Ummm.....Am I being punished? Darlin....You've gotta do better then that.
Show me what you got....And I'll tell you if You're worth it.
Or maybe....You'd like me to bend over ~Bends over and rubs my ass~ And let you give me a much needed spanking?
All I wanted was friendship....So I let down my walls and opened my heart.
And in return I'm made to feel as tho I was the one that set this trainwreck into motion.
My heart is closed and my walls are being rebuilt.
And when you feel a cold breath of air touch your cheek....Know thats its me.
Last night was a hard night for me. When I finally went to bed all I did was lay awake thinking about my Mom. Her death and the guilt I still feel. Lots of tears later I guess I drifted off to sleep.
And I dreamed of her. But it wasn't what you would expect.
She was healthy and glowing with life. We talked and she told me she was happy. Her and Dad were happy.
I knew she was dead in my dream.....But we sat there and talked. And I hugged her....She felt so...right. I felt alright....I had her in my arms again and heard her voice again. And she was happy. She made me ok.
If that makes any sense.
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it was your way of some what getting closure.even if it was in your dreams..that was your mom coming to you to let you know she is happy ..she is with your dad and she doesn't want you to feel guilty anymore.
Your using our friendship in a way thats making me feel.....uneasy.
But how can I tell you that? How can I make you understand that You don't have the right to do what you do?
I don't want anything to come between us...But your making it hard for me to be around you.
I can't tell you this to your face. Because I don't want you to confront me on it. I don't want the fight or the hard feelings.
But will you know if this is for you? I don't know...But I had to get it off my chest.
Please stop touching me. Or I'll no longer be anything but someone you Used to know here.
I'm not your toy..
I'm not Your game.
And if I turn away from you.
Then You're the blame.
I try so hard.
To be the thing.
You seem to want or need.
But I just can't.
I'm just me.
Love me...Hate me.
There's no inbetween.
Either way I'll find the peace.
That I need.
With or without You.
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nope,your not a toy or a game for anyone to play with
your a very beautiful loving lady.
if someone causes you to turn away
than they deserve to feel awful about themselves
everything about you is amazing and you make the people your around feel great too.
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