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Alone and caged inside my head

All alone and out of reach.

From everything around me I seek something

While contemplating my thoughts.





The memories so bare and, unseen from inside the unseen

No one can feel this, the way I do.. 

Or see or hear, what's inside my head.



My bitter sweet memory; Taunting me from my own mind

Caged inside my lonely head.



I once had happy dreams and memories Now, I'm in agony from the dreaded thoughts inside my Mind.

No happy memory now lingers.



Only the memories that cause pain and suffering.



If only you knew how this feels.

If only you could see my fate.



I am here for eternity to not die or live but to be here with out an

Existence of life.





I am stuck here to suffer my on agony and pain for decades to come.



No love here, just a bitter sweet feelings, of my thoughts in my head surrounding me.



My own Bitter Sweet Memories.

Blue teardrops., run down her face..

Red teardrops., likes to follow her to sleep.



She dreams of the day she will be free..

From sorrow and the pain she cries away.



She tries very hard to make it disappear.

All the more she tries; her pain starts to fly in the millions of

Emotions.



Here comes fear, causing her tears to leak out red from her

Sorrow bleeding face.

Making her hurt with more pain!!

She begs, pleads and cries till her tears go white.



All she wants is forgiveness and to feel alive.

She wants to beloved and longs to be wanted.

The scars begin to show the pain in her life.



This mistreated, bleeding heart of hers begins to brake down and

cries.



The pain and sorrow never cease to give her a break.

It breaks her down to the ground constantly.



Just by allowing the pain to keep her in tears as her agony draws near, clear tears begins to fall for the first time.



This pain she couldn't bare begins to drift away.

As she lays in her grief she swallows down her fear.



As she lays down., the tears start to dry down her swollen

Sweet face.





Relieving her from everything that has caused her pain.

Memories start to subside causing her to awake from everything

Inside herself.



Now she is alive and loved no longer cries to be wanted.

Her tears became white and dried.

As her love begins to fly.

I shall; not want a love better then he.



I shall not dwell upon thee.



Oh the song he plays and thy love he brings.



As the red tulip petals fall from the stem the ever lasting love it

Gives to the ground.



She will be brought in peace for it is eternal.

That then shall be brought upon the inner flames of life.

Beyond the Meadow of Doubt.

There was a girl with a crooked Smile.

Who lived with regret, that tugged at her skin.



She Dreamed of the day, she would be free;

From all the loneliness in her heart, and the disease of a world

She grew to know.



Soon she left the world above to come down to the unknown.



She was raised by wolves and grew to be strong.

She values her life like a sharp edged sword.,

That pierce the skin and cuts deep within.



She opens her wings, and begins to fly in the unknown of

Magical things.



She knows no shame of what she's become.

She lives no lie, or torment of disguise.



She breaks from her grip and releases all her despair of

Loneliness and lies.



From all the sinful creation of a dreaded place.

All the emotions she feels from the human race is now gone.

She doesn't have to hear all the negative things or see all the hate.



She tried to look at the good but slipped away and seen all the

Pain.



From this beautiful world she once knew. Is now

Corrupted to the core.



She dreamed of disappearing into the unknown of life.

The girl with the crooked smile is now brave.



With no care of what that world grew to be.

She made her own world with the power of words and dreams.



She's in the land of magical things of beautiful amazing dreams.

The Angel of Death Turned into the Angel of Life.



She sees the wind Blow to the East to the Mountains of Ease.

She whispers to the breeze, and signals them to rest in the

Valley of Peace.



She is alive and away from her world to come to a foreign land of

Dreams.



She runs in silence and spins in glory.

The girl with a crooked smile isn't crooked anymore.



She's now full of beauty.

With no signs of doubt or regrets what she is.



She feels No hate, regret, pride, envy, gluttony or greed, lust, and

Any signs Of human emotions and disease of corruption she

Feels

Complete.

She can feel and has emotions but not In the way Humans do.



She's the girl with the upside down smile that came to be the the

Angel of peace.