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You claim I do not know real pain

I can simply stop and push it away

You dont feel these tears of acid

Never stopping, running rapid

I long to strip this body, let my soul fly free

My veins grow cold, supporting a burden so heavy

I desire to leave this place

Go where no one knows this face

Who will not remember my past

Who simply accept me as an outcast

No more secrets behind my back

Just my black heart and my black bag

Leaving this pit of Hell

So into the night I sail

Searching for you to take me in

To comfort this torment burning within

Yes i can feel the rain

wash away all my pain

drain, clense, sane this soul of mine

if you can find

thru all this darkness in my mind

thunder rolling in

take my sin

begin the storm

form a new body nothin is torn

anymore a new door

forget the past

only today it will last

contrast with lightening

feel the blast?

thru your heart

ripping you apart

to start this new begin

moved by the wind

send me shaking to the ground

everything moving all around

down flows the shame

this wild heart you tame

came into my life

pushing away all my strife

make this wrong right

fight no more you can win

if you promise to take me in

runnin no more i will stay

all this hurt can you take away?

today? tomorrow it'll return

thru my veins it will burn

learn to submit

learn to take orders

build again those same old borders

protecting my heart from

the evil in the dark

bite worse than the bark?

yes i have its mark

shh calm down you're leaving me

turn this nightmare into a dream

see the blue flower?

how the dark devours

crushing the pale with its dark powers

however you arent there

shadows coming near

again i am what they tear

fear not no more

i'll open up my door

sure i welcome it

from my body it bit

in my grave i lay hit

quit i do

i am not new

who would believe that lie?

i do not even try

just wait here for my time to die

You speak of the flower so pale, so blue

but it has thorns, sharp edges, oh! if u only knew

How many storms this little flower has taken

How many times she cried for her heart was breaking

How many times she rejected that feeling so warm

Because the many times she accepted, her soul was torn



Yes it looks so soft and your heart aches to feel

You fingers brush the petals your arm feels the chill

she warned you to step away but another step you took

she covers her heart you pull away those hands and take a deeper look

Inside is blackness, everythings dead with decay

you see why those tears fall hard everyday



she's been cut, slapped, bitched at, and lied to

but she just sits there, hopeless, nothing she can do

you ask her what you can do, anything she desires

she pulls you closer, her eyes are blazing with fire

kisses you gently says "just do me one favor,

protect and hold me" you soul longs to save her



softly, those lips, you return the kiss

make up smeared in an instance of bliss

you hold your flower so pale so blue

you whisper her a promise "nothing will hurt you"

she kisses you again while you lead her by the arm

into the beautiful blackness where she'll feel no harm

I walk this world with a black stained doom

It weighs upon me, it's there when i'm alone in a room

It throws destruction and troubles in my way

It licks my lips and claws my back everyday

This creature, this Thing stalking after me

He whispers thoughts of suicide with glee

These things sound so nice coming from him

So appealing and pleasurable, i want to give in

He crushes my heart into tiny glass pieces

Then makes it all better with little night kisses

In my dreams, he appears in a flowing black cape

I run and run but i have never escaped

Sometimes, in those dreams as I am running

With my heart beat so loud and drumming

I will close my eyes and feel my legs grow weak

Tears slipping from my eyes, spilling down my cheek

I hear a laughter growing dangerously close

I open my eyes and see he was the path I chose

I've been running to him, not running away

Instead of pushing him, I want him to stay

He wraps me in his strong arms embrace

His silver eyes & red lusty lips are all I see of his face

Those damned soft lips curl up at their ends

He whipsers in my ear, "oh! How obedient you've been."



Next, his lovely hand reaches to the back of my head

He pulls me in closer and his lusty smile spreads

Oh! I can't wait any longer, I'm about to explode!

I shove my lips on his, but i'm shamed from an action so bold

He assures me it's okay with a return of the kiss

With his hands on my back, I'm in a state of bliss

"This is wrong! This is wrong!" Alarms i begin to hear

"You're kissing the lips of death!" But i dont really care

He began to wrap me in his warm heat

I feel so comfortable there, I give in with defeat

He can have me, I am all his

I let him know with a lingering kiss

He shuddered with the excitement of success

I have no purpose, I bow my head & refuse to protest

He takes me away from my home and town

The one's I knew haven't recognized i'm not around

I begin to sob, I see now that I meant nothing

No one cared I was alone & for the taking

It was the angel of darkness that came to my cry

And wrapped me in his arms until my eyes ran dry

He walks with me, his hand in mine

I wont look back because you didnt notice I died

How can I blame you though? But how can I not?

It doesnt matter now, Death...He's all i got...

You told me I was different

looked me in the eye, said I wasn't the same

You held me close kissed me softly

every touch driving me insane



i've been here before without knowing

i was falling head over heels

every twist of your body

all the passion in your eyes i knew this couldnt be real



but then you had to leave me

just like every other time

i didnt want you to go

you were finally all mine



back to paradise you went

and in hell i sayed

you have every girl you want

i ignore phone calls feeling betrayed



i hope she was worth it

worth you breaking my heart

i swear i will never love again

and with you i will start



some say i was stupid for even likeing you

"you know how he is"

But i can't control the way my body flies

with only one little kiss



but now my body is closing down

saying its goodbyes

of course we'll still be friends

only after this love for you dies

Fuck this world and what we live in!

Fuck the preps and their hidden sin!

Fuck those pastors who just want money!

Fuck you who believe you're better than me!!!