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...Given any chance... i would surrender the life i was given. for i was cursed the day came that i realized who i was. with a literal tongue and a thirst for dreams...i would drive myself mad. i have thoughts and a knowledge that one would and could not even phathom. with that an overwhelming paranoia to taunt my mind. think i may be delusional... maybe vain. whether the case of being crazy or conceeded i still struggle with reality. i dont see myself ever finding salvationin an unstable mindset. fighting myself, mind, and others... my opinion leads me to believe that for the rest of my life i will suffer greatly. if there was assistance im sure of it that i would have thought of it... and that i have not.
life should be something to enjoy... yet i invision myself like i said....struggling. my vision of an atmospherical and worthwhile life span surely will be cut short be my hand. a vision of unbarable happiness is to far to grasp and at this point i honestly dont think i would even embrace it. i hate life and knowing that i have an entire one ahead of me. due to the circumstances i can account for one thing... that
I WILL HATE my life until the day i die and when that day comes i will fade myself into the world that i have longed to cherish. i have been decepted and foiled by my mind...and at such a ridiculusly young age. twenty years old and already im more excited to die than a fat man at an everlasting free buffet...i suppose i will have to suck it up....like maynard james keenan said
"we are eternal... all this pain is an illusion"
but being eternal is too much to handle... i have confided in myself to live unhappily, alone, and mentally destroyed... it has happened to me, the least i can do is take the credit. so i will wear my dome on my sleeve and i guess my heart can go under my boot........................later on
......... xak.........