I will tell you this now, to avoid future confusion
that no matter how happy I may seem, or even 'honestly' say I am, the second I am alone with no one watching, I fall back into my head and I wish I were dead
Or wish someone was dead, wishing that I was the one doing it
and he says, “Well I’m sorry. I hope to one day I will make you happy.”
No one will
No one can make anyone 'completely' or 'forever' happy
Sad things happen in life whether you can say it does or mean nothing to you
It will get to you in any way it can, and when it does there’s no letting it go, we feel sadness the first minute we are alone as children and we cry
Because we don’t know what to do
Because we had nothing to do about it
But cry, and sob and feel pathetic, and hate ourselves
Everyone grows up with this
It’s how it is. Don’t forget that.
COMMENTS
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samanthasprettycorpse
03:53 Jul 19 2008
I feel the same, you are not alone.