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Brothers and sisters. . . let us prey.
My name is Dioz Lohman, and I am the head of a household/Family located in Indiana (with Family members living in both Richmond and Muncie, as well as Oklahoma). I became aware that there was something different about me when I was twelve years old, but did not Awaken until I was seventeen (though it perhaps happened a few years earlier).
I am a third degree High Priest of a Coven, which currently consists of only the members of my Family. We each posess our own Pagan or Wiccan ideology and unique beliefs, with universal rules for Circle meetings on Sabbats and Essbats. My personal practices come from Norse beliefs, and others in the Coven include Celtic, Greek, and Hindu. I view spiritual karma as a form of contract, where after meeting with the other spirits in limbo you negotiate a contract that will allow you to live a life that will teach you lessons you need to learn before entering Valhalla.
My other interests are quite varied: I am a piercer and apprentice tattoo artist; a bass player, drummer, and vocalist; I enjoy art in all its form, especially music and sketching; and I have travelled all over the U.S.. In my spare time, what little I can find nowadays, I walk the train tracks in my town. I've pobably put more miles on them than my car. It's a very peaceful place for me; it offers a sort of freedom I can't find anywhere else. I can jump on a track, and go. One day I hope to take a year off and just ride the rails, writing a book I'll never publish.
I'm a Cancer and ruled by the Moon. I am both romantic, and slightly crazy, but who isn't these days? I do a lot of soul searching in my mind all day. like to try and figure out the whats and whys of life. About two years ago, just after I got married, I started wondering about the biggest picture. Not the one that tells me what its for, but the whole scheme of things. I haven't figured it out, yet but if I do I'll be sure to let all of you know. :-)
I am 5'9" with light brown/blonde hair, and blue eyes that shift to green when I'm in a bad mood. I think that's about enough of what I am... you can message me if you'd like to more; now let's get to who I am.
I love horror flicks, and not those lame ass I Know What You Did Last Summer pieces of garbage. I'm talking the classics, like Halloween and Hellraiser. I also like a lot of the more modern, personal horror movies like Lost Highway and Requiem for a Dream (I'm gonna' be on television!). Comedys are also good, like Van Wilder.
As I mentioned art earlier, I spend a lot of my time doing macabre art... paintings, sketches, drawings. Also a lot of self-portraits, looking at what's on the inside and trying to gain an outward perspective. Photography has been my biggest focus lately, mostly because its the cheapest for me right now. I use a lot of black and white film, and shoot scenery or sometimes use color for sunsets and the changing of the leaves. I also have a series I have been working on for years called "The Dead Files." Using prosthetics and make-up, my friends model for me and I do shoots of crime scene photos or suicide series; its a sick fascination, but it occupies my time.
Even though it might be frowned upon by some, I am a gamer. I have a group that meets on Thursday nights to play World of Darkness (old and new), Dungeons & Dragons, Star Wars, Deadlands, and other games. I don't really play minatures games like Warhammer... I like to play Magic, but don't really buy cards; Pirates is also fun.
I love the outdoors. I hate rude people. I love hardcore music. I hate new country and rap.
"World So Cold"
When passion's lost and all the trust is gone,
Way too far, for way too long
Children crying, cast out and neglected,
Only in a world so cold, only in a world
This cold
Hold the hand of your best friend, look into their eyes
Then watch them drift away
Some might say, we've done the wrong things,
For way too long, for way too long
Fever inside the storm,
So I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us
Keep your thorns
'Cause I'm running away,
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold
burning whispers, Remind me of the days,
I was left alone, in a world this cold
Guilty of the same things, provoked by
The cause,
I've left alone, in a world so cold
Fever inside the storm,
So I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us
Keep your thorns
'Cause I'm running away,
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold
I'm flying, I'm flying away,
Away from the names
(Calling your names)
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold
Why does everyone feel like my enemy,
Don't want any part of depression or
Darkness, I've had enough
sick and tired, bring the sun, or I'm gone,
Or I'm gone
I'm backing out, I'm no pawn,
No mother-fucking slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone else
Not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about
Anything
Backing out, giving up, no mother-fucking
Slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone else
Not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about
Anything,
I need to find a darkened corner,
A lightless corner,
Where it's safer and calmer,
I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us
I'm running away,
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold
I'm flying, I'm flying away,
Away from the names
(Calling your names)
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold
You scored as Gangrel. You belong to the Gangrel bloodline. Gangrel are very in touch with nature and for this reason are often loners and hermits. They have a very keen sense of the beast inside them and can let it out with devastating results. They do, however, have a bit less control over their impulsive, animalistic nature and are easy to drive into an uncontrollable frenzy.
Gangrel | 92% | ||
Brujah | 79% | ||
Nosferatu | 58% | ||
Tremere | 58% | ||
Malkavian | 38% | ||
Toreador | 29% | ||
Ventrue | 25% |
You are the Moon card. Entering the Moon we enter
the intuitive and psychic realms. This is the
stuff dreams are made on. And like dreams the
imagery we find here may inspire us or torment
us. Understanding the moon requires looking
within. Our own bodily rhythms are echoed in
this luminary that circles the earth every
month and reflects the sun in its progress.
Listening to those rhythms may produce visions
and lead you towards insight. The Moon is a
force that has legends attached to it. It
carries with it both romance and insanity.
Moonlight reveals itself as an illusion and it
is only those willing to work with the force of
dreams that are able to withstand this
reflective light.
Which Tarot Card Are You?
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You are Form 8, Demon: The Destroyer.
"And The Demon took advantage of the chaos
and seized civillization. With grace and
style, Demon slit The Goddess's belly and
drowned the world in her blood. The Goddess,
The Demon, and the world were no
more."
Some examples of the Demon Form are Seth (Egyptian)
and The Horsemen of the Apocalypse (Christian).
The Demon is associated with the concept of
destruction, the number 8, and the element of
earth.
His sign is the full moon.
As a member of Form 8, you are a very strong willed
individual. You don't let others' opinions
sway your own and you're usually not afraid to
speak your mind. However, some may see you as
a bit overly passionate but it's just because
you never back down from your values. No
matter what, you always do everything with
style. Demons are the best friends to have
because they will back you up.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
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Thunder and Lightening
The rumble is just the beginning to your rather
fitful state of mind. Lightening is the outcome
of built up aggression. Everything seems to be
happening at once.. and though sometimes a
short display of emotion, it's dynamic
effectiveness leaves you shaken. All that brews
within stays calm until the last minute. In a
way however people trust you because they know
you for you. You don't hold anything back and
the people that are close to you respect this.
What storm is brewing inside you? (with pictures)
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