I walk alone. There used to be a time in my life that I would have preferred to walk with others, to join with people like me. Now I am finding that there are no people like me left. I am unique. I allow my heart to lead me, to take me places I have only dreamed of. Sometimes I find bliss, and other times I find only misery and suffering. I once vowed never to make that mistake again, never to follow my heart, but I lied. Life is too much of an adventure to give up hope, to not dream. One bad experience will not define me. I am all that I have known.
My friends know me as kind hearted, with a love of life and nature. My enemies used to know me as pure evil. Some still think of me that way. But, I am changing, evolving. Forgiveness is amazing. It makes the sun brighter, the moon smile, the stars twinkle more. But, most importantly, I smile more. Let my enemies hate me, I will not dwell on it anymore.
As I grow in life, I grow mentally. I learn or experience something new everyday, it is my only rule. I have yet to have any of my questions go unanswered. I seek the darkness as well as the light. I want to know more, experience more. I am sure, in time, all the mysteries will unfold in front of me, and I will know more than I could have ever imagined. Until then, I will wait, patiently, for I have all the time in the world.
Want to know more about me, read my journal. I am trying to update it daily. You might be surprised what you find out.
OR: IM me on yahoo. I love to talk to new people, get to know people, talk about the workings of the universe, persay. If I am online at the rave, chances are, my messenger is on as well:
sarahestatha @ yahoo.com
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So I finally gave in and did this personality profile thingy. Here you go:
What is your name : Ask me...
How old are you?: 27
When is your Birthday?: 10/17
What is your zodiac sign?: Libra
Where were you born?: Montana
Where do you live now?: Tucson, AZ
What color are your eyes? Brown
What color is your hair?: Black
How tall are you?: 5'8"
What is your race?: White/Norwegian
What is your worst fear?: Lack of knowledge
Do you smoke?: yes
Do you drink?: socially
Do you cuss?: No
Do you use drugs?: Not anymore
Have you or will you ever steal?: never
Are you dependable and/or trustworthy?: Depends on who you talk to
Do you play in a band or play an instrument?: Piano
Do you have any tattoos and/or piercings?: None that I can show you in public
If you had a favorite serial killer who would it be?: I don't like serial killers.
Do you suffer from depression disorder?: No
If you had a choice about how you wanted to die what would it be?: Drowning
Have you ever tried to commit suicide?: yes
Have you ever purposely caused harm to yourself or someone else?: Never on purpose. The greatest harm starts with the best of intentions.
What subculture do you belong too?: sophisto-goth
Are you evil?: Only to my enemies.
Do you believe that you can be possesed?: no
Are you a paranoid?: Are you a cop?
Do you ever get jealous of somebody else?: I am content with me. We are all unique, and that is what makes us special.
Are you obsessive and/or compulsive?: no
Are you a violent person?: Again, only to my enemies.
Do you take your anger out on other people?: Never.
Do you blame other people for your mistakes?: No. I am a master of my own devices.
What is your favorite game?: Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic 1 & 2
What is your favorite movie?: Dune, Lost in Translation
Who is your favorite band?: Staind, Evanescence, Slipknot
What is your favorite song?: Vermillion Pt. 2, Slipknot
What kind of books do you read?: Science Fiction, Harry Potter
What is your favorite color?: Yellow
What is your favorite food?: Pizza
What is your favorite drink?: Manhattan Skyline
Do you skateboard?: yes
Do you watch wrestling?: and hooah
Do you study martial arts?: no
Would you ever kill yourself or someone else?: In self defence or self-loathing.
Are you a virgin?: Hahahahah!
Are you kinky?: Depends...
Do you like biting?: mmmmm, of course
Have you ever dyed your hair an unusual color?: not too unusual
Are you hyper active person?: When I have had sugar. (I am the great Cornhilio!)
Do you like to write poetry?: Of course. Read my journal?
Do you like to do your own photography?: Sometimes.
Do you like modeling and/or acting?: I am the greatest actress in the world. lol.
Do you have any self inflicted scars?: Yes.
Are you religious?: not really
Do you stand for originality and creativity?: Yes.
Do you believe in vampires?: yes
Does pain turn you on?: sometimes, depends
Do you believe in witchcraft?: I walk my own path.
Have you ever played a oiuja board or used tarot cards?: Yes.
Do you like to rave or go to clubs often?: Yes.
Do you go to many concerts?: I have never been to a concert, but would love to go sometime.
Do you like meeting new people and hanging out?: definetely
What do you like most about life?: The end result.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: It can happen.
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One
To be alone
Inconsequential
A solitary bump
To never know
A kiss
A touch
To never love
And
In that existence
To be
One
Aphrodite/Eros
You are like the Greek God or goddess of love. You firmly believe in soulmates, in caring for each other and ultimately staying true to your partner. You've either found, or are looking for "The One" for you. Romantic, kind, generous and always loving - you have a beauty that is inexplicable both inside and out.
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Magic
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YOU ARE A MAGICAL BEING... You tend to be the most timid, but often the smartest. Mystical certainly describes you, and you have an air of mystery about you. You're like a magical being because you have the power to change people's minds and make people reconsider when they decide the wrong things. You tend to be helpful and generous to those you think deserve it, and are a very loyal friend. People admire you from afar.
Changeling: You are one of the forgotten ones, the
keepers of dreams that spread light and joy in
a world of darkness. You are a fairy caught
within a human shell, using your body to keep
safe from the cold disbelief just outside your
door. Your kind is as varied as the dreams you
were born from, and you find that fewer
children today believe in the magic and wonder
of your kind, but you can not give up hope..
The winter is fast approaching, but you gather
dreams tightly about you, a blanket to keep the
chill away. You will never truly die as long as
there are still people with hopes and dreams.
If you would like to know more, please take my
changeling quiz to find out what type you would
be classified as at:
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Ghille Dhu. You are more connected to the natural
cycle of things than most, and thus feel a step
apart sometimes. Still, you love the woods, the
fields, the open air and a small breeze to blow
about your wisps of hair. Everything is
cyclical, and the winter will be followed by a
new spring. Death is just another step in the
natural cycle leading towards rebirth.
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Forgotten Vampire of The Night
You are such a good person!ou always followed the rules. Yet even with your sweet dispostion you are here in your sell. You've become greater then humans, but still feel as one and will do all in your power not to become
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awsome, ur a witch
Yeah ur a witch, and thats cool. So am i. Glad ur not one who thinks they r.
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Goodbye Kiss
The kiss where you know where he/she is coming back for more.
Your soul is bound to the First Totem, Ares:
The Dove.
Ares appears as a pearl dove. She embodies
love, peace, balance, and devotion. She
is associated with the color pearl, the season
of transition, and the element of love. Her
downfall is idolization.
You are most compatible with Wolves and White
Stags.
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You aren't sure where you came from. Perhaps your sire did an embrace and run. Or maybe your sire was an outcast himself. Either way, your powers are unique and really don't belong to any clan...or maybe a little from each. Because you of these circumstances, you aren't really sure where you belong. You tend to wander and do a bit of soul searching in your eternal life. Maybe some day...you have a while after all.
What Vampire Clan Do You Belong To?
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The Caitiff
The clansless. Caitiffs, are a new aspect to the vampire's society. They don't have anyone to teach them Disciplines, and no one to tell them of the Traditions. This doesn't mean they don't know any Disciplines, they could very well make their own, but usually they figure out a few small tricks to a few Disciplines. Some may even group together every once in a while, but not likely. They prefer their freedom, and the will to do what they will.
Caitiff are vampires with no clan to call their own. This usually happens because their sire despised them and left them to die. And the occasional victim of feeding gets lucky, and some how gets some of the vampires blood. They are also the rebellious ones, and some take leave of their sire and do as they will, most of the time moving to a new city or some where remote.
Most of the other clans look upon the Caitiff as trash, weak blooded, no knowledge of who and what they are and leave them to them selves as long as they don't cause any trouble, and most defiantly don't break the Masquerade.
Wine
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Your Heart is Blue
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You are sad because of your grief
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Your element is Water. You have a calm aura around
you and are in tune with the world around. You
observe it but rarely interfere. Because of
your shy and timid nature you will not have so
many friends in your life. But then again,
large crowds aren't your thing anyway. You are
comfortable on your own and are reserved to
others who you don't know or know very little
of. You know everyone out there does not want
to be your friend, and knowing that is good.
However, people who don't know you that well
thinks that you are cold and distant since you
don't want to talk to them. Although you mean
no harm, you can't always be perfectly
understood in the world. No one can. Life in
general are you quite serene with even if there
are some things you don't like. Your love-life
is not so full of boys/girls, but if you
flirted more with the ones you were interested
in I'm sure something would happen. The hobbies
you choose are calmer ones, you are no party
girl that likes to drink and make-out with
three or more guys/girls in one night. Reading
a book or swimming is more your thing. Rate and
message!
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Your wise quote is: "Love is life. And if you
miss love, you miss life" by Leo
Buscaglia.
Yes, love is indeed what you desire in your
life. If you have it or not is another matter,
but it is in your eyes the most important
feeling. You tend to be a romantic dreamer and
want you and your love to have that kind of
perfect love that you hear about in fairytales.
However that can be hard to find, but it
doesn't mean you are going to stop looking.
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