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So I just took my final for Astronomy.



I'm pretty sure I failed that class. I haven't passed anything.



Which makes me sad. Because i hate failing. First college class to fail. shittttt. My mom is goingto kill me. She's going to blame it on me being with Randy. and give me a lecture on how I'm turning into my sisters.



shit.



shiit.



Microecon is friday. That's not looking to bright either.







tears.

I havent been "home" in four days, and I'm about to leave again for the night. Eek. I'm walking a thin line. I love the Browns to death. I just i dunno, like being out.



blah.



anyway Friday went and saw rhps at my school at midnight. Dressed up, time warped like crazy. The acting wasnt that great, the only characters that were into it was Frankfurter and Rocky.



blah.



I've been productive though, Ive finished my astronomy homework, read most of the chapters for the test Friday, worked on my oral stuff and drawn out my final art project sketch. I'm pretty proud that I'm not slacking so much.



woot.





also i sent my email for my final payment. Wooo Nawlins timeeeee!

in four months



Ill be 2o





omfg.



ahhh.





also Rocky Horror tonight, Mmmm sexy.



also, I got a sweet offer. I baby pug for only 2oo bucks through a friend that usually sells them at 5oo.



shit.





also. gasp. I might go back to my sisters, only because Randy will be living there too.



confusing.



I found out kait is worried what im doing with my life, obviously watching movies and hiking and shit is a turn for teh worst.



gahh

So I'm still unsure what i did wrong, but now it's not just Kait that "dislikes" me as she put it, I think it's the whole family.





it's so cold there. I feel so uncomfortable. They don't talk to me anymore, and they kinda ignore my existance. When the do talk to me, it's not like it use to be.



it hurts and kind of pisses me off.



If i was out doing drugs or orgies or robbing shit I see where I was bad. But I honestly go over to either Randy's, or my sisters or hang out with the crew, and do normal stuff like watch tv and shit. It's like because Im not there, sitting looking bored there, and I'm out and about i'm horrid.



Yeah I'm gone for three or four days, I don't come home til late. but I've always lived like that. My mom never asked what i was doing, because she knew Im not an idiot. I even told them that, "it'll be like i'm not even living here."



kait told me the first time she got mad was because iwas giving all my time to randy. I'm not like that, if she wanted to do something with I'd do it. Everytime I ask her to go do something she tells me Im crazy for asking and leave her alone. So, sorry if I gave up and started hanging out with people who like to do more then sit.



all this crap has happened with in weeks. lame.



ughh I need to find an apartment. and another job because UGA won't give me more then 19 hours.

bahh. I got something good to rant on and something shitty to rant on.



good rant, I in fact, got to, play, with, a, PUG!





hell yes I did! At the mall. Sooo cute. I almost had a cute overload. I considered the thought of stuffing him in my purse and running. But I didn't. I have a video, I'll post it later.





shit stuff. In a normal relationship, there is two humans. And those two, decide what goes on in the relationship, what's cool, what's not cool. My sister, does not understand this fact, and is causing me problems. Just because in her relationship, her person can't associate with anyone. Meaning no friends. Because she'll automatically assume they are cheating, does not mean you tell my boyfriend he can't have friends. Because I don't care if he does, in fact I think it's needed.



and also, I believe Kait seriously hates me now. I'm not sure, but I'm pretty postive. I said hey to her at school today and she gave me an evil glare, and when I walked over to talk to her she stormed off. So fuck.



I don't know what to do. If I want to be happy, people are going to be pissed at me. If I want to make them not pissed at me, i'll be sad.



fuck fuck fuck.



I have no idea what to do.



Is it worth it. I feel like it is. But I just wish I can.."have my cake and eat it too". Have Randy, and keep my friends and family, everything being groovy.



that's what I want. Question is why can't I have it.

i'm watching Vh1



and the B52's have a new video, and I believe it's new..it's really fancy. Funplex is the song.





holy shit, a comeback??? A tour? :DD



"I'm at the mall on a diet pill"

Friday we went to the art show. A very odd experience. It really was full of snooty rich folks. i only wanted to see my artwork thing in a little frame on the wall with my name. and I did, and they spelled my name wrong. :[ haha. so much for that.





Saturday, didn't do much, bought the issues of anita blake comic I haven't read yet. It's so good. Because it hasn't turned into crap yet.



sunday, had to play jester to my family. My extended family. the ones I only see for funerals or birthday parties (it was coda's birthday thing) I know they secretly hate us, and think very less of use considering that we are poor and not as well of as them. So it's a constant judge session. Blahh. My cousin is cool though, I finally got to see her babeh. It was actually cute looking.



I really enjoy being around Randy. Kaitlin says I'm spending too much time with him, but it just doesn't seem enough. Man i'm creepy. It's an odd feeling of sadness when i'm away from him.





blahhhh.



the only bad thing that happened this weekend, was the annoying texting from my ex. I simply told him to forget I exist and that I had moved on and he was being very disrespectful to me, my boyfriend and his girlfriend. He replied with some bullshit emo crap. Ass face.



i'm sooo glad i got a new phone number.

I told kenna yesterday that i wasn't going to UWGA. Instead i was going go ahead and get my associates next semester and figure out what to do after that.





and she replied to me basically saying that she didn't think I'd go there now, since I have a boyfriend here.



seriously. What the fuck. I've been thinking about this before i even applied, and when I found out I couldn't live with them, i really started debating it. She even asked me when I applied, "your not just coming here to be around us?" and I lied, and told her no.



but still. I'm not a douche bag. I've been dating him for like a week, why would I do something dramatic like that on that subject. Yeah I like him a lot, but I could still date him if I went there.



I can't believe she'd say shit like that. ouch.

I feel sick.



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why my portfolio be deleted.





damness.



i just finished adding all that crap like a week ago.



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