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Things i have seen in this world have had their effect on me no longer how long you have been alive somethings stick with you like death during the black plague. Every night seeing friends killed in front of me dying for no reason other then walking down the wrong street or wearing the wrong color. Getting jumped because of nothing more then size or color. People think the darkness is their ally, you people merely adopted the dark. i was born in it, molded by it. I didn't see the light untill i was already a man, and by then i was nothing to me but blinding piercing pain. the shadow betray you, because they belong to me they are me.

I spend my days tired i spend my night sleepless i have ones i love and they know my pain they know my hell. But at the same time they only know the stories now the true feeling of being there that is the hardest part some times. Having to walk around looking over my shoulders every few seconds sitting in public places with my back to the wall so that no one can catch me off guard. Sleeping with a blade under my pillow so no one can rip me out of my own bed again.

my life is a constant battle and all i want is at least one day of peace but the demons in me wont leave me be. That is why instead of trying to silence them i let them speak i let them instruct i let them show me how to be a better beast a better hunter. I took what held me back i took the chains of fear and thew them into the foundry and forged a mighty weapon that not even pure fear can break this is my story, may it be a lesson to you. If there is something that holds you back if there is a darkness that you fear from and event that you wish to forget i say embrace it and then use it. I'm not saying that i'm 100 percent i still have nightmares but it dont rule my life no more.