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On this day, I get to be afraid. I get to be selfish, and I get to think beyond tomorrow.

On this day I have woken up, stepped outside my door, and went through my actions.

On this day I inhaled and exhaled regularly, showed my mask, and played the actress.

On this day I was... as ever other day I have been.

Twenty Four hours of routine scheduling, of making other believe I am okay

But soon it shall not be as such.

Soon my world will crumble, and I will forget how to walk

I will forget how to breath, to sleep, and my mask will break.

On that day... I will no longer exist.

Everything I do brings me closer to a single day.

Where everything I know and cherish will be taken away.

And There is nothing I can do about it.

On that day, salvation will be lost and Karma will rear its ugly head.



But where will I be?

Time is an un-hindering force from which our lives are built around

yet I will be freed from its loop, I will no longer be bound by the hours.

I will be free...



Within me I beg for freedom to stay away, and yet every action I take moves me towards it

I do not want this

I do not want any of this

I want you to stay...

Selfish greed pulses within and yet it is tamed by duty and love

Please do not leave... but I will help you to go.

Forever trapped within this nightmarish conflict

My heart will beat for naught but you.



I will not fail you

On this day... I will fight for you

On this day... I will help you through

And on that day... I will pour my soul along your ashes

And continue on until my last breath.

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Bellanova333
18:44 Apr 16 2011

truly beautiful display of thoughts and feelings

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Anzu
06:37 Apr 24 2011

Thank you truly :-)

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