirge and Jhonen Vaquez are geniuses.



Pow pow bang!

What a big heart I have, the better to love you with.
01:38 Mar 18 2006
Times Read: 725

I've decided I really like fairy tales, I realized this today as I listening to "Little Red Riding Hood" by Sam The Sham And The Pharaohs. I grew up tying ribbons in my hair and pretending to sleep and peeking out the corner of my eye to see if anything or anybody else noticed ( I think I was searching for the prince charming, he is very late), I watched Snow White constantly, and I've always liked reading folk tales. Yeah just thought I'd share...



So something strange happened, I was doing my laundry and I strated talking in my head..and I thought of this story..and I went back to my room and wrote it down...This what it was...

In the night of the brightest day,

Set out a maid on her way,

Where her destiny was sure to lay,

No one knew, No one would say.



Down drifted a spider to the hurried run,

"Little Mechanical girl, Where do you go?"

"Far, far away, to the sea of grey", she replied.

"And, what will you find, there in the sea of grey?"

"That is where lover, little one, is said to stay."



"Oh then hurry, hurry. Make thee not wait,

For if he waits to long, he will surely break."

"Bid you fare well, litlle spider of light,

May your webb be plenty and your victims be of taste."



Run, ran, little Mechanical did,

To where her heart would grow,

She came upon a thought of what to do, she thought of what to say?

"Oh dear me, Oh my. What if I do not please him to the eye?"



Through a meadow, did her bolts and bits cross,

Upon a fearie's ring, did she spring,

Out of the night, did a shide rise,

Startling and surprise.



"Little child of metal, no look will defeat the pulse,

He will love you no matter, even if you repulse"

"Oh shide of dark, merry meet you well,

May life be bountiful where ever you dwell"



Along she followed, to the high and above the low,

To the Silver shore, as she paced,

Her heart did murmur a fearful tale,

"Oh heart, please slow thy beat, for if not, I will surley fleet"



As she finished her plea, her eye did spot,

Off in the distance, a foggish blot.

"What could it be?", ponder Little Mechanical girl,

She walked toward, the still figure wrapping in smog,

As she came upon it closer, she felt her heart swell.



There on the shore, lie the fluttering soul of her one,

Her one to love, her one to hold,

She fell by his side, metal and all,

She tapped on his chest, and whispered

"Oh little heart, please hear me well, give me beat,

Maybe two or three would be swell."



No reply did come, and as the night

Masked a wail, only tears of three fail.

And as Little Mechanical girl rest upon the shore,

Her eyes fell shut, and she rusted up.



In the lowering night, all was quiet, all was still,

cast in a sky of black, two hearts did shine,

side by side, did they reside.



Scary, I never write stuff. Tada. I bougt my play costume, its so lame, compared to everybody else. I got bitched at the other night because I was playing around and dancing on th estage and the balding lady yelled "Danielle you are playing a nerd, you are not in character." What a bitch. Rawr.

A very Grr day.
23:40 Mar 14 2006
Times Read: 732

I went to bed lastnight hopeing my day would be an okey day. I had all my stuff together i set my alarm clock..etc. Then some crazy lady from florida calls at 12:30 asking for my mom (who yet again found an excuse to leave us at home by ourselves, aka my being a babysitter) and she would not shut up after I told her she was not there, i finally hung up on her and went to bed. So I wake up and its 7:27 and i usually leave at 7:30..my clock didnt go off for some reason. So i had to take a quick shower (which I hate) and drive fast to get to school before 8:15. Then school was just stressful bc i missed yesterday. I realized I planned my student council commitee meeting today and didnt tell my members..which ment I had to go talk to this teacher (who i didnt have this year, but did 9th-11th) who seems to always be bitch to me. Then in Trig I found out that same teacher told my friend's bf (one of the teachers faves) that she thought I was bi-sexual. lol. Her reasons why she thought this was because i wear rainbow (which is a weird bc i dont own rainbow things bc it gives me a headache) and in spanish 3 we studied spanish artist, she said i seemed very "interested" in Dali for being a gay artist. (the guy was a amazing artist and he made a clock symbolize women's privates, which i found funnt bc she said vagina in class) and lastly because i only talked to Kenna (one of my best friends) who she thought she was gay too becasue we only talked to each other in class. We only talked to each other bc everyone else in the class was assholes or ignored us (like she did)...And that is why she thought i was bisexual. Is that not horrible? That someone just assumes something like that for those reasons. Lame lol. I was mad, because she assumed that for the stupidest reasons. I'd undersatnd if hung all over a chicks, but becasue I liked Dali's artwork and thought it was ineteresting that he was gay (im a faghag, i cant help it), and my bestfriend is a girl. Oh dear, what a world. My day ended with my painting going wrong and having to stat all over...so grrrrr to today.

Poppies
03:35 Mar 14 2006
Times Read: 736


"oh lord I think she's dying"

I heard somebody say

I think she's dying

And "oh oh lord I think she's dying"



Or maybe she's already dead

And maybe she's gone to Mars

Maybe we could even write

Her epitaph in the stars"

-Marcy Playground



So we had to write out epitaph for British Literature because we are studying Romantic time period in there, and i guess they I did that kind of stuff. I suck at writing stuff but I thought I'd post it.



Remember me, when the dusks begins to fall,

and when the moon and sun share a sky,

Remember I loved you all,

Never question why.



Remember to dream and to dance,

never feel shame,

Take chances,

Do what feels right, be true, don’t be the same.



All we need to know or need lies within our Earth,

Remember our imperfections is what makes us human,

Remember we start to live when we began to feel and began to die from birth,

And in the end we are all equal again.



Lol..egghh, yeah i know. Um next week...the devil comes back home. Phoey



Yep, I know kung fu like no bodies business.

Saturday Night
21:00 Mar 12 2006
Times Read: 740

Yesterday I went and saw The Hills have eyes thinking it was going to be another shitty horror movie. But I was surprised it was actually good and really gorey. The plot sucked a bit, but they did an awesome job on gore and scary poping out shit. My mouth was opened most of the time going "oh my" and laughing. I want to see the the orginal version.

One thing that ruined the movie though was, the reason i dont like going to see movies in the theater, is because of rude people. First, all could hear in the begining was fatties smacking on popcorn and candy and slurping drinks...it echoed in my head. Grrr.Why can't people close their mouths when they eat... I hate the sound of people eating, a piece of me died. Then for the first thirty mins of the movie this women behind me decicdes to carry a phone conversation..for 30 mins..I hate people.

I went to the dollar store before the movies and found..my favorite candy as a kid.. Charleston Chews..so good. yum. :]

- Shaken baby Syndrome-
04:21 Mar 10 2006
Times Read: 746


" Bared on your tomb, I am a prayer for your loneliness and would you ever soon Come above unto me? For once upon a time, From the binds of your lowliness. I could always find

The right slot for your sacred key"







Tonight was fun, I went to play practice with Marina and it ended up getting canceled. So Marina, Kait and me all went out to eat and ended up talking for two hours about random things. It was interesting. Afterward we went on an adventure to this lake near Kait's house. It was so pretty outside because a strom was coming but it was still bright outside by the moonlight and windy. Oh how i love nature. :]

Hmm. My sister comes home on the 21st supposedly, ew.

I have an odd feeling inside me, I think im sick, maybe its cancer or some deadly disease. Haha. Oh dear. :/

I found out prom is next month, ewwww. I haven't bothered in getting a date. My friend Jared said he wants to go with me. Im not sure though, I'd rather go alone, then say both my junior and senior prom I went with gay guys. haha I dont know why I go, they dont play very good music and the people there are just gross looking. Like out of a cheap horror movie, the girls are all orange from their spray on tans and their faces are all disorted because their hair is so tight with bobby pins & hair spray, and they all have make-up like neon clowns.... then the guys all look like cheap pimps and walk with a strut because this is the one night they might actually get laid. Now i remember why I go, Muhaha *sigh*.







Bah bah bah, Bang baby your dead....Xp

+Just losen up that Noose now beauty+
01:26 Mar 09 2006
Times Read: 750

We start oil painting tomorrow, Im excited because its a challenge. I suck in the painting department, really. But doesn't hurt to try, im going to paint the cover of Anita Blake novel Bloody Bones

It will be a tuffy. lol, yes.

Speaking of Anita Blake, i went to get Micah today and they were sold out, :[. I might get it friday. Poo.




Lover lover let's pretend

We're born as innocents

Cast into the world

With apple eyes



To wish wish dangerous

My dear delirious

To try and leave

The rest of us behind



Shot full of diamonds

And a million years

The disappointed disappear

Like they were never here



Kiss kiss all of this

The hiss that we had miss

And understand what can't be understood



Sear those thoughts of me

Alone and unhappy

I never liked me anyway



If by chance

Or circumstance

We should fail

Don't be so sad



Shot full of diamonds

and a million years

The disappointed disappear

Like they were never here



In a dream

We are connected

Siamese twins

At the wrist



And then I knew we'd been forsaken

Expelled from paradise

I can't believe them

When they say that it's alright



Words can't define what I feel inside

Who needs them?

Caught with this virus of my mind

I give in to my disease, of my needs

To my disease, of my needs



She really loves to break

Her dad says its OK

She really loves to break

And give it all away



Her ma says she's afraid

What more can she fake

She really needs to break

And give herself away



She gave it all away

She gave it all away

She gave it all away

We really love the USA-Smashing Pumpkins









I feel like my life right now is in a rut, stagnated. I'm waiting for something exciting or good to happen, and if not....well poo.

+ Here's a lullaby to close your eyes+
00:44 Mar 06 2006
Times Read: 756


You lie silent there before me

your tears they mean nothing to me

the wind howling at the window

the love you never gave

I give to you



Really don't deserve it

but now there's nothing you can do

so sleep in your only memory of me

my dearest mother



Here's a lullaby to close your eyes good-bye

it was always you that I despised

I don't feel enough for you to cry oh well

here's a lullaby to close your eyes good-bye

goodbye

goodbye



So insignificant

sleeping dormant deep inside of me

are you hiding away lost

under the sewers

maybe flying high in the clouds

perhaps you're happy without me

so many seeds have been sown in the field

and who could sprout up so blessedly

if I had died

I would have never felt sad at all

you will not hear me say I'm sorry

where is the light

wonder if it's weeping somewhere



Here's a lullaby to close your eyes good-bye

it was always you that I despised

I don't feel enough for you to cry oh well

here's a lullaby to close your eyes good-bye

good-bye "





I love this song, it puts me in a place.



Im in a rumble with this coding on my profile. It won't obey me, no worries..soon I'll dominate it and will be at my mercy. lol.

My sister left this morning, hopefully everything will stay right. I have hope. :] I didn't get to go to the Helltrash show, my friend's mom wasn't letting her go to Atlanta and I wasn't driving there and back alone. Hmm. I was suppose to go see another show if I didnt go to Atlanta, and then stay at a friends but i didnt, I dont know why. Hmm silly me. I rented Corspe Bride it was okay, I liked the design of it and the music, they story was eh.

I made a Tank Girl stencil in Graphic Art. I get to make my t-shirt tomorrow. Its bad ass, it's her with a loillipop in her mouth and she looks really cool and its say's Tank girl. Ill post pictures of it later. Though, I found out no one knows what Tank Girl is, so deprived.

My mom is having to take everything off the phone line for my sister to come home from incarseration (sp? lol), so i'll be getting my own phone line but I dont know when. So I might be without the net for a few days, no one will miss me so tis cool.

Oh my. Tonight, tonight....
06:09 Mar 04 2006
Times Read: 760

So tonight we celebrated for Mal's 18th birthday party. We went to this "fun park" and bought wrist bands. It was really cold and i for got my jacket like dumb ass. I lost horribly at go karts bc I always get the one that breaks down..or maybe i its becasue it took me forever to get the damn thing to go. (driving in a itty bitty kart with five inch platforms is tricky) Then we played laser tag (I was Cadet Bondage Betty), and I was put on this team of strangers that kept being assholes to me. So I just danced to the cool music and shot at them. Muhaha, trader to them I am. Yeah. We played put-put which I could of won but we ended up just running around and beating each other with the sticks and other obscene things. Then we went to the arcade, were i attempted to play DDR...me and Ben played and we won one and then lost. :[ It was a good night, their was only alittle bit of fighting but we were leaving so it didn't spoil anything.

Im watching Battle Royale 2, its good, but the first one was soooo much better, but this one has gore so I like, bc gore is nice. I want a sliver neckalce like the movie has though.

Tomorrow Im might be going to the Helltrash show. *dances*

+ Glitter on the mattress+
02:04 Mar 03 2006
Times Read: 764

Well first off I wan to give a big THANK YOU to LadyLamia for giving me her PM she earned in the 1ooo favor contest in the house, I greatly aprreciated it.

My sister is here and she has made me feel alot better. She has opened my eyes to reality and now I have to decide what to do. I might be moving out after graduation to Florida with her and go to college down there. Thing is i have friends here, amazing friends. People I love, i'd feel so selfish if i left them. Ive been through so much with them, but if i stay here...I'll crumble.Hmm...Ill think about that another day.

I finally got a b52s cd. "bum bum good stuff baby' *wink*

Crazy Times.
01:28 Mar 01 2006
Times Read: 708

My friend lent me SLC PUNK!, I havn't seen in so long..good times.

"Satan is in the house. He killed my mom... and turned her into a bull."










My sister is coming from Florida. Its the best news I've heard all week. She will make everything right, or at least thats what Im hoping for, better days.

I can't wait for this weekend, Im going to th eHelltrash concert and we are celebrating Mal's 18th birthday. Im going to party my ass off. Forget everything thats happening and enjoy. Really take it all in.*big Smile*