A hard, frozen exterior
But no one can see
The hidden flame burning brightly inside
Outside she is calm, perfect, flawless in everyway
But nobody ever sees
She is so badly scarred inside
Her heart has been torn to pieces
Patched and torn again
Her lungs have collapsed so many times
It takes her every ounce of strength to breath in again
She’s lost in a torrent of darkness
But nobody can see
The shadow of despair
Black as her hair
That steals what’s left of her light
The light that used to shine so bright
The light that is nothing but a dim glow
In the darkness that is her soul.
So haunted I am by my eternal fears
The gooseflesh rises and I’m flooded by tears
I seek to end this, I seek to die
A river of blood that never runs dry
Once I sat there, all pretty in pink
But then I discovered the missing link
A little girl grows to discover
That god and the devil are merely a cover
A lie told to save the world
To keep little girls from becoming whores.
I am so lonely
I want to cry
But I can’t even try
You’re so close to me
But you feel so distant
I don’t understand
What I am anymore
I’ve fallen in love with you
Yes, it’s true
But it will never be
You are not mine
And I will never find
My small chance of peace
Does she see you?
The real you?
Or does she see the pretend you?
These tears pour down my cheeks
How can I ever stem the flow?
I have no strength left
I’m drawing in my last breath
And as I let it out
You will hear my last words
“I love you.”
Smokey green
Lost at sea
Drowning deep
In misery
Start to fall
Lose it all
Don’t hold your breath
There’s nothing left
Do you see how you drive me to this
To this self hatred
Because you cannot accept what I want to be
So I hate the thing that I am.
My room was once my haven
Now it is a prison
Filled with the lies and loneliness
That I will never let you see
Poisoned grief,
A child made out of hate
Poisoned grief,
A child made out of pain
Don’t look so surprised when I tell you this
This is what you made me be
A child dressed in darkness and nothingness
Afraid to let anyone in
Because they might see what I really am
A monster pretending
That everything’s all fucking right
Oh, poisoned grief,
Will you ever let me be?
Oh, poisoned grief,
How can I live without you?
No love for me
Keep the world away
Hide deep in shadows
The truth to disappear
Oh, poisoned grief,
Will you ever let me be?
Oh, poisoned grief,
How can I live without you?
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