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I got up on Christmas eve and had to come to work. The good thing was I got to talk to Adam and Neal. :) I got home, we did presents and then I started feeling bad and went to bed. I got up Christmas Morining and felt like Shit. My head was pounding, my throat hurt...I couldn't wake up..

I got up, ate breakfast...blah blah...then I went back to sleep. I slept watching "The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy." "Ford." "Yes" "I think I'm a sofa". "I know how ya feel"...(Sorry had to put that here)

I got up about 4 pm and ate Christmas dinner. It was good. I love my mom's ham. Then, I fed the cats and went back to bed.

I got up on Monday and had to clean the house. My grandma, Aunt Cindy, Ryan and Beth all came up from Flordia for the week. :) I took Beth over to see the horses...cause she loves Goldie. When we got there, I noticed that Lillith was limping and dragging her front hoof reallly bad. I looked at her leg and found a puncture wound. It was really icky. Her whole leg was infected and swollen. I got the vet out and found out that her leg was infected. IT had been hurt for over a week...We are keeping our fingers crossed that my young filly will be okay. She is one of my pride and joys.

It was funny, though. The vet had to sedate her to make a drainage hole so that her leg can possibily keep the fluid and pressure off of the joint of her knee. But when they sedated her, she started to sag. IT took me, Jane, Candas and the vet's helper to keep the horse standing and from collapsing on the vet. I got covered in LIlly Drool...ewww...but at least she is alright. I was afraid that I was going to have to say goodbye to something that I gave my heart too. Those big eyes will just take ur heart.

Mom and I had to go out yesterday...I got home and had to help clean house. Then We opened the windows and didn't notice that one of the screens was missing so Priss got loose. I started FREAKING OUT!!! that cat is like my soul...love her to death. I went out and started looking for her and fed the other cats. I went around back and found oreo "sleeping". I picked him up and was going to take him to dinner when I felt something warm and wet falling down my shirt. I looked down and was covered in his blood. I set him down and looked at him and relized that his eyes were white and that there were fang marks on his body.

The dogs had killed him. My dad got home and put him in a dog food bag. I started screaming at him. Oreo is to be buried today in the cat cemetary behind my house. *cries*

he was only 3 yrs old...why did the dogs kill him..????

I got off of work last night. Decided to go home. Ryan came by and seen me for a few.

I got off at 9:30. Hurt my knee...now its all purple...ouchie...

I walked outside with James like i do most of the time. said goodnight. Got in my car, freezing, adn started home. I get about 15 mins from home and my brakes go out, my steering locks up, and my car overheats. I have to coast into the gas station and start looking for change. I call home. It takes them 3 times to answer the phone. I'm so freaking cold. I was in a tank top and a suit. COLD. Jimmy comes to get me and starts yelling at me. FUCK HIM..I"m ready to damn him to the abyss. grr. He had told me he would look at my car...guess what...he forgot and went to go work on his friend's car...so i got stranded. the stupid fucker...he is one of the reasons i think all men should be abolished. SO he yells at me because he forgot. I get home...had to leave my car there. I had to work today...so mom had to leave work 3 hrs early. I had to take her car to work. Come to find out every single belt on the engine busted at the same time...grr...I just want to scream...At least Ryan came to see me today...at least I can play like i'm happy.

grr...okay..i'm really depressed and upset...i'm not sleeping...i'm not eating anything really...i've gone pale...it really sucks

now jimmy and i are fighting...mom doesn't know what in the hell to do...I am really going to look at moving out sooner than planned now that my beloved horses are at stake. I wil lnot loose them. I am ready to kill Jimmy, It is taking all that i have not to. Then Nikki brought Brian by...thats all i wanted to see is someone else happy with my ex...yeah right..some one shoot me now so i don't do it myself

I have not had a good night sleep in a while. I have been having troubled dreams. I think my mom will be leaving me soon.

The other day we are out shopping and she stops and looks at me. "Chanelle, when I die will you come visit me? Where should I be buried?" I looked at her and shrugged it off.

Then the next time we went out, "Chanelle, my dad died of a heart ache when he was this age. I am feeling old. (she's only 43) This line, here says that I will have a heart attack.

So the last few nights I have woke up crying. I have been having nightmares of my mother dying, going on a trip and leaving me, or hurting me. I have woke up with tears running down my face. For those of you that read this and know me, I don't cry. In my book that is a sign of weakness.

I am worried about my mom. I love her very much. What am I going to do?

Work has been busy busy. I'm on my 8th day straight...i'm sooo tired.. I am starting to get a stress and fatique headache. Hopefully I can get some sleep on my day off Friday.

Amy is coming here soon. She's spending a while with me. *dances* yay!!!!

My friend Eric got me my Christmas present. It awsomessss. Its a hat that is a kitty cat. It has ears, whiskers, eyes a nose and a mouth. Its the little kittie from Trigun. YAY. He also gave me a Spike and Julia collectors action figures, from Cowboy Beebop...:)) I'm happy

Went and spent time with Jane yesterday. She turned 62 yesterday and is healing well from her sugery. Hope we can go horse back riding again soon.

I got Lillie's messurments yesterday. She is 850lbs and 13.2 hands high. She's too tiny to be a horse. She's a pony....lol

Met a really nice guy. He is turning 23 tomorrow. I think we are going to a movie on Friday. He is in the airforce. He moved here from Cali. He's come up and visited me at work a few times now. I didn't even know he was coming. THat is soo sweet. :))

Grandma, Beth, Ryan, and Aunt Cindy are coming here for Christmas. SO with me, amy and my parents that will be a full trailer. :))

Priss is doing good. Pippin is rotten....lol

Louie has tried to knock over the tree and wally has been sleeping under the tree.

I got myself a gift. Got me a Gameboy Ds. Its cute. :))

Till more to write or say.

laterz

Okay...yesterday i had to go have a molar pulled...it hurts so bad right now....OWWW!!

When the dentist was done he said "uh oh"....not something u want to hear...he fractured/splinter my jawbone....so it will take like 2-3 months for it to heal. I have been bleeding for 2 days now...I woke up and was spitting blood. I acidentaly took the blood clot out of the wound in my sleep.

Did i say that it hurts??? Yes...well this is a reminder OOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay...I have someone trying to "hook" me up with one of their friends since i won't go out with themmm...lol...I talked to him on the phone like 2 hours today...seems like a really nice guy...His name is Jeff...26 years old, in the military, the airforce..

Seems really cool..then i found out that he has a 3 year old daughter, Jordan...

Well...this morning sucked...i woke up listening to my parents yelling at each other again...I swear if i hear the word divorce one more time i'll go get the fucking papers.

Lilly learned how to open the latch on the gate...so yesterday morning i had to get up cause my horses let themselves out...

Lady ran away...:(

Met a cutie at the house the other day. ONe of my mom's friends' brothers...lol

His name was Nick..he came inside and we talked for a while...he was the only one sober, other than myself

Trying to think of what to do for my b-day...grr..

It sucks i can't even afford gifts for my family for chrristmas...

Went to the movies with Nikki, Nina...we went and watched YOurs, Mine and ours...

Really cute...made me want to cuddle...lol

Oh well...i'm at work g2g so i don't get in trouble ...laterz