The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

My intentions weren't to play games

I never meant to hurt you

I was the one to blame

There's nothing I could say or even do

To make things okay

To prove how much I love you

It was I was held the shame

I needed you to stay strong

My love is sincere and my heart is true

I'll never leave you alone here

Trust in me as you always have

Because I want to take care of you

Let go of all the hurt and everything bad

I swear i am only here to give myself to you

Crouching there is my child

Scarred bruised inside

in an empire of pain

It hurts, it makes her cry

No one cares about her

So she continues to hide

Demons are there for her to share her innocence

Sacred friends in which she can confide

The darkness around her

Swallows her whole

She is taken away from her God

and taught to be cold

Her eyes tell her story

Secretly she wishes to die

Inside the darkness she shall dwell

Her body withering in fire

My child, my scarred little one inside

I was your woman

When you held me last night

I was everything you needed

Everything you desired

I was the one who loved you

When no one else would

I was the one who helped you

When no one else would

I was the one who stayed strongfor us

My love was what made you feel safe

I was the one who prayed for us

but I was the one who paid

I was the one who wanted to die

When you said fuck me

I was the one who cried

When you ignored my pleas

I was you woman

That is true

I was your wife

and I still love you

My twisted sickness has me

Enveloped in a world of despair

I hear voices in my mind

And they're gaining control

I'm feeling dangerous and deadly

My heart turning into a black whole

The abyss in my head is a maze

Deep enough to fall through and

never return again

The rooms are getting smaller and

I can't breath

Reality is leaving me

There's no soul of a saint just the

cry of a girl weak

A beast has overtaken me

Bloody thoughts in my mind

Theres no where for you to hide

Run bitch run

I'll burn you alive

Don't touch me my disease is contagious

I'll spread it thoughout the world

Making them all insane

Fuck you, why would you care?

When I get loose from my chamber

You better beware



© 2006

I'm not believing

what I am seeing

The love leaving

the fights

the screaming

I've been denying

the fear in me writhing

the sounds of you crying

our arguments

the words of "I don't love you"

binding

There's only you

me holding you

kissing you

breathing in you

growing old with you

I'm not believing

what I'm seeing

you with your bags leaving

me in the dark dreaming

of you and I never being





© 2006

These feelings

in my heart

in my soul

Tear me down inside

These feelings

in my mind

in my head

Makes it hard to try

These feelings

in my thoughts

in these words

Are something i can't hide

These feelings

that i feel

hurt me

and break down my pride

These feelings

of you leaving

are in my heart

and in my soul

they are killing me inside



© 2005

I fell away from you

and I need to find my way back

I need what you give

the love, abuse, and pain

My addictionfeels so wrong

but I don't care what people say

You make me whole

You make me feel alive

I was dead inside before you came

and without you all I do is cry

You pacify my insanity with comfort and recognition

This love is my obsession

My dreams are filled with the times that you touched me inside so deeply

fear grows inside of me when I notice you not returning to me

I am filled with rage and violence

I yearn for you to fuck me,

to dominate me, to be inside my head

I'll find you because you can't escape me



© 2007

I loved you

No matter what you did

I admired you

It didn't matter what you said

I adored you

when you didn't love me

I made excuses for you

when you threw me out in the street

I cried for you

Even though you didn't want me

I prayed for you

when your body was weak

I gave to you

and you never said thanks

I starved for you

because I knew I'd be okay

I thought for you

when you were too childish to think for yourself

I did for you

when you knew you had no one left

I was hit by you

and I blamed it on myself

I was cursed at by you

and it only made me feel less

I never thought bad of you

when you kicked and punched me

I didn't tell on you

Even though I knew you hated me

I stood tall for you

when you were to cowardly to speak

I sold my body for you

so you could eat

I understood you

and covered up the hurt I felt

I didn't look down on you

when you said it was okay that he touched me

I praised you

and I never felt ashamed

I fought for you

when i had nothing left to gain

I waited on you

but you still wouldn't love me

I'm scarred by you

and I blame you for my insanity



© 2006

She holds apart of me

that I never share with another

She is the air that I breathe

there is no one above her

She holds me within her grasp

my master, my lover, my surrender

She gives the gift of death

everytime her fingers enter me

She kisses my skin

and leaves me bleeding

She possesses my mind

and all that I am dreaming

She is all that I am

And everything I hope to be

She is the love of my life

and death's beauty



© 2006